Even until Death, the Scum Gong thought I was a White LotusCh10 - 19-year-old rejected, 22-year-old, you’re up

He realized that Xie Mu, with only his 19-year-old self’s memories, had fallen in love with the man who had once hurt him.

At the moment, Tan Tao, who lay immobile, was bursting with hope, the gaze he directed towards Xie Mu’s back practically burning. Ry5uHz

Xie Mu was willing to forgive him?

The 19-year-old him was more naive than he had thought.

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“You’re really…impervious to reason.”

He stood up, condescendingly staring down at the youth’s vigilant gaze, sneering, “But, like this is also fine.” TEBsXn

Was this Xie Mu not the type he liked?

At the very least, when Xie Mu was still with him, he had not been this easy to coax.

[Ding! Bo Qin’s favorability: 70]

He kicked the man lying on the ground, “You’ve taught him well.”

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A pity. These people, once they made a mistake, they would only continue making the same ones.

Just as Tan Tao understood him, he also understood this childhood friend of his. To present such an image of deep attachment right now, it was still a little too early.

Bo Qin unlocked the fingerprint lock, pulling open the door and walking out. Behind him, Xie Mu let out a sigh, going to support the man up from the floor.

“Although I’ve only recovered a small portion of my memories, I believe that that was not your real intention. As a person, you’re gentle and treat me well. You’re definitely not that kind of person.” oAL9tC

“And did we not agree to spend a lifetime together?”

Xie Mu dedicatedly helped to absolve his lover of blame.

Tan Tao stared unwaveringly at the worried visage of the youth, eyes red and full of affection.

Xie Mu, surrounded by a love-filled atmosphere, supported the person onto the couch, mentally questioning the system. blOf9z

[System, is the saint halo still hanging above my head? Even I was touched by myself.]

The system took a glance, replying honestly, [No.]

Tan Tao rested in the hotel until the drug effects wore off. During this time, his little lover was constantly by his side. Even as his body was stiff and unable to move, he had never felt such warmth before.

This was undoubtedly an excellent opportunity. iNeySL

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Tan Tao had always worried that once Xie Mu recalled his memories, he would go back to abhorring and avoiding him. The better the youth treated him, the more trusting his eyes were when looking at him, the more restless his heart.

It was like a beautiful mirage. A light gust of wind would be all it took to scatter the dream, external forces unneeded in laying ruin to it.

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“I might not have remembered everything, but, Tan Tao, I believe you were acting in my best interests.”

Xie Mu’s face was serious with some of that youthful innocence, “I won’t think about that anymore. Let’s live this life together like this, alright?” dPmN0g

Those words, spoken like an oath, made the man unable to stop himself from stretching out a tense hand to pull him into his embrace. He was grateful for everything that happened, grateful for Xie Mu.

“Darling, I promise you. I’ll protect you well in the future.”

Regarding Xie Mu’s missing memories, they chose to close their mouths, not mentioning it.

They were like a mine, as long as they remained unstepped on, they would never explode. 0mTRqg

Bo Qin was devoted to speeding up the explosion.

He need only to try a little for Tan Tao’s influential businesses to promptly collapse. Then by cutting off his clan’s support, Tan Tao would fall into plight.

Up until now, he had vainly believed that he had achieved his current position due to his own efforts. However, reality had set in before him. Tan Tao realized, so long as Bo Qin wished, he need only to exert minimal effort to suppress him and subjugate him forever.

Bo Qin deliberately did not do so. It was like he was flying a kite, tightening and loosening the string, watching his former friend’s futile struggling to no avail. aHmrne

Very soon, Tan Tao could no longer endure it.

Currently, he could not maintain even the most minimal dignities. Essentially everyone in the circle knew that he, Tan Tao, had displeased someone. Before, each and every one of them fought to flatter him, but now, he was avoided like some plague.

That, however, actually mattered little as Tan Tao did not care for their opinions. What was most unacceptable to him was that the old man, who had declared twenty years ago to have had a vasectomy, brought back a 14-year-old bastard.

Tan Tao discerned the old man’s intentions; he was subtly revealing his intent to replace Tan Tao with that little son. sv5aDR

He was unsure if it was the old man’s original intent or Bo Qin’s idea. However, he knew, as long as that person took his position, he would no longer have a chance to turn over a new leaf.

As of late, no one had looked for him for work. Tan Tao felt as if he were expiring on the spot; in this circle, his name already no longer existed.

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For a man who had been surrounded by admirers from birth, these feelings were too awful. They were awful to the point where his well-disguised mask of gentleness could almost no longer be concealed.

“Tan Tao, you haven’t eaten in a day. I simmered some soup for you, at least drink a little, ba.” 0d8kfn

From the doorway came the youth’s hesitant voice. He was worried about his lover and wanted to help share his burden, but he didn’t know how. He could only try and take care of Tan Tao’s health.

“I said I wanted to be alone for a while, did you not hear!”

The usually gentle visage of the man showed signs of irritation. He forcefully smashed the ashtray onto the ground, shattering it into pieces, a splintering sound resounding.

The youth was obviously startled. Unsure of what he did wrong, he watched the strange scene before him with fearful eyes. iG2vkt

“I, I was worried about your health…”

“Mushroom soup again?”

Tan Tao knew he shouldn’t have vented his temper on him, but, whenever he thought about all the mushroom soup he had drunk in these past few days, the senseless anger in his heart would not cease.

“I thought you liked mushrooms, so…” xlphJU

“Who the fuck likes eating mushrooms!!”

The man swept a whole tableful of documents onto the floor. Items fell onto the ground, emitting a heavy thud. He was breathing heavily, eyes flushed red, releasing all of the fury he had pent-up from the last few days.

Bitter melon, sugarless coffee, mushroom soup, all things that Bo Qin fucking liked.

He was frustrated by work. While his lover appeared meek and docile, the food he cooked, the soup he stewed, even the clothes he bought for him were all according to another man’s preferences. 5U9jSd

Some of the time, Tan Tao even thought that Xie Mu didn’t like him, only liking the phantom from his dream, a memory of Bo Qin.

Bitter melon, sugarless coffee, mushroom soup, all reminders to Tan Tao that his lover mistook him as another.

If this was before, Tan Tao would still rein himself in and coax the youth, slowly grooming him. But now, a large amount of stress was suspended above his head, and Tan Tao could not spare a thought for Xie Mu’s feelings.

He even used him as an outlet for his anger. q2ptFo

Since he had been brought back from the hospital, Tan Tao had always worn a mask of gentleness, warmly coaxing him. This was the first time the youth had seen Tan Tao without his veil.

The unfamiliarity was frightening.

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“Tan Tao…”

He couldn’t understand why his lover had suddenly become so horrid. Evidently, he only wanted to care about him. OTPGdb

“Get out!”

Tan Tao impatiently looked up, his eyes, dizzy from inhaling copious amounts of smoke, met Xie Mu’s red-rimmed gaze. Instantly, his heart became even more irritated.

“I only wanted to help you.” Xie Mu did not obediently take leave, stubbornly explaining with his eyes red.

“Help me? Do you understand these documents? Do you understand the inner workings of the stock market? Do you know how to convert a large sum of money quickly?” U7 c3F

Tan Tao knew that he should not act this way, but when he saw the youth’s confused and aggrieved eyes, he could no longer hold back from venting it all out, “If you can’t help with anything, don’t bother me!”

His lover, who had been dependent upon him and constantly holding back his emotions, completely melt down under his disdaining tone of voice. His tears could not be held back, dripping, bada bada, onto the ground. Mentally he was only nineteen, and he had been spoiled ever since he had come back from the hospital. How could he endure such words from his usually gentle and soft-spoken lover?

Tan Tao watched the youth, who knew only to cry when met with obstacles, with slightly disappointed eyes.

The Xie Mu he had known would always quickly calm down, no matter what had happened. He would help Bo Qin handle all sorts of urgent matters. He was, without a doubt, the best and most devoted secretary. Unbeknownst to Xie Mu, Tan Tao had stolen peeks at him many a time. The more he looked, the stronger his youthful obsession was. HOwQNT

Finally, he could no longer resist and made his move on Xie Mu.

And when Xie Mu lost his memories and was without support, he brought him home with him.

“You really aren’t anything like the Xie Mu I had known.”

To the youth, that sentence undeniably hurt the most. O47Fwa

Tan Tao had completely repudiated the 19-year-old him even though he had previously spoiled him into the palm of his hand.

Eyes reddened, he tried hard not to drip any more tears. His voice mournful, he sobbed, “You like the 22-year-old me, don’t you?”

Tan Tao’s fist slammed violently onto the table, “Yes! I like the secretary who was capable of solving matters perfectly, so be quiet. Don’t make me any more bitter melon, mushroom soup, alright?”

Xie Mu regarded him stiffly, finally unable to hold back from running out of the study crying. pYQyzm

Tan Tao watched the youth’s retreating back, massaging his brows, eyes full of weariness.

How good would it be if the one who liked him was the 22-year-old Xie Mu?

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The youth left Tan Tao’s house, ambling along foreign roads. In the end, he somehow fumbled his way to the hospital in which he had woken up.

He found the doctor who had been in charge of him, eyes still red-rimmed and even somewhat swollen: E X5Fz

“Doctor, I would like to recover my memories.”

Translator's Note


镜花水月 (jìng huā shuǐ yuè) was written in the original text, translating to flowers in a mirror and the moon’s reflection upon water.

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如日中天 (rú rì zhōng tiān) means like the sun at high noon, bright and burning.

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众星捧月 (zhòng xīng pěng yuè) translates to a myriad of stars orbiting the moon, a crowd of people drawn to a single person.

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他妈 (tā mā) translates to his mom, but is basically slang for fuck/fucking.

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特么 (tè me) is used here which sounds like 他妈 or fuck/fucking.

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19 comments

  1. Tan Tao showed his true face too fast! He’s the kind of person that When poverty knocks on the door, love fliest out of the window.

    Let’s see how Xie Mu pretends to got his memories back.

    Thanks for the chapter!

  2. I don’t know how many time i rolled my eyes in this chapter because of Tan Tao

    I don’t even have a desire to say smth sarcastic about his “love” to original owner

  3. Lmaoo I was actually have a bud as big as this – to think that maybe Tan tao actually like MC baby but some financial crisis come and the love was quickly forgotten,,, I really can’t 😂.

    The hole that you dug was your bed and now you need to lay in it yourself hahahahha

  4. Lalalala~ Face slapping coming right up!! Can’t wait for these scrums to be begging on their knees.

    Thanks for the chapter~♡

  5. This reminded me of a guy who told me he want to marry me because with my high education, he doesnt have to work and only live well all day everyday…

    I didn’t work hard to have a big useless child like you…

    Xie Mu also didn’t became capable to support a man like you tan tao…wtf…

  6. ​Bo Qin likes the innocent 19 year old Xie Mu and Tan Tao likes the serious 22 year old Xie Mu. Why couldn’t they just accept all of him and not put their ideals on a completely innocent person? What scum. They deserve all the pain coming to them!! To think the original was in the palm of these two trash

  7. I really can’t wait for the peak of scum abuse! These two heartless shits deserves all the pain coming their way

    Thank you for translating 💕🙏💕

  8. Here it comes here it comes~

    This older sister hears the sound of a raised palm~ ^-^

  9. Wew. That was quite a drama. Hihihi.. I can’t wait to the day where Tan Tao and Bo Qin finally left by Xie Mu.

    Thank you for the update ❤️❤️❤️

  10. At this point if there wasnt a task to be settled i would recommend ditching these two grade a a**holes

  11. This isn’t even a fake lovers’ relationship hahahhaha it’s a Taking Care Of An Overgrown Baby relationship ghhhhhh

    Can’t wait for Xie Mu to faceslap these two scum gongs (:3」∠)_

  12. Lol. Such dog blood. Much eye roll to scum no. 2 in this chapter.

    Thanks for translating! 💕

  13. aaaah i’m so angry these gongs are making me really mad, poor original soul, had to suffer because of others bullshit personality’s