Those frigid words were akin to icicles stabbing into Tan Tao’s heart.
He looked disbelievingly towards his lover, who only moments ago had been docile and agreeable. “Darling, what’s wrong?”
Didn’t he say he would forgive him?
“Go away.”
Xie Mu glanced at the man with abhorrence and a tinge of confusion in his eyes.
He stumbled along with the support of the wall, fully expressing his hatred towards the man in his way.
How, how did it turn out like this.
Tan Tao’s lips trembled, his voice hoarse, “Darling, didn’t you say that you would still forgive me, even if you remembered everything?”
Was all that tenderness and sweetness between the lovers fake?
The youth didn’t know what he was talking about, wrinkling his brows. He struggled to hold onto the wall as he tried to leave this place with Tan Tao.
“Darling, what’s wrong with you, I…”
The man rushed up to grab his hand.
“Go away! Get out of the way!!”
Xie Mu, who had been strenuously maintaining his calm, immediately panicked, frantically trying to shake off his hand and kicking Tan Tao with a foot.
“What more do you want to do to me!!”
His eyes were full of hatred, and even as he shrunk back, his eyes remained so hard and stubborn. “I told you, Bo Qin won’t let you off!”
Though Xie Mu tried to keep up his cold front, Tan Tao still detected fear in his eyes.
A familiar sense of terror made his body go cold.
The person he liked feared him. There was nothing on Earth that could be crueler than this.
Once upon a time, Tan Tao had acted recklessly, believing everything to be hopeless and lost. He brute-forced his way through things because, at that point, he had nothing to fear.
But now, now he had felt warmth.
Xie Mu could be gentle and docile in his arms, obediently accepting the touches of his lips.
Now, however, his darling was once again afraid of him.
Xie Mu didn’t hesitate to act with cruelty, and a bone-piercing pain landed on Tan Tao’s leg.
No, not his leg, his heart.
Where did it go wrong?
Clearly, Xiao Mu had said that he would forgive him.
Did this mean that after remembering everything, he would just disregard all the good times they had had?
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Was Bo Qin that great?
Even though he had treated Xiao Mu like that, even though he had thrown him away like garbage, he could still forgive him so easily. He could go back to Bo Qin’s embrace, just like that?
Tan Tao currently felt as if he were standing outside in the snow on a freezing winter day, his body frozen to the point of chills.
But he didn’t want to give up so easily, letting go of the happiness he had felt in this period.
Although his leg hurt awfully from the kick and his heart had been pulled and prodded into a mess, Tan Tao still held stubbornly onto the youth’s hand.
Eyes reddened, voice raspy, he practically begged, “Darling, don’t, don’t be mad at me. I know I was wrong…”
“I’ve been changing. I listen to you. You like going to the amusement park, and you like cotton candy. I bought it all for you.”
Tan Tao didn’t want to admit that Xie Mu, who had found his memories, had abandoned him. His eyes were blood-shot as he tried his best to explain the situation on hand.
“You’re, you’re angry because the cotton candy melted, right?”
The man slowly knelt halfway to the ground as he spoke, reaching his hands out to pick up the cotton candy, “Sorry, I didn’t mean to. I’ll buy you a new one. Don’t be angry, darling. Don’t be angry…”
Tan Tao lowering himself like this might have hurt and softened the 19-year-old Xie Mu’s heart, but to the 22-year-old him…
— Xie Mu continued to cover up his fear. After experiencing that nightmare-like night and waking up to his enemy, it was pretty admirable that he hadn’t been scared silly.
He only had one thought though currently.
Find Bo Qin.
Find the man who could protect him.
He didn’t take another glance at the man half-kneeling on the ground, walking out with the wall as a support, flustered and in a trance.
“Xiao Mu, don’t go. Don’t go…”
He watched helplessly as the youth tried to leave through any possible escape route, crawling up on his hands and knees. His hands were sticky, and if this had been Tan Tao before, he would’ve left long ago, disgusted. But now, it was as if he could not feel it as he frantically tried to stay the youth in front of him.
It-it wasn’t supposed to be like this.
Why? Wasn’t it just recalling his memories, and hadn’t his darling already fallen in love with him these past few days?
He understood Xie Mu.
Even if he had recovered his memories, he was faced with a ruthless Bo Qin and a repentant him.
Shouldn’t the choice be him?
Xie Mu’s body was strengthless, but he gritted his teeth and continue to walk forward.
Before he could walk more than a few steps, the door opened, and the shadow of a man appeared.
The youth’s eyes immediately showed a pleasant surprise at seeing the man’s handsome face. He shouted the name of his lover, “Bo Qin!”
He forgot what came after, only remembering that this was the person he could always fall back on.
The man’s thin lips quirked up, and he opened his two arms towards him.
“Xiao Mu, come here.”
This time, Xie Mu burrowed into his embrace without hesitation.
Only in the embrace of someone he could depend on, did the youth relax. His body shook slightly from fear, his slender fingers gripping tightly onto the man’s clothing, “You help me drive him away; I’m scared…”
All his strength was from the absence of his lover, and now that Bo Qin had come, he could finally let himself search for that protection.
Tan Tao watched the scene, feeling as if a whip had whipped his body full of bloody red lines, face pale and eyes red.
He desperately wanted to hold onto that person, but he could only watch helplessly as he once again went to Bo Qin’s side.
“No, this isn’t right. Darling, this is wrong, wrong. I’m your lover…”
The youth shrunk his body back into his lover’s arms, Tan Tao’s hopeless pleading akin to threats to his ears.
“Bo Qin, Bo Qin…”
Hearing the youth call in him in that dependent manner of his, the curve of the handsome man’s lips didn’t break once. He hugged him, gently patting the back of his lover with large calloused palms.
As he thought, his lover remembered only his good points.
“Be good, Xiao Mu. I’m here.”
“Never again will someone harm you.”
As he spoke, Bo Qin’s line of sight moved past Tan Tao, who watched him with reddened eyes, to land on the body of the middle-aged doctor, who had just come out of the treatment room.
“Doctor Zhang, I’ll have to thank you for this time. My lover and I’ll go first then.”
Tan Tao suddenly turned around to look disbelievingly at the man who nodded with a smile at the doctor.
Bo Qin took Xie Mu with him as he left.
Even if he wanted to stay him, his lover would only use that gaze to look at him as if he were garbage.
Tan Tao only felt his body shudder with chills. He rushed towards the doctor as if he were mad, roaring at him as he wrenched his collar.
“What did you do to him!”
“What did you fucking do to him!!”
The middle-aged doctor was sheet-white from fright, “Per-personality erasure ah.”
Personality…erasure…?
Tan Tao’s lips shook, his voice almost breaking, “What personality??”
“Didn’t the patient awaken a second personality? He accepted treatment, and I helped him erase that personality. You, you, you, don’t hit people ah. You guys signed the signature.”
Signature, signature…
All of a sudden, the man felt as he had woken up. He frenziedly went to the front desk, messing up a whole table of documents.
Finally, he found the consent form.
The consent form to erase a secondary personality.
At the bottom, Xie Mu’s name was signed.
When he had signed his name, he could not have not seen it. So, that must mean that when his darling had signed his name, he had known that he would have been erased?
He had forced his darling to sign a notice to erase himself.
How could it become like this…
Xiao Mu, wasn’t he amnesiac?
19-year-old Xie Mu, who had directed his innocent smile towards him.
22-year-old Xie Mu, who was full of disgust.
Tan Tao stood stiffly in place, the corner of his mouth stretching as he laughed crazily.
It-it wasn’t supposed to be like this originally ah.
He murmured on repeat:
“Personality…erasure…”
“Personality…erasure!!”
— “Tan Tao, I don’t want to go…”
— “Tan Tao, I’m so scared…”
— “I feel like, if I remember everything, then I won’t be me anymore…”
— “I’ll disappear.”
At that time, did his darling already know that he would disappear?
And at that time, how did he reply.
“Silly…”
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“Turns out that I’m the fool…”
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Ugh I hate Tan Tao so much, what a scum! Thanks for the chapter^^ Also hi Nao, it’s a relief you’re here, we’ll be finally getting consistent uploads. I love this novel 🙂
Thanks for the chapter! ^ ^)♡
Aaahhh~♡♡ The pain~♡ His heart full of regret~~!!! Muahahah feel this gut wrenching heartache scum!!! Bo Qin’s days are numbered as well~ They think they’re so smart but my Darling Xie Mu is the puppeteer, the director of this foolish play!! I can’t wait till they regret it with their while beings!!!
Thanks for the chapter~♡
thank you for the chapter and welcome Nao! what’s nao’s discord’s name (so I can thank him by flowers)?
Thanks for the welcome! My discord name is just nao 🙂
Yaaaaa-! Sooo waiting for Bo Qin’s end Hehehehehehe Nao welcome laaa~! Thanks for the chapter!❤️
I feel very bad for tan tao 😓😓 i hope he wont hurt himself after this 😧😧 btw who is the ml?? The system?
I very much glad if ML is the System.
The comments upstairs are all melon eaters ah, not a single person is sad, 233333
Welcome Nao!!! Thanks for your hard work!
Tan Tao is a scum, but that scene was heart-wrenching. I’m looking forward to the other scum’s doom.
Thanks for the chapter!
I kinda found Tan Tao pitiful :< but idk, I hate both Bo Qin and Tan Tao for different reasons. Ahhhh~ I’m loving the MC moreee(♡ω♡ ) ~
Thanks for the chapter!
Thank you for the chapter!💕
I know I shouldn’t be sad cuz Tan tao is also a scum but I really cried Hahahaha😂
Xie mu is still the smartest🙂
Thanks for the chapter❤
👀 ooof, that must’ve hurt a lot 😈 scum abuse, so satisfying~
Now unto the first scum 😄
Thank you for translating 💐🙇♀️💕
I’m not crying
I often forget that he’s acting, and that this is a mission… 😅 his acting is way too good!
Schadenfreude… but also ahh the angst. I expected him to be distraught and while I didn’t like Tan Tao, I still feel so sad for him.
I don’t like what he did but I also feel bad for Tan Tao, the feeling of losing the person you treasure. Sigh. Pls teach Bo Qin his lesson soon so they’ll be equally tortured 😆
wait but why is 22-yo so forgiving of bo qin shouldn’t he be utterly disgusted w him as well??? or is it a slow burning pain like the dull knife hmmm that’s also not bad…
I hate Tan Tao but honestly so far he’s getting a lot of abuse already so I’m more inclined to hate Bo Qin way more still ah! He pretty much killed off the 19year old cutie! Ah so awful!
I got no pity for both of the scums.
I think the word ‘shagua’ in Korean means Apple no?
You see, i dont really like BQ and i kinda like TT even with him beinga scum like this, idk he gives me such pity…. (lll￢w￢.)
But i really want to know who of the characters show until now is the ML bah, i can’t wait to know, im suffering, i hope is not BQ…. URGH THIS IS GIVING ME A HEADACHE(╯ ͡❛ 益 ͡❛)╯┻━┻
This would have been heartbreaking if tantao ain’t the scum of the earth that he is
WHY TF AM I CRYING WTF AAAÀAAAAAAHHHHHGGGG
Now I’m waiting for Bo Qin’s misery mwehehe
Thanks for tha chap!
Agh my poor heart is being abused so much, every chapter it felt like a blunt knife was poking carefully at my heart, and now it feels as if my heart is forcefully being dragged away by Tan Tao, I don’t want to pity him because he’s a disgusting asshole and a scum but I can’t HELP but pity him hng…. (┳Д┳)
odio ser tan sensible, no puedo evitar llorar, pero las escorias se lo merecen!!! espero que N1 sufra aún más
Why is this so 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
This is so heart wrenching chapter, I feel so bad for Tan Tao 😧.
I hope he wallow in despair even more 😏
first time i felt such pity and sympathy for such a scummy person lol but the abuse is well deserved.
I’m literally crying. I know Tan Tao is a scumbag but Bao Zi is the worst!!
….hehe .i hope he suffers like hell……..