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In the end, Bo Qin did not touch Xie Mu.

His hand momentarily stiffened before he retracted it. His large, slender hand slowly helped the youth underneath him button back up the buttons itself had undone. RdFC1p

The fair skin was covered up, and the youth propped up his body to sit up, slightly out of sorts, “Not doing it?”

The smile on the man’s face was warm and doting, “You only just underwent treatment; I don’t want to toss you around.”

Chrysanthemum Garden.

The uncertainty in Xie Mu’s eyes did not decrease. In his recollection, although Bo Qin doted on him, in regards to bed matters, he had always been unreasonable and dominant.

Naturally, Bo Qin did not miss the youth’s hesitation. Without changing his facial expression, he gently touched his hands to his lover’s temples, tenderly massaging them. 7CE1sp

The uneasiness in Xie Mu’s facial expression gradually lessened, and the lustful passion from before slowly died down. His eyelids drooped lower, the drowsiness he had suppressed earlier returning.

“Xiao Mu, sleepy?”

The man quietly asked as he supported the youth up to lie in his embrace.

Bo Qin was a smoker. During the day, he was fervidly devoted to his work; however, once it was night time, he would not mistreat himself in the slightest. He would smoke, drink, and have fun, there being nothing he was not interested in delighting in.

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Of course, the cigarettes he smoked were not among those on the market. While still harmful to the body, they were minimally so.

The cigarette smoke smelled faint and similar to fresh mint. Xie Mu lay in the man’s arms, breathing in that familiar scent and lips curling in satisfaction.

Although he was incredibly tired, he still stretched out a hand to strenuously grasp the corner of his lover’s clothing, a show of his mental unease.

“Bo Qin.” The youth’s voice had always been crisp and pleasant to hear; however, at that moment, his voice was low from barely suppressed anxiety. He sounded as if he were seconds away from tearing up. ZYXSW

Xie Mu spoke up in a small voice, “I’m afraid to sleep.”

The man’s well-maintained facade of gentleness faltered momentarily, as did the hand tenderly kneading his lover’s temple.

Soon his expression returned to normal, his tone of voice as warm as usual, “What’s wrong?”

“Whenever I shut my eyes, I see Tan Tao…” Xie Mu vehemently held onto the corner of Bo Qin’s clothing, a sort of terror in his pretty, round eyes: “I’m scared, scared that I will dream of him.” AyshQV

“Him pressing me on the ground, him ripping my clothing. Me wanting to run away, but for some reason unable to, and my body strengthless…”

“Later, later, I don’t even remember what happened in the end…”

His voice was confused and scared, eyes full of an unknown fear.

The man’s pupils, which had remained doting, gradually cooled, his handsome face covered with a layer of ash. His alluring voice maintained its faint quality, as if he were simply an ordinary lover. Jhqogz

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“Afterwards, you fainted, and I sobered up and took you back from Tan Tao’s hands.”

He could feel clearly the youth’s body softening and relaxing after his words.

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Xiao Mu always believed him so surely.

“Thank goodness, thank goodness you saved me.” CG17bY

The youth’s face squeezed out a happy smile, his eyes full of joy at being saved. He lifted his head, his shining eyes looking up at his lover, “If not, I really wouldn’t know what to do.”

He believed the lies and the person who made them up.

While darkness lurked in the depths of Bo Qin’s eyes, he still showed a doting smile to his little lover, “Be good. It’s ok.”

“In the future, Tan Tao will never bother you again.” B90Koh

Xie Mu’s smile grew even more ecstatic. He firmly nodded his head, “En! I’m not afraid of him.”

The youth declared childishly, “Because Bo Qin will protect me.”

He slightly shifted his position upwards. His ear pressed near where the man’s heart lay, obediently closing his eyes as he listened to the strong heartbeats.

Before falling asleep, Xie Mu blurrily murmured as if in a dream, “Bo Qin likes cleanliness…” 0SuZs

“I have to be clean…”

The man’s hand, which had lain limp on the bed, suddenly tensed, the pale back of the hand bursting with blue veins.

Even like this, he kept a gentle voice when speaking with his lover: “Our Xiao Mu is the cleanest.”

The dirty one was Tan Tao. EfgR1

[Ding! Bo Qin’s favorability: 89]

Xie Mu, sunken in sleep, curved the corner of his mouth sweetly, as if he had heard the words of his lover.

That night, Bo Qin’s sleep was not quite restful.

He could not stop dreaming of the youth with a faceful of tears, despairingly pleading for help from him, a man with a blurry face above him tearing at Xie Mu’s clothes. pMJ7uB

— “Bo Qin, save me–“

— “It really hurts, so painful, save me ah–”

Chrysanthemum Garden.

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Suddenly, the man opened his eyes, regret and pain solidifying in those usually cold pupils.

“Wu…”

Xie Mu was exhausted; it was rare that he hadn’t woken before him. Feeling his lover’s movements, he rubbed his eyes, wanting to cuddle into his lover’s embrace.

The man’s body stiffened the instant the youth, with his soft and light vanilla scent, touched him, subconsciously pushing Xie Mu away. Pg dSh

The youth wasn’t prepared, his hand slamming heavily into the headboard of the bed.

Immediately, the pale skin of his hand slightly reddened.

After a bump like that, naturally, he woke up. Xie Mu first instinctively made a “si” noise, before coming to himself and covering his wrist with a look of confusion on his face as he looked at his lover.

Bo Qin’s facial expression was strange, almost as if he were ashamed and afraid of his existence. Roxipe

How odd. How could Bo Qin be afraid of something? In Xie Mu’s perspective, Bo Qin was all-knowing and omniscient, and only ever were others afraid of him. When did he ever fear others?

“Bo Qin, what’s wrong?”

The youth’s expression was hesitant as he reached out a hand only for Bo Qin to strike his hand away a second time.

This time, he really and truly felt the rejection of his lover. ew5XiR

Xie Mu was stunned.

“Tbe, ktja’r kgbcu klat sbe…”

Only when he heard the youth trying to stifle his aggrieved tone of voice did the man wake up, “Sorry, Xiao Mu. I was muddled by sleep.”

His hand lightly kneaded Xie Mu’s hand that he had struck. He lowered his head, gently blowing, “Does it feel a little better?” m12ZRY

“It’s fine now.”

The youth, upon feeling Bo Qin’s frigid fingers, instinctively shrunk back. Confusion lay in his eyes, the kind that held unanswered questions buried deep in his heart.

Chrysanthemum Garden.

Bo Qin finished coaxing his lover and stood up to change his clothes. Xie Mu remained sitting on the side of the bed as he watched him; his gaze wasn’t scorching, but it was enough for the man to notice.

There was once a time when he had basked in such a gaze because it affirmed how much Xie Mu loved him, always chasing after his shadow. But now, his heart only felt empty as if it were suspended midair by a chain. vt3x5i

Not quite up or down, incredibly uncomfortable.

Bo Qin could not help thinking that if only he had saved Xiao Mu back then, then things would not have changed like this.

He had his lover again, but other than that initial delight, his heart was increasingly hollow and anxious.

If Xiao Mu remembered, what would happen then… vyIUAJ

“Come here. I’ll help you with your tie.”

Xie Mu quickly adjusted himself and comforted himself that Bo Qin might have had a bad dream. He left the bed, wanting to help his lover with his tie as he once did.

Only this time, Bo Qin still avoided it.

This was the third time he had avoided him after waking up. Even Xie Mu, with his gullibleness, could perceive that something was wrong. mY2idI

“You’re still tired; I’ll do it.”

Bo Qin dodged the youth’s hurt eyes. Whenever he touched his lover now, his mind would think back to that dream.

Him pressed on the ground with two long, white legs folded open, and that man with the blurry face roughly penetrating his lover–

Bo Qin could not fight off that odd fear in his heart, and his footsteps were harried as he left the room, almost as if he were running away. sy F7v

Xie Mu stood in place, watching the man’s shadow as he left in a hurry, eyes dimming.

The man reached the living room, and only then did he realize what he had done to Xie Mu. His expression stiffened. He could not believe that the person, who could only think to avoid the other, was himself.

—Kuang!

The sound of a phone hitting the ground. 0AeRVy

Bo Qin’s eyes became piercingly cold as he turned his body to push open the door.

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Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.

“Why is…time, the time isn’t right…”

He raised his eyes in a daze to meet the gaze of his lover. G1rHwu

“Now…it’s May?”

Xie Mu stretched out a hand as he peered at the clothes he wore, finally realizing where his feeling of discomfort came from this whole time.

The youth’s pale fingers paused midair, his voice lower than a whisper, “The smell of gardenia flowers. It’s May, no doubt…”

What had he forgotten. l5yBDg