Warnings:
Mentions of depression and self-harm.
Yang Yan looked resolutely into Xu Ze’s eyes.
Xu Ze pursed his lips, as if he was seriously considering it.
“If I want a billion, will you give it to me?” Xu Ze raised his chin a little and asked.
Yang Yan did not hesitate and nodded: “I will give it!”
Xu Ze smiled, shook his head and laughed: “I don’t want money, I have money myself, I prefer to spend what I have earned.”
Seeing that Yang Yan’s expression changed, probably thinking that Xu Ze would not leave, Xu Ze continued: “But don’t worry, I will go. Originally, I also planned to travel and not stay in one place all the time. It would be a waste of time. But I also have a condition!” The eyes of Xu Ze were sharpened.
“What condition?” No matter what Xu Ze proposes, Yang Yan will satisfy him.
However, the conditions proposed by Xu Ze can be said to be quite straightforward, and they even helped Yang Yan to a certain extent.
“Xiao Ze and I have made an appointment to meet one more time. I’ll take the opportunity and tell you about my trip, which will save you some explaining.” It seems that Xu Ze was being quite considerate of Yang Yan.
Yang Yan was very grateful. There was still a wound from Xu Ze’s bite on the tip of his tongue, and the pain reminded Yang Yan of what he had done to Xu Ze just now.
“Xu Ze, thank you, thank you very much.” Yang Yan apologized very sincerely.
“You don’t need to thank me, you just need to take care of Xiao Ze in the future.” Xu Ze had no other requirements.
Yang Yan nodded: “Don’t worry about this, he is my only son. From now on, no one will be able to take his place.”
Yang Yan knew that Xu Ze really cared for his son.
“I don’t think you should have anything else to discuss? Then I’ll leave first.” Xu Ze guessed that Yang Yan came here because of this matter. As for Yang Yan’s sudden kiss just now, Yang Yan apologized to him with a very sincere attitude, and Yang Yan made it clear that his hope that he will leave is not a lie.
For the sake of the baby, Xu Ze can ignore Yang Yan’s momentary loss of control that offended him.
Turning around, Xu Ze left in front of Yang Yan. Although this was the community where he lived, he did not send Yang Yan out of the community like the friends would.
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He suddenly wondered that if after having this body in the first place he had directly left this city and completely disappeared from the sight of Yang Yan and the baby, these things would not be happening to him now.
Xu Ze smiled, because he knew that what had happened had already happened.
It’s alright, it’s alright, he have to go, it’s just a matter of time.
That night, Xu Ze sat on the sofa for a long time before going back into the room to lie down and sleep.
In his sleep, Xu Ze had a dream, a dream about the past. He dreamed that he was lying on the operating table, and the doctor took a scalpel to make a bloody wound on his abdomen, and then the doctor took a baby out of his body.
Xu Ze wanted to reach out to touch the baby, but his body was numb, making it impossible for him to raise his arms.
The doctor carried the baby and went out, not to bathe the baby, but walked out of the operating room, Xu Ze opened his mouth to shout to stop, but the doctor moved further and further away.
Xu Ze woke up from the nightmare, when he opened his eyes, he was stunned as if in a trance, he first looked at the door and knew that he was not in the delivery room, but in his own house.
He lowered his eyes, lifted the hem of his pajamas, and looked down at his abdomen. His abdomen was smooth and flat with no scars. Xu Ze closed his eyes tightly and slowly opened them after a few seconds.
Turning on the desk lamp, Xu Ze took the phone from him and looked at the time, it was after three in the morning.
He had a headache. Xu Ze did not lie down and fell asleep again immediately. He opened the photo album on his phone and found the baby photo. It was from a few days ago when he accompanied the baby to the aquarium. After leaving the aquarium, he took a photo in the small park next to it. In the photo, the baby’s smile is pure and bright. There is probably nothing more beautiful than the smiling face of the baby in this world.
Staring at the baby photo for a long time, Xu Ze later put down the phone, turned off the desk lamp, and closed his eyes again, but falling asleep was more difficult than he thought. He was sleepy, but he just couldn’t sleep.
Xu Ze fell asleep after four and woke up at seven the next day.
After waking up, Xu Ze bought his plane ticket on his mobile phone. He didn’t need to bring a lot of luggage when he left, just a few clothes. Although his personal savings weren’t particularly large, it was enough for him to use for a while.
Xu Ze bought a ticket for this Saturday and planned to leave on that day. Xu Ze did not say anything to anyone else for the time being.
And on Thursday, when Xu Ze contacted the baby, he naturally told Yang Yan in advance.
Xu Ze had a car and drove there to pick up the baby. He thought that Yang Yan would not follow him, but Yang Yan took the position of bodyguard and came out with the baby.
Seeing from a distance a big one and a small one with similar faces approaching him, he thought that regardless of whether it was the big one or the small one, if he tells some particular facts, Xu Ze believes that they will definitely accept him back, then the small family will be complete without any impediment.
In that home, they will live a happy and beautiful life.
Yang Yan’s Depression: Yang Yan got burned by a cigarette butt due to losing control of his emotions. Xu Ze roughly understood that this situation was depression and if there was something that could help him control his emotions then Yang Yan’s symptoms would alleviate. Or he should heal immediately.
And the baby will get the full love of two parents, not just one.
Seeing the two walking towards him, Xu Ze shook his head to interrupt his thoughts. He opened the door and got out of the car. His eyes met Yang Yan’s. Those eyes were soft. Xu Ze turned down and looked at the baby.
The baby immediately let go of Yang Yan’s hand and rushed towards Xu Ze. Xu Ze stopped and squatted on the ground, stretching out his arms to hug the baby.
Seeing Xu Ze again, the baby was very happy, shouted “uncle” in a clear voice, and went on to give Xu Ze a big kiss on the face.
“Uncle, where are we going to play today?” The little boy asked happily.
“Shall we go to the zoo to see pandas?”
“Pandas? Well, I like pandas, they are very cute” The baby said, fidgeting happily in Xu Ze’s arms.
Xu Ze looked at the baby and looked at Yang Yan behind him. It seemed that this person had lost a lot of weight and had a deep blue color under his eyes.
“You and the baby sit in the back, and I will drive.” Yang Yan saw the baby stick to Xu Ze, and decided that he was driving.
Xu Ze did not argue with Yang Yan about who he was driving, there was nothing to argue about.
Yang Yan was driving in front, and the baby and Xu Ze were talking behind. The baby asked Xu Ze what animals were in the zoo, whether there were lions, giraffes, peacocks, etc. Xu Ze responded to everything with a gentle smile.
“Is there monkeys?” The baby’s big eyes were innocent and bright.
“Yes, there are a lot.”
“So they will catch the people?” The baby asked cautiously.
Xu Ze held the baby’s little hand and said: “No, they live in the house and can’t catch anyone.”
“I’m not afraid of them, I will protect uncle and daddy!” The little one immediately puffed out his small chest when he said this.
“Yes, our baby is very powerful, he is a brave man.” Xu Ze praised the baby.
The baby smiled happily.
Yang Yan, who was driving in front, heard the conversation of the two people behind. Unlike the smiling faces of the two people behind, Yang Yan was not smiling and even looked very solemn.
Because he knew that this was the last meeting between the baby and Xu Ze, and Xu Ze would leave after today. Xu Ze promised that he would leave and Yang Yan believed that Xu Ze would keep his promise to him.
The car was driving quietly, and Yang Yan held the steering wheel tightly with both hands. The two people in the back of the car really looked like father and son. Even Yang Yan and the baby may not be that close.
If the young man’s name was not Xu Ze, if the young man was not so similar to his previous lover, Yang Yan thought that he would do his best to keep the young man close, so that the young man could always be with the baby and accompany Xiao Ze while growing up.
However, all of Yang Yan’s guesses were in vain. Because he saw that Xu Ze’s temperament and behavior was so similar to that of his baby’s father, he was afraid that he would not be able to bear it if he continued in contact with him.
That night’s kiss was still fresh in Yang Yan’s memory and he always remembered it from time to time. Then Yang Yan suddenly had a terrible thought. That thought was that if he really used this Xu Ze as a substitute for him, or if he even transferred his love to this new Xu Ze, he actually wondered if this Xu Ze would suddenly leave as well.
Even if it was just a momentary thought, Yang Yan didn’t want something like this to happen again.
Yang Yan originally drove slowly, so that he could prolong the time he spent with Xu Ze, but now he slowly increased his speed.
The car arrived outside the zoo soon after, and the three entered after buying tickets.
Originally, the baby was holding Xu Ze’s hand, but then he stopped and turned his head to wait for Yang Yan, who was left behind.
“Daddy, hurry up!” The baby called Yang Yan asking him to hurry up.
Yang Yan approached with his long legs in a few steps, and the way his eyes looked at the baby was as soft as spring water: “What’s wrong?”
“Daddy, I’ll guide you, don’t get lost.” The baby asked his father to hold his hand. Both Xu Ze and Yang Yan were shocked, but the baby looked serious, as if he really was going to lose Yang Yan if he didn’t pay attention.
The baby was holding Xu Ze with his left hand and his father with his right hand, and the baby was standing in the middle. That scene was extremely peaceful at the time.
The three of them, whether it is the two adults or the baby, are all very handsome. The two adults are tall and have long legs, and their bodies are tall and straight, they don’t bend their backs slightly like most people, and their aura makes people unable to look away from them as they walk by. And the baby in the middle has smooth snow-white skin, beautiful facial features, and is as delicate as a doll. The baby has a pair of peach blossom eyes. He blinks his big eyes and his face is smiling. He looks around curiously at everything around his. Everyone who saw the baby felt that he was too cute.
Those three people were walking together hand in hand, like a beautiful scenery. Someone secretly took a photo with his mobile phone and sent it to a friend after taking the photo. The friend was immediately excited and envious, and regretted not going to the zoo with him, otherwise he would have met those three big/little handsome boys.
These three people did not pay attention to the glances or comments of other people around them and entered the zoo.
Xu Ze and Yang Yan accompanied the baby to see all the animals. When the baby was tired of walking, Xu Ze would hold it or Yang Yan would hold it.
The baby was looking at the animals, Xu Ze was looking at the baby, and Yang Yan was looking at the baby and Xu Ze. Looking at the two, Yang Yan thought that if ‘Xu Ze’ had not left, if the Xu Ze in front of him was his Xu Ze, it would definitely be the same as now.
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thanks for the chapter.
Thank You for the new chapter ♡(ღ˘⌣˘ღ)
I’ve been crying since Xu Ze had decided to leave again.
It’s both of them who are the problem…
Gosh.. i still have work tomorrow and my eyes are already puffy..
Thanks for the story, it will continue?