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Shen XiuZhu’s skin was still very pale, and with his upper body naked, he walked towards the man step by step.
“The doctor said that I can do some exercise properly now.” Shen XiuZhu smiled, “Including bedroom exercise.”
Shen XiuZhu came to He Yang, and slowly leaned over.
“I can also go to bed with you.”
Shen XiuZhu reached out and touched the man’s suit jacket with his fingertips, as if he wanted to undo it.
He Yang stretched out his hand to stop Shen XiuZhu’s movement, “Put on your clothes.”
Shen XiuZhu didn’t leave, but still stood in front of He Yang, and asked with a smile: “We’ve known each other for so long, don’t you want to have a try with me?”
“It’s the first time for me.”
After finishing speaking, Shen XiuZhu approached again, almost sticking his whole body on the man, wanting to kiss him.
But before Shen XiuZhu had time to kiss the man, his body was pushed away.
He Yang got up, walked towards the door without saying a word.
Shen XiuZhu looked at the back of the man leaving, and shouted a little out of composure: “He Yang!”
He Yang didn’t stop, and left the office directly, closing the door.
He Yang stayed outside. He came to the window, and lit a cigarette.
Not long after, there was movement from the office.
He Yang looked up and saw Shen XiuZhu coming out from inside.
Shen XiuZhu had already put on his clothes, but his eyes were still a little red.
Shen XiuZhu was wrapped in a coat and looked at the man by the window.
The man leaned against the wall, the scarlet dot on his fingertips flickered on and off, his expression remained indifferent.
Hearing the sound of footsteps, He Yang looked slightly sideways and said in a low voice: “I have already told the Shen family that you should go to the nursing home to rest for a while.”
Shen XiuZhu looked at the man, and suddenly said: “We have known each other for more than 20 years. Are you really going to drive me away now?”
He Yang said casually: “It’s just going out to rest for a while.”
“Because of Xu ChengYan, right?” Shen XiuZhu asked.
He Yang didn’t answer.
“He is already dead, and you have found a substitute now.” Shen XiuZhu lost his temper, “Because of a mere substitute, you want to drive me away.”
“Don’t you like me?” Shen XiuZhu’s tone became a little excited, “If I had never left in those five years, we might already be together now, and there would be no Xu ChengYan——”
“Shen XiuZhu.” He Yang interrupted him. He met Shen XiuZhu’s eyes, and said slowly: “Are you misunderstanding something? I never liked you.”
Maybe he was emotionally slow before.
But when Shen XiuZhu had to go abroad, he was never reluctant to part with him.
It’s just that the little brother next door was sent abroad to study, and they were separated for five years.
If he really liked someone, he wouldn’t go so far as to not going to see them once.
He Yang said: “I didn’t look for you in those five years.”
Shen XiuZhu was stunned. He lowered his eyes, and said in a low voice: “Then, I must have misunderstood…….”
Shen XiuZhu also remembered that in those five years, they rarely contacted each other, and every time it was him who took the initiative to find He Yang.
“I will arrange a doctor for you.” He Yang said, “Get some rest from now on.”
He Yang turned around and left, passing by his side.
***
After leaving the company, He Yang went to the hospital.
In the ward, the old lady on the bed was already asleep, and Qin Zhou was watching her beside the hospital bed.
Qin Zhou saw He Yang outside, so he got up and went to the corridor.
Qin Zhou closed the door of the ward. He lowered his eyes, and seemed to be in a bad mood.
He Yang asked: “What’s wrong?”
“The doctor said Grandma’s condition is not good.” Sitting on the waiting chair, Qin Zhou closed his eyes tiredly and sighed softly.
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He Yang sat beside him, leaning over, wanting to hug.
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He Yang paused. He retracted his hand, and said, “Shen XiuZhu came to the company to find me just now, it must have stained then.”
“M-hm.” Qin Zhou replied perfunctorily.
“He will stay abroad in the future.”
Qin Zhou nodded and said, “You don’t need to explain it to me in such detail.”
Qin Zhou was not interested in Shen XiuZhu’s affairs. He leaned back in his chair, and continued to look at the ward opposite.
He Yang kept Qin Zhou company by his side, waiting quietly.
At night, Grandma woke up.
Qin Zhou came to the ward and called out: “Grandma.”
The old woman on the bed looked over and asked, “Where’s Xiao Zhou?”
The old woman’s voice sounded a little dry.
Qin Zhou poured a cup of hot water and handed it over.
Grandma stretched out her hand to hold Qin Zhou’s arm, and asked again: “Where’s Xiao Zhou………..”
Qin Zhou said patiently as before: “Grandma, I’m right here.”
It’s just that this time, Grandma didn’t answer, she just stared at Qin Zhou for a long time and asked, “Are you Xiao Zhou’s friend?”
Qin Zhou was taken aback for a moment, but he quickly realized and nodded.
“Yes, I’m his friend.” Qin Zhou smiled at Grandma.
“What about Xiao Zhou?”
Qin Zhou explained: “He’s working outside and is a bit busy.”
Qin Zhou held the water glass and asked Grandma to drink the water first.
Grandma seemed to be in a good state of mind this time, and she still remembered her little grandson, and she didn’t admit the wrong person.
Grandma leaned against the bed and asked with concern: “Then when will he come back?”
“Maybe he won’t come back until night.” Qin Zhou still smiled.
“It’s until night……….” Grandma nodded, and with some effort she got up, leaned over to the bedside table, and flipped through the drawers.
Grandma took out a small purse from inside, stuffed it into Qin Zhou’s hand, and said, “Give this to Xiao Zhou……..”
Qin Zhou nodded in response.
Grandma didn’t seem very relieved, she grabbed Qin Zhou’s arm and told him over and over again: “Remember to give it to Xiao Zhou………. give it to Xiao Zhou…….”
Qin Zhou hurriedly said: “Grandma, please sleep first, and you will be able to see Xiao Zhou when you wake up.”
“Okay…….” Grandma lay on the bed and continued to mutter: “I’ll wait for Xiao Zhou……..”
Grandma’s voice became softer and softer, then she lay on the bed, closed her eyes and gradually fell asleep.
Then, she fell asleep and never woke up again.
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Grandma passed away.
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Grandma passed away in her sleep.
Qin Zhou kept guarding the side, and when he found something abnormal, he calmly called the doctor.
Grandma was old and not in good health, and this day would come sooner or later.
He had long been mentally prepared.
Qin Zhou sat on a chair in the corridor, took out the purse, and opened it.
There were some small changes in the purse. It could be seen that Grandma had saved it for a long time.
In addition to the change, there was also a photo of a boy inside.
The boy was about seven or eight years old, and the photo looked a bit old, probably from a long time ago.
Qin Zhou picked up the photo and recognized that the little boy in the photo was the tour guide.
Qin Zhou looked at the child in the photo for a long time, and finally put the photo back into the purse.
Although he was mentally prepared for this day, when this day actually came, he still felt unreal and felt a little empty in his heart.
Qin Zhou sat on the chair with no emotion on his face, and he was a little dazed.
In the corridor, nurses came and went, and the doctor even came to talk to him.
However, Qin Zhou couldn’t quite hear what that person said, so he just stared at the wall in a daze.
Then, like a robot, he went through the formalities for Grandma and prepared to send the body to be cremated.
When Qin Zhou regained consciousness, he was already holding Grandma’s urn in his arms.
Qin Zhou lowered his head, touched the lines on the urn, and then looked up to the side.
He Yang was by his side, always accompanying him.
Qin Zhou took out his phone from the pocket, glanced at the calendar, and found that three days had passed.
Three days.
But these three days seemed to have passed only three hours, with no memory at all.
Qin Zhou called out: “He Yang.”
He Yang responded and asked in a low voice, “Go back?”
“Yeah.” Qin Zhou nodded.
Qin Zhou hugged the urn, got up, and followed He Yang.
Qin Zhou’s face was still very calm, but his peach blossom eyes were dull.
After returning to the apartment, Qin Zhou hugged the urn and stayed alone on the balcony.
In addition to Grandma’s urn, Qin Zhou also brought the tour guide’s urn and put the two together.
The tour guide’s hometown was a small rural village in the north. Originally, he planned to visit his hometown during this period of time and bury the tour guide’s urn there.
It’s just that before he had time to choose a cemetery, Grandma’s urn arrived first.
Qin Zhou looked at the two urns on the table, but there’s no reaction.
It wasn’t until He Yang came over that Qin Zhou got up and followed He Yang to the dining room.
After eating dinner mechanically, he went back to the bedroom and went to the bathroom to take a shower.
Everything was still as usual.
Qin Zhou lay on the bed, closed his eyes, and was about to fall asleep.
He Yang was beside him, touching the young man’s face with his fingertips, and called in a low voice: “YanYan?”
Qin Zhou opened his eyes and looked over, smiled: “I’m fine.”
Qin Zhou closed his eyes again. He lowered his head slightly, buried his head in the quilt, and fell asleep.
He Yang turned off the light and lay beside him, still not sleepy.
Not long after, He Yang noticed a slight movement from the side, so he leaned over, “YanYan?”
He Yang slightly lifted the quilt, and saw the young man huddled up on the bed, with tears still on his face.
He Yang leaned over, and his lips kissed the young man’s face.
“It’s okay.” He Yang comforted him, moving his fingertips slightly, wiping away the tears on the young man’s face.
“I’m the only one left……..” Qin Zhou reached out and hugged the man on his body, his voice choking up, “I’m a liar……….”
He was a liar.
Even in the end, Grandma didn’t know that her little grandson had actually been dead in a car accident.
“I’m the only one left……..” Qin Zhou couldn’t control his emotions.
“It’s okay.” He Yang comforted him over and over again, and with great difficulty, finally coaxed the person in his arms to sleep.
But when Qin Zhou woke up the next day, the situation got worse.
All day long, Qin Zhou sat on the balcony without moving.
Eating nothing, not even drinking water.
Kept sitting without moving, just like a robot.
“YanYan.” He Yang handed over a bowl of porridge.
Qin Zhou glanced at it, but didn’t take it.
He Yang put the porridge on the table. He sat beside him, and held the young man’s hand.
Qin Zhou didn’t take it back, but just looked at two people’s hands clasped together, and suddenly said: “He Yang.”
“It would be great if I was the one who died that day.” Qin Zhou’s voice was very soft.
He was an orphan anyway, so it didn’t matter if he died.
In this case, at least the one who stayed by Grandma’s side would be the real grandson.
Grandma had always been thinking about her little grandson, but it’s a pity that she couldn’t wait for the little grandson to come back until she died.
“If I was the one who died that day……….” Qin Zhou became a little absent-minded.
He Yang on the side didn’t speak, just leaned over and hugged the young man.
Qin Zhou opened his eyes and felt the warm touch, but stretched out his hand slightly and pushed the man away a little.
Qin Zhou continued to lie on the recliner by himself, curled up into a ball, and stopped talking.
Cut himself off from the outside world.
***
For several days, Qin Zhou remained in this state, neither eating nor drinking.
Soon, Qin Zhou’s body collapsed. He developed a high fever, and was admitted to the hospital.
After Jiang Lin found out, he came to the hospital to visit Qin Zhou, and sat by the hospital bed to help peel apples.
“Brother Zhou, are you okay?” Jiang Lin asked cautiously.
Qin Zhou leaned halfway on the hospital bed, smiled, and replied, “Pretty good.”
Jiang Lin peeled the apples, cut the apples into small pieces, put them on a plate, and handed them over.
Qin Zhou didn’t have much appetite, but he still took the plate and ate slowly.
“I asked the doctor before, Grandma is getting old, and it’s not easy to get through it.” Jiang Lin said, “Brother Zhou, these are normal, it’s okay.”
“Yes.” Qin Zhou nodded.
He also knew that Grandma wouldn’t last long, and birth, old age, sickness and death were all normal.
It’s just that when he thought about it, he still felt uncomfortable.
Qin Zhou ate the apple and said in a low voice, “I’m just not used to it.”
He had been with Grandma for three years, and Grandma was like his family.
In the past, he always wanted to make more money and see a doctor for Grandma.
But now Grandma suddenly left.
It was as if his life had lost all meaning, and he didn’t know what to do at all.
Qin Zhou said softly: “I just feel that there will be no meaning in the future.”
After hearing this, Jiang Lin looked at the young man on the bed, and suddenly asked, “Brother Zhou, are you sad now?”
Without waiting for Qin Zhou to answer, Jiang Lin said: “It must be very sad for family members or friends to leave suddenly, right?”
Jiang Lin stretched his hand out and helped Qin Zhou cover with the quilt, “Actually, I’m also very sad.”
“You didn’t come to see me, and you didn’t even give me a call.” Jiang Lin felt a little aggrieved, “I’ve been really sad for a long time.”
“I regret it so much. I still dream of you and car accidents at night “
At the beginning, he really thought that his sister-in-law had passed away.
It’s not that he couldn’t accept life and death, but he couldn’t accept such an accidental death.
“Brother Zhou, why didn’t you even give me a call……..” Jiang Lin complained, “It would be nice to just send me a message……..”
Qin Zhou opened his mouth, wanting to say something.
But he didn’t know why, and he couldn’t say anything.
Jiang Lin leaned over, hugged Qin Zhou, and said seriously, “Brother Zhou, why would it be meaningless? There are other people who care about you.”
Qin Zhou hugged the person in front of him back, “I’m sorry……..”
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T/N: I’m sorry for disappearing without a word again. There’s something personal in rl and anyway, I am sorry about the so-called hiatus. I won’t promise anything since every time I made a promise, things always go wrong. Anyway, I’ll try to keep up with the schedule and update asap I finish translating. Hope you could understand me. Sorry & Thank you!
Hope your situation turns for the better translator!! 🩷💖
Shen XiuZhu really is just.. ugh. I really really REALLY hate him. I hope Qin Zhou can recover from all the events that’s happened soon! 🩷
real life problem are why more important, take your time and be well!
thanks for the translation by the way
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Thank You for the new chapter (๑˙❥˙๑) No need for sorry, take Your time!
Thank you for the chapter! I know you have real life obligations, I’m thankful for each new chapter, whenever they’re available. I hope you’re getting enough rest 💙
I cried so much. T-T it pains me to read about how sad mc is.
his prev name, he only had one person that truly cared for him, JL.
his new name’s grandma helped him as an anchor and yet now she’s gone too. he’s so lost and my heart just breaks. I’m glad that at least there’s JL to help me, since he’s someone that truly cared for him in both names.
I’m really glad they made the relationship between JL and XY familial. For an orphan like XY, I think family is really what he needs most 🥺