Unlimited Cycles of DeathChapter 16

That year, after graduating from high school, Mu Qin hesitated for a long time over the application form for enlisting in the army.

It wasn’t that he didn’t consider the happiness he could obtain between himself and Zhou Yue. Zhou Yue was a considerate person. Being with him, Mu Qin could experience the most beautiful and the most irreplaceable time of his life. However, it was also because he treasured this period of time that Mu Qin chose to give up in the end. PiZx81

He had long ago seen clearly just how immense the gap between himself and Zhou Yue was.

Zhou Yue’s Zhou family was the most illustrious blueblood clan in that province and city. Reportedly, their family history could be traced back to the Qianlong Emperor’s period of the Qing dynasty. The family’s ancestors used to deal in the jade business, and the wealth they possessed could be considered as equivalent to that of a nation.

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After the fall of the Qing dynasty, the Zhou family declined for some time due to the turmoil of war at the time. However, later on the people of the Zhou family once again built back up from scratch. They traded stocks and did real estate, founding a first-class enterprise. They were illustrious and well-known domestically and even globally.

As the Zhou family’s only son, every member of the Zhou family had entrusted Zhou Yue with heavy expectations. From when he was young until he grew up, he always had to undergo rigorous elite education. He needed to learn many things such as corporate finance, business administration, and other related topics, because sooner or later, he had to take over his family’s business. His life had been planned out from the moment he was born, and a path had already been paved. Therefore, he only had to walk along the paved path and advance without diverging, just continuously going forward. BjewzL

The piano was just something Zhou Yue’s parents, who could be considered open-minded, permitted him to learn as a hobby. Even if Zhou Yue’s musical talents were even greater, even if this was Zhou Yue’s dreams, in the end, he could not follow his heart’s desire to pursue his beloved music. He could not become a musician on his stage.

Mu Qin had once asked Zhou Yue about his plans for the future. He had previously thought Zhou Yue would be resistant to the life arranged by his family, but Zhou Yue shook his head and said, “It is what it is.”

“Don’t you think it’s a shame? ” Mu Qin looked disappointedly at his beautiful hands, “You ought to stand on the stage, sit by the piano, be illuminated by the spotlight, and win everyone’s applause. Isn’t this you dream?”

Yet Zhou Yue said, “If it were so easily achieved, then it wouldn’t be a dream. Taking over my father’s business is also pretty good. I can make a lot of money, and I can also take you to travel around the world!”

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What Zhou Yue said was very happy, but Mu Qin vaguely saw the bleak future between him and Zhou Yue.

He and Zhou Yue had secretly dated for three years, so he had a pretty detailed understanding of Zhou Yue’s family circumstances. Zhou Yue’s parents were the type of people who seemed flexible on the surface but were in fact very old-fashioned. It could be seen from how they had arranged everything for Zhou Yue from birth.

Their family had some strange rules. They didn’t allow Zhou Yue to have any relations with the ordinary students at school, saying that Zhou Yue’s friends must be heirs of influential families with social statuses and ranks.

They did not allow Zhou Yue’s grades to be below the top ten in the grade, or else they would give him pressure and find a variety of private tutoring classes for him until his grades improved. imDJlX

Moreover, they even forbade Zhou Yue from dating yet allowed him to have frequent contact with certain young ladies of the upper class.

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Therefore, Mu Qin could guess the astute Father and Mother Zhou would absolutely never allow Zhou Yue to tread upon the inexplicable crooked path. Being together with the same gender was a matter that would make someone a laughingstock. It would destroy Zhou Yue’s reputation and cause people to hold prejudice against him. It would become a stain on his path in life.

Zhou Yue’s future had to be bright. He would sit upon a world-famous major enterprise, earn more money than Mu Qin would ever earn in this lifetime, get married with a noble and beautiful daughter of a wealthy family, and have one or two kids. Ngox8d

This was pretty good. It was basically a life many people dreamed of but could never obtain no matter how much they wished for.

Only, the young and sensitive Mu Qin at the time, oftentimes as long as he thought about Zhou Yue’s beautiful life in the future which would not have his existence, would feel sad and unwilling.

He had considered fighting for it. Even if the status of the two were widely disparate and their differences immense, Mu Qin thought his own capability was not that bad. No matter how the future was, as long as Mu Qin was willing to persevere in trying hard, perhaps he could reach the same position as Zhou Yue and stand at the same height as him. He would get everything he wanted.

However, Mu Qin grew afraid. 19NxEC

He was destitute then. His uncle had squandered away all the money at home and even secretly sold the house behind Mu Qin’s back. Mu Qin had absolutely nothing, yet he was additionally confronted with college’s expensive tuition. If he couldn’t pay the money, he wouldn’t be able to attend the same college as Zhou Yue. However, if he let Zhou Yue help, Mu Qin was worried that Zhou Yue paying double the amount of tuition fees would rouse suspicions from his family.

Thus, during that period, Mu Qin was always afraid. The fragile him couldn’t help but think… What should I do if I fail in the end?

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If he couldn’t be with Zhou Yue, if they were separated, if all the effort ultimately came to nothing, could it be that he would have to blankly watch as he and Zhou Yue gradually drifted apart, mutually forgetting and moving on?

Mu Qin had always been alone, without a father, without a mother, without anyone to care for. Having no relatives and no friends, the young and immature Mu Qin invested all his feelings in Zhou Yue. The existence of the person called Zhou Yue was Mu Qin’s motivation for working hard at continuing to live. dzoZDL

If it couldn’t be obtained, then it was still better to never have it in the first place.

Thus, Mu Qin left.

Despite making such a decision, thinking of it now, Mu Qin felt the decision at the time was a hasty mistake as well as considerably timid. It was an incredibly stupid decision. To this end, Mu Qin had always regretted it for many years after. He shouldn’t have left without saying goodbye like that. He should have at least told Zhou Yue.

But like so, he just departed far away from the world where Zhou Yue existed. sicGvT

Mu Qin could almost imagine how heartbroken Zhou Yue was. Entirely unlike the pretense of perfection and maturity on the outside, Zhou Yue was in actuality as fragile as Mu Qin. During the time he was with Mu Qin, Zhou Yue loved acting spoiled towards Mu Qin.

Ever since he was little, Zhou Yue basically didn’t have any room to act spoiled. His parents’ strict upbringing and arduous studies forced Zhou Yue to mature prematurely. He had once personally told Mu Qin, saying when he saw other people’s kids acting spoiled and rowdy with their parents in all sorts of ways, clinging together, he felt extraordinarily jealous. However, whenever he wanted to act spoiled or close with his parents, his parents’ indifferent and tough attitude always caused him to unbearably shrink into his room to secretly cry.

Therefore, after Mu Qin appeared, Zhou Yue seriously stuck onto him. As long as there was an opportunity, Zhou Yue would rush over to hug Mu Qin as well as to bury his face into the crook of Mu Qin’s neck. He would find every opportunity to be intimate with Mu Qin, would embrace Mu Qin’s waist, and would kiss Mu Qin’s cheeks, lips, and eyes. Once Mu Qin became unbearably annoyed by him and waved him away, Zhou Yue would then adopt a wronged look and fixedly look at Mu Qin relentlessly until Mu Qin’s heart softened and he once again waved his hand to let him come back.

In this way, Zhou Yue’s clingy behavior was still somewhat restrained in the very beginning. However, it became more and more intense on the contrary with the passage of time. Until their third and last year of high school, almost as long as he didn’t see Mu Qin for a moment, Zhou Yue would begin bombing Mu Qin’s cellphone, using all sorts of calls and text messages to cram full the memory of Mu Qin’s phone. mujYP

Mu Qin was actually a bit reluctant to delete any of the text messages Zhou Yue sent.

The infinitely gentle and beautiful Zhou Yue in his memories, the Zhou Yue that always made Mu Qin constantly remember since the beginning yet not dare to seek out till this day.

Yet he now appeared before Mu Qin’s eyes, dripping with blood from head to toe and utterly battered.

He should be living a luxurious life of nobility, enjoying the process of being surrounded and supported by people. His path was bright and wide, so he shouldn’t have appeared here. This orphanage, filled with slaughter and darkness, should not be someplace Zhou Yue should come. MU8gRN

“Why are you here? ” That’s why Mu Qin felt extremely uncomprehending, “You shouldn’t be here.”

Zhou Yue, who had always been silent, finally broke the silence. He opened his mouth to speak. His voice was very low and hoarse, probably because his neck had been slashed open. His voice didn’t sound very pleasant, but Mu Qin still heard a familiar tone… After being separate for so long, he could finally hear Zhou Yue speaking to him once again.

Zhou Yue said, “I died, so I’m here.”

“Impossible! ” Mu Qin didn’t dare believe it. He glared at the man before his eyes, “Why would you die? How could you have died!” jRTwAt

“Death arrives at any time. Today, tomorrow, even now. ” Zhou Yue hoarsely replied. Saying so, he took back the hand pressed on Mu Qin’s belly, seemingly still a bit reluctant to part in the end. Then he half kneeled immediately in front of Mu Qin, placed his hand on Mu Qin’s thigh, and raised his head to look Mu Qin in the eye. His motions were like a knight swearing an oath to a princess before a temple.

Mu Qin watched him and then was stunned. There was suddenly some indescribable sorrow in his heart. Mu Qin realized that if Zhou Yue was really dead, then, carefully thinking, the parting ten years ago… was actually eternal parting.

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If they hadn’t met each other again in this game.

Mu Qin felt a dull ache in his chest’s heart area, subtle and continuous, hurting so that Mu Qin somewhat couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t bear the pain and asked Zhou Yue, “How did you die?” sDVZ86

Zhou Yue didn’t answer immediately, instead, after remaining silent for a long time, smiled up at Mu Qin. Only, his face was wrapped full of bandages, making his smile indistinct. He said to Mu Qin, “Previously… during the time when you disappeared, I was really anxious. I looked for you everywhere.”

Hearing this, Mu Qin opened his mouth but hesitated to speak. He wanted to apologize to Zhou Yue. Back then, he left without saying goodbye, definitely making Zhou Yue deeply heartbroken.

But Zhou Yue still had a skilled grasp of Mu Qin’s thoughts as in the past. Zhou Yue lightly shook his head, “I know you want to apologize, but there’s no need.”

“On the contrary, I should be the one to apologize… In fact, at the time, I clearly understood the great pressure you were enduring. Your family circumstances weren’t good, your finances were tight, and the gap between you and me also made you feel hopeless. I know you may have wanted to give up. Your departure was also among my expectations.” ziL73N

Zhou Yue continues, “But at the time, I was too confident, thinking I could bring you back by myself.”

“To be honest, when I asked around and heard you enlisted in the army and went to the provincial forces, I was pretty happy since I had always wanted to find a chance to be free of my parents’ control, and enlisting was a great excuse. Thus, I also suggested to my parents and said I wanted to enter the troops for two years for experience. At first, my parents still didn’t agree, but I said that it was for my future and that training in the army would make me stronger. My parents thought it made sense when they heard that, so they agreed.”

Hearing what Zhou Yue said, Mu Qin stared at Zhou Yue in surprise with wide eyes and said, “But I never saw you in the army.”

“Of course you never saw me. Originally, I indeed wanted to enter the same company as you and even specially requested a higher-ranking officer to help tie the knot, but some accidents occurred in the process. It seemed like my father interfered, so I was sent to the training base of a higher-ranking unit.” ByAolU

“I stayed there for two years. You know… a place like the army, joining is equivalent to becoming the country’s person. Only if you retire, otherwise don’t even think about easily leaving. Trapped there, I was burning with impatience. I was in a hurry to find you every day, but there was a lot of training waiting for me every day. At the time, the instructor told me vacation would only be approved after I finished training, so I trained very hard…”

“So, your hands became like this?” Mu Qin lamented and looked at Zhou Yue’s hands with distress. They were no longer the hands in his memories that could elegantly play the piano.

“It doesn’t matter.” Zhou Yue saw that Mu Qin was heartbroken for him and in turn consoled Mu Qin. He couldn’t bear it anymore, reaching out and carefully touching Mu Qin’s cheek, “These hands of mine are certainly rugged, yet it’s not like they will never play the piano again.”

After saying this, Zhou Yue used his only eye on the right and looked at Mu Qin with infatuation, “Mu Qin, you are still as good looking as before.” RnGkXc

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BunnyGod: All the while, Mu Qin is still tied to a chair… awky