Han Shaobai was about to say something, but Shao Qinhan looked at him coldly, “If you want to keep talking, go away.”
Han Shaobai remained silent for a moment, as silent as a chicken, ducking his head to eat, but in his heart, he became more and more curious about Shao Qinhan’s relationship with Shen Liang.
Thanks to his mentioning it, Shen Liang finally remembered his plan from yesterday, as if he didn’t know how far it had developed. He wanted to ask Shao Qinhan, but he couldn’t because Han Shaobai was present, so he waited until Han Shaobai had drunk and eaten enough before asking, “Where is my brother?”
Shao Qinhan was sitting on the other side of the table, he was slow to react to his words, “He went back to campus.”
Shen Liang thought that’s not what I’m asking, “Didn’t you both have anything last night?”
Shao Qinhan smiled coldly, “Why do you think something happened between us?”
His hand under the table held a cigarette Han Shaobai had handed him earlier, but he didn’t smoke it. His fingertips clenched silently, bending the cigarette in half, and his fingers rubbed it viciously, scattering the tobacco, tortured until it was “broken to the core”.
After Shao Qinhan did all this expressionlessly, he felt a little better, but not enough.
Shen Liang didn’t remember what happened yesterday, he only remembered that Shen Yan was drunk and was taken home. If Shao Qinhan didn’t succeed in that way, it’s because he’s not a man, isn’t it?
He was not afraid of a powerful opponent, but a pig teammate.
Shen Liang was already a little suspicious of the plot, he looked at Shao Qinhan suspiciously, “Do you really like my brother?”
After this period of observation, he found that Shao Qinhan’s liking for Shen Yan was too strange, it seemed more like he followed the author’s established like.
Shen Liang had never seen Shao Qinhan take the initiative to ask for Shen Yan, nor had he seen him take the initiative to look for Shen Yan. The other party seemed to simply want this person, like a cake. And whoever tries to steal it, will die.
This skeptical look peeked into the indescribable secret hidden inside Shao Qinhan from somewhere, and he unconsciously frowned and said sarcastically, “Why, if I don’t like him, do I like you?”
“No.” Shen Liang shook his head hurriedly, “You must not like me.”
He still planned to return to his original world. Moreover, a villain like Shao Qinhan who blackened himself continuously was not suitable for a relationship.
As the saying goes, no love is light, and when you have love, you get nervous, the happiness of a single dog cannot be understood by others.
This attitude of avoiding snakes and scorpions made Shao Qinhan feel stabbed in the heart as if his liking was poison or something dirty that cannot be touched easily, worse than garbage on the roadside ditch.
The room was silent for a few seconds.
Shen Liang was about to go up to his room when he finished speaking, but as he passed by Shao Qinhan, a cold hand suddenly grabbed him. The other party’s grip was so strong that his fingertips were stained with the scent of tobacco, and almost sank into his flesh.
Shao Qinhan did not look at him, his face was pale as he faced the table, obviously sitting nobly. But he made people feel his inner turmoil.
“Shen Liang, do you think I don’t deserve to like someone…?”
Was it because he had no scruples and his heart was dark and rotten, so even his love was vicious and dirty?
Shen Liang did not expect Shao Qinhan to ask this question and looked at him in surprise, the tingling sensation in his wrist numbed for a moment, “I didn’t say that.”
This was the first time Shen Liang saw Shao Qinhan so abnormal.
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“I think… you used the wrong method…”
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Shao Qinhan pursed his lips and “told” Shen Liang word for word, with heart-stopping stubbornness, “If you love someone, you have to get him, keep him by your side, he can’t go anywhere…”
Can’t go anywhere…
That was what that person told him back then.
Shao Qinhan believed it and believed it for many years.
Shen Liang corrected, “If he loves you, you don’t need to do anything, he will stay by your side by himself.”
There was no need for any scheme, you didn’t need to do anything, just stand still and you will win, the other party will naturally come to you.
When compared in this way, Shao Qinhan’s methods were inferior.
He still doesn’t know how to love someone, how can a person who had never been loved learn to love another…?
Hearing Shen Liang’s words, Shao Qinhan’s expression became a little complicated.
He seemed to want to retort, but didn’t know how to do it, and finally stood up with a clatter, his chair scraping against the floor with a rough sound.
Shen Liang thought Shao Qinhan would say something, but he didn’t, finger by finger, he slowly let go of the hand, and let out a sneer before turning around and walking up the stairs.
The blackening level of the electronic light screen silently increased by 10%.
Then Shen Liang understood that Shao Qinhan still didn’t understand.
In the evening, it rained outside. Raindrops hit the glass windows, leaving a trail of watermarks, falling fast. Suddenly, interspersed with some thunder that seemed to tear the sky.
Shao Qinhan stayed upstairs all day and never came down.
Shen Liang sat downstairs all day and never came up.
The two of them didn’t know what was going on, maybe one of them would take the initiative to speak up, was what Nanny Zhang thought.
She came out of the kitchen with a thin jacket slung over her shoulders and a bowl of soup in her hand, and said to Shen Liang, who was dazed on the sofa, “Xiao Shen, help me carry this bowl of soup to Mr. Shao.”
Hearing this, Shen Liang smiled and sat still for a few seconds before he reacted, got up from the sofa, and picked up the bowl, “Okay.”
He wanted to go upstairs to check the situation, but there was no reason, but Nanny Zhang gave him one.
Shen Liang carried the bowl upstairs, knocked three times on Shao Qinhan’s door as usual, and then opened it directly. After all, he doesn’t expect Shao Qinhan to open the door or say “come in.”
It was raining outside, but the lights in the room were off, so it was dark and only the outline of the furniture was visible.
Shen Liang fumbled at the wall and found the switch, but before he could press it, a voice without the slightest trace of warmth suddenly sounded from inside the room, hoarse and broken.
“Don’t.”
Shen Liang was startled, then followed the voice. But he saw a figure sitting on the floor, it was Shao Qinhan.
“… Fine, I won’t.”
Shen Liang walked over to Shao Qinhan with the bowl of soup, and sat on the ground, “Have some soup.”
Shao Qinhan remained motionless, the steam from the hot soup curling into the air but was dispersed by the cold of the rainy night.
Shen Liang felt a little uncomfortable with the darkness around him, especially when it rained, the atmosphere was dark and damp. He didn’t understand how Shao Qinhan could stay in such a room all day?
Or maybe not all day, but many years.
This realization made Shen Liang’s heart shudder inexplicably. He bowed his head and looked at Shao Qinhan in the darkness, but the whole person had melted into the shadows, and even his features were blurred.
Shen Liang suddenly said, “Shao Qinhan, are you afraid of the dark?”
Shao Qinhan had once said that he was afraid of blood. It was not that Shen Liang did not hear it at that time, he just found it unbelievable, but after that, Shao Qinhan did not say anything else, so he did not ask.
This man had blood on his hands, but he was afraid of blood; this man was afraid of the dark, dead night, but he locked himself in it day after day, year after year.
The more you fear something, the more you immerse yourself in it.
The few words Shen Liang wrote on the paper trapped Shao Qinhan for the rest of his life.
Boom…!
Another bolt of lightning struck and the dark room suddenly lit up. At that instant, Shen Liang finally saw Shao Qinhan’s face. He only felt that the other party seemed to be a lost ghost, his eyes were full of blankness, his brows furrowed in thunder and he tried his best to shrink his body into the corner.
This was a character written by himself.
A living, breathing character.
Shen Liang didn’t bother with the bowl of soup again. He slowly extended his hand toward Shao Qinhan and covered the back of the other’s frozen hand. He felt Shao Qinhan tense up, but he did not withdraw his hand but pulled him out of the corner with light force.
It was like forcibly pulling out an animal with a shell as a ‘home’, where it lived and felt safe.
Shao Qinhan started to struggle, but Shen Liang held him and then forcibly pressed him into his arms. At that moment, Shen Liang felt a sharp stabbing pain in his shoulder, as if he had been bitten by a wild beast, and the air was filled with the smell of blood.
He was no more than an ordinary person, without the kind of stamina Shao Qinhan had. His forehead suddenly burst into blue veins and he began to sweat, but he restrained himself from screaming.
Ah, you have to be more tolerant of the mentally ill…
Shen Liang said to himself, forcing himself to relax slowly. He placed his palm on Shao Qinhan’s back, comforting him, and then slowly hugged the other person’s trembling body, his voice was low because of the pain, but it was slow, “Are you afraid of the dark? I will accompany you…”
After he finished speaking, he leaned his back against the wall like Shao Qinhan, sat on the floor, stretched his legs, and kicked something in the darkness, making a metallic noise, like a pill bottle.
Shen Liang paused for a moment and then continued stroking Shao Qinhan’s back. He said in a serious tone, “Don’t take them next time, you can’t take them again…”
That kind of medicine will only aggravate his condition.
None of them said anything and even the airflow seemed to slow down.
Time passed, and perhaps Shao Qinhan grew tired as he finally opened his mouth and let go of Shen Liang’s shoulders, but the other party’s embrace did not loosen one bit. Shen Liang groped in the darkness, his warm fingers resting on Shao Qinhan’s cold lips, unexpectedly touching the other party’s sticky blood and trembling teeth.
Shen Liang lowered his head, looked at Shao Qinhan in the darkness, and purposely said, “Actually… I also don’t know how to love someone in the right way…”
If he knew, he wouldn’t write dog blood, and he would have changed his career to write love dramas long ago, wouldn’t he?
He never felt that Shao Qinhan’s love was dirty.
Although this kind of thinking was different from ordinary people, Shen Liang once envied this extreme feeling of near madness long ago. Like blazing fire, hot and scorching, with the desperate determination to burn to ashes.
Only he didn’t think he could have it, nor did he think he needed it. He had spent most of his childhood through adulthood alone as a perfectly ordinary person. At least, he would not find an overly strong love or hate in his life.
Shen Liang added, “But I know a little more than you…I can teach you.”
The windows cut the vague sound of the rain outside, pounding, splitting this world in two. The world did not tolerate such extreme and crazy feelings, so they could only be shown on paper and survive in books.
From this moment on, Shen Liang felt that he understood something, although it was difficult to describe in words. But he finally understood that he should first teach Shao Qinhan to love someone, instead of pursuing blindly.
Shen Liang finally made up his mind, “Shao Qinhan, I will teach you.”
Even the most despicable people can have a clean and pure love, it was not a matter of deserving it or not, it was every person’s right, and others cannot criticize or belittle him.
Shao Qinhan just used the wrong methods…
Shen Liang held Shao Qinhan’s face in the darkness, his dry fingertips stroked past the temperature and slowly traced the pale and beautiful features, “From now on, I will treat you as the person I like…”
He was like a serious and responsible teacher, while Shao Qinhan was a student with poor grades.
“You have to learn well, what I do, you do.”
Shao Qinhan did not speak, his dark eyes slowly focused, and his lips and teeth were still stained with rust. He stared at Shen Liang, his chest fluttered, and a slight sarcastic curve appeared at the corner of his lips when he heard those words, he was embarrassed and arrogant, he didn’t want to admit that his methods were wrong.
“No…”
Shao Qinhan could only say one word, as in the next second, there was more heat on his lips. Shen Liang kissed his blood-stained lips without warning, swallowing all the unspoken words.
The kiss was as gentle as a gust of wind, a stark contrast to the storm raging outside. The warm embrace was about to melt the man.
Shen Liang was as drunk as the night before, his actions already a little out of control. He didn’t understand why he suddenly kissed Shao Qinhan, he only felt that the blood on the other’s lips was a bit blinding. A moment of confusion flashed through his heart and he was forced to suppress it.
“Shhh…”
He covered Shao Qinhan’s mouth, his warm lips pressed close to his ear, and said earnestly along with the faint sound of the rain, “Shao Qinhan, this is required.”
This is also the biggest obstacle in your life.
It cannot be left blank, it cannot be omitted and it cannot be refused.
Thanks for the chapters
Thank you for the chapters big sis!
So bittersweet 😭 hoping both of them will slowly fall for each other as time goes on 🙏
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I wanna cry in despair. Shen Liang teaching Shao Qinhan about love by pretending to be his lover is gonna be the angsty part of this novel, I just know. Good luck to the teaching sessions, then!
+1 the bit before the ending …
Thank you so much for the shower updates! I really like reading this <3
Thank you for the update ❤️💯
wahhhhhhh thank you so much for translating this novel! setting up camp here so i can peacefully gorge myself later on
the fun part is coming up, I’ll wait
my heart aches for them 😭
keep lying to yourself
Thank you for the chapters