Lu Xiuwen clenched his fist tightly and placed it on his knee. He saw Ye Ming come out of the student’s house very late at night, riding the bicycle back to the dorm alone in the middle of the night. Perhaps he was too exhausted, but he fell down after letting his mind wander and sat on the ground for a long time, not getting up. He stared blankly with his eyes reddened as if he was about to burst into tears anytime.
Lu Xiuwen used all his might to refrain from rushing out to hug that person. If he dashed out now, Ye Ming would know that he had been following him and would hate him even more.
Lu Xuiwen shut his eyes in pain. But what was more painful was that he knew that Ye Ming was still wearing the necklace that he gave him.
Your words were so determined, so why are you unwilling to throw away the necklace that I gave you?
It was unlikely that Lu Xiuwen couldn’t figure out such a simple question. Regardless of how things were in the previous life, at least in this life, Ye Ming really loved and believed him. The reason why Ye Ming was angry and in pain was because he had deceived him, and he didn’t believe Ye Ming’s love for him.
In this life, he could have gotten this love. But he had ruined it because of his selfishness and impulsiveness.
The driver, Uncle Li, pitied Lu Xiuwen when he saw him in such a state. He advised in a soft voice, “President Lu, why don’t you bring the young master home? He’s just being childish. He quarreled with you because he was too shocked and had never expected things like this. I think he’s so sad because he cares about you.”
Lu Xiuwen opened his mouth slightly and said, “I know…”
He knew that Ye Ming still cared about him, but he was unable to forget how determined Ye Ming was when he’d chased him out the other day. He’d never experienced something so intractable. He loved that person but was unable to make him come back.
This child…was stubborn beyond his imagination…If he showed up now, he would only push him even further away.
Ye Ming sat on the side of the road for a while but didn’t cry in the end. He stood up and brushed the debris on his shirt and left while walking his bicycle.
Lu Xiuwen followed behind slowly and watched Ye Ming go into the dorm. He sat downstairs for almost the entire night and left when it was close to daybreak.
When Ye Ming got back to the dorm, he laid on the bed in exhaustion. It was the weekend tomorrow, but not only couldn’t he sleep in, he also needed to attend two more jobs. In order to survive, he had to give it his all. This world was too cruel! Under the pressure of desperate poverty, he almost lost his interest in relationships!
Another two weeks passed by. Just when Ye Ming was reaching the end of his patience, he finally received the news from 888 that Song Qin was coming over to find him. He was crying tears of joy when he heard about this news!
In the previous life, Song Qin came looking for him a little later down the timeline. But this life, it was shifted forward. Lu Xiuwen’s reincarnation had affected how things progressed.
This time, Lu Xiuwen guarded against Song Qin in advance. He attacked him by crowding him out from the competitive tender last time and targeting him everywhere. Song Qin hated Lu Xiuwen even more. He learned that Lu Xiuwen liked Ye Ming but Ye Ming and Lu Xiuwen had fallen out now. In the end, Song Qin decided to target Ye Ming.
Everyone knew that Ye Ming was Lu Xiuwen’s weak spot. Even if he couldn’t do anything to Lu Xiuwen, as long there was an opportunity to annoy Lu Xiuwen, he would not let it slip past.
Although Lu Xiuwen was not with Ye Ming all the time, he had arranged for someone to trail Ye Ming. He didn’t plan on repeating the same mistake from the past life, giving Song Qin the opportunity to deceive Ye Ming. So if Ye Ming didn’t cooperate, Song Qin wouldn’t be able to meet him.
On Saturday afternoon, Ye Ming got off from work at the cafe. He looked around and didn’t go to the usual place for dinner but rode the subway.
Because it was off-work rush hour, it was very crowded inside the subway. With 888’s instructions, Ye Ming managed to shake off Lu Xiuwen’s people. He got off at the next exit and Song Qin quietly followed behind.
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Ye Ming went into an old city district and went to Chengbei Cemetery alone. His mother, Gu Xueya, was buried there.
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After losing Lu Xiuwen, he realized that he had no one to rely on. In the end, he was still an orphan. If only his parents were still around, they would protect him and take care of him. They wouldn’t deceive him, right? After all, Lu Xiuwen…was not really his family.
He was all alone again.
Ye Ming really missed his parents. His unsurpassable longing had led him here. If he came here early, he wouldn’t bump into Lu Xiuwen, right?
Ye Ming kneeled slowly in front of the tombstone. He burst into tears again. He understood this made him look weak, but he couldn’t help it…he really felt very pained and sad. There were countless times that he felt that he couldn’t go on anymore.
He wanted his mom and dad. But they were already dead.
He missed Uncle Lu. But why did Uncle Lu treat him like this…He was so good to him and even raised him. But why did he treat him this way?
Why…
Mom, Dad, why did you leave me…I really miss you. I don’t want to be alone…
Just when Ye Ming’s eyes were hazy from crying, a sigh was suddenly heard beside him. “Such pitiful.”
Ye Ming lifted his head blankly and saw a stranger standing next to him. That man was looking at him with pity and handed Ye Ming a handkerchief. he said gently, “Wipe off your tears.”
Ye Ming didn’t know him. Wary, he didn’t take his handkerchief and used his sleeve to briefly wipe his face instead. He said, “No need, thank you.”
Song Qin didn’t force him and folded the handkerchief and tucked it back into his pocket. He stared deeply at Ye Ming and said, “Lu Xiuwen was indeed too overboard for treating you like this.”
Ye Ming never expected that this stranger would mention Lu Xiuwen’s name and even make such a statement. He took a step backward and stared at him coldly. “What do you mean?”
Song Qin smiled and said, “Don’t worry, I mean no harm. I just happened to pass by and couldn’t help but make a few comments…A lot of people know what Lu Xiuwen did to you. After all, he went looking for you at the school; it’s no surprise that I know about it. I can’t tolerate watching him bully an orphan like you. If you need any help, you can come to look for me. This is my business card.”
Ye Ming hesitated for a while but still accepted Song Qin’s business card. He turned his head around and got ready to leave because he didn’t plan on talking about personal issues with a stranger.
But before he could take two steps, Song Qin said indistinctly, “Come to think of it, don’t you want to know why Lu Xiuwen treated you like this?”
Why?
Ye Ming’s halted his footsteps. What could it be? Even he didn’t have an answer to this question. Could it be that an outsider knew why?
Song Qin stared at Ye Ming’s back and pronounced each word carefully, “Lu Xiuwen never told you that he loved Gu Xueya, right?”
Ye Ming suddenly turned around to look at Song Qin with his lips trembling and his face pale.
Song Qin was very satisfied with the reaction that his words had caused. He slowly said, “Everyone knows that Lu Xiuwen loved Gu Xueya. Only young people like you don’t know about it. It was not a secret back in the day. After all, during Gu Xueya’s wedding, he didn’t care about his identity as Gu Xueya’s brother and caused a scene. And he even forced Gu Xueya and her husband to leave this place. It was the talk of the town during that time. Although it was rude and impetuous, this infatuation…anyone with eyes can see it…I just never expected that he would be so infatuated. Twenty years have passed, and Gu Xueya is already dead, yet he still thinks of her and raised her son and kept him beside himself.”
Listening to Song Qin’s words, Ye Ming’s head was filled with blood and dizziness clouded him as if the world was spinning around. It’s impossible…It’s impossible that it’s like this…
It’s impossible that it’s like this…
Song Qin looked at him with pity. “It would have been a good deed if he’d just raised you. We even praised him for his infatuation…But to turn you into Gu Xueya’s replacement and use foul tricks to make you fall into his grasp, not letting off even the child that he raised with his own hands is something not even a beast would do. You made the right choice by leaving him. Although the truth is cruel, it’s better than being completely in the dark. It’s good to realize it early.”
Ye Ming looked at him with bloodshot eyes. His expression was extremely fracturable as if he was able to crumble. He said in a hoarse voice, “You’re lying!”
Song Qin shrugged and said, “I don’t have anything against you, why would I lie to you? Moreover, a lot of people know about this. Even if you don’t believe it now, sooner or later, you will still hear others talking about this.”
Song Qin knew to stop before going too far. It would make Ye Ming grow even more suspicious if he said too much. He turned around and walked away.
Seeing Ye Ming’s reaction, it was obvious that he already believed it. After all, he hadn’t made anything up. Song Qin curled the corners of his lips. Lu Xiuwen, you tried to make my life difficult. I’ll cause some trouble for you then. Aren’t you very capable? Then how come you can’t even handle a kid?
A long time after Song Qin left, Ye Ming was still standing in the same spot.
The sky slowly turned dark. Coldness invaded his body by penetrating through his thin clothing, making him shiver all over…The tombstone stood tall and upright beside him, reminding him that his parents were buried there. The picture of the gentlewoman on the tombstone seemed to be smiling at him.
Their eyes looked similar. One would be able to tell from a glance that they were mother and son. Ye Ming stared at his mother in a daze. A sad emotion gradually surfaced.
So…was this the reason why Lu Xiuwen was treating him this way?
He raised him because he loved his mother. He said he loved him, but in fact, he saw his mother in him. He courted him by fair means or foul because he looked like his mother.
He was just a replacement for his mother. So Lu Xiuwen was gentle to him, yet heartless and cold.
All of this was because of his mother…
The question that he couldn’t figure out no matter what suddenly had an answer. But he would rather he had never found out the answer because this answer was too cruel. It was so cruel that he couldn’t bear it.
The person that he loved treated him with tenderness for close to twenty years, merely because he saw another person through him.
This was the truth.
It was all an enormous lie.
Ye Ming was trembling. He slowly lifted his gaze and saw Lu Xiuwen rushing over with a panic-stricken face. The person who he was once deeply in love with and was still in love with now was the person who hurt him the most.
Lu Xiuwen’s people informed him that they had lost sight of Ye Ming. He quickly secured his location using the necklace and found that he was at Gu Xueya’s grave. He left in the middle of a meeting and rushed over anxiously. His worries made him unable to pretend that nothing had happened anymore. After hearing that Song Qin had met Ye Ming, he was eventually unable to control himself and came to see Ye Ming!
But the moment he arrived, he saw Ye Ming standing in front of the tombstone, looking at him as if he were a stranger.
Ye Ming’s expression was indifferent when he saw Lu Xiuwen appearing here…
He was very surprised that Lu Xiuwen would show up here. He had not made any prior plans to come here today, nor had he told anyone about it. By rights, it was impossible for Lu Xiuwen to track his location so quickly.
If it was before, he surely would have appeared shocked. But at this instant, under extreme sorrow, his mind was unusually calm.
There was a reason behind Lu Xiuwen’s every move. It certainly was not a coincidence for him to appear here. So then why was he here?
The pendant in front of his chest stuck close to his skin. This was all he had left. No matter what, he was unwilling to throw away the last thing that Lu Xiuwen gave him. But at this instant…it seemed to be burning his skin, burning through his heart…
Lu Xiuwen wanted to control him, wanted to possess him. Wanted to raise him beside him like a replacement. For him to be able to locate him, if he was trailing him…aside from the necklace, what else could it be?
It turned out that he had already begun to plot against him ever since then.
The gift that he lovingly gave him, which was filled with their love for each other, turned out to be his tracking tool. Previously, he gazed at him with eyes that were filled with love and hope, saying that he wished that he would wear it and hoped that he liked it.
He foolishly wore it, unwilling to make Lu Xiuwen sad. Even if they were already apart, he was still unwilling to throw it away. Because when he looked at this necklace, he would recall how Lu Xiuwen used to love him. He wanted to treasure this love and pretend that Lu Xiuwen still loved him.
But now, all this had become a joke that mercilessly mocked his stupidity.
Those words of love never belong to him, they were all for his mother. Only this cold tracker was his…
There really was nothing more depressing than this. It was like a preposterous farce.
Lu Xiuwen strode over and grabbed Ye Ming’s arm. He stared at him in concern and asked, “Why are you here?”
Ye Ming lifted his head and stared at him. His eyes were filled with yearning and sadness. This time, it was really time for him to give up…the most foolish and ridiculous thing was to still hang onto the extravagant hope that this man loved him…Ye Ming grabbed the necklace around his neck and tugged it off hard! He didn’t even care if it caused a bleeding scar around his neck!
He threw the necklace on the ground with all his might. He raised an eyebrow and gave a cold laugh. “Why? I can’t be here?”
Translated by: Ch1yo
Edited by: beansprout
Damn…I see the angst!!!! Why, Cliffhanger-san….why?!?!?! QAQ
Thanks for the chapter~~
Ye Ming~ I love the way you play man lol
Going to the grave so Song Win can play his part AND have a reason to throw away the pendant? Brilliant stuff 👏🏻Thanks for the chapter! 😘
*Song Qin
Nice! Bravo on your acting Ye Ming! I feel the heartache!
Thanks for your hard work!
+1
Deym, a round of applause for our Ye Ming 👏
Thanks for the chapter ❤❤
That guy is a asshole
Arghhh I’m going crazy 😭😭
This really stabs my hearttt😭😭
Guhu…… The pain…. It stabs my heart…. My gosh during the day of Valentine’s day I’m going to be heart broken by this???
Please pick this up!!!!!!!
We need a new chapter D:
THANK YOUUUUUU SSOOOOO SOOOOO SOOOOO SOOOOO SOOOOO MUCH FOR TRANSLATING CH1YO AND BEANSPROUT!!!!!!!!!! 😉~💞
At this rate.i am scared he would commit suicide