Even until Death, the Scum Gong thought I was a White LotusCh1 - He Lost All Memory of the Scum Gong

Xie Mu woke up in a patient ward to a circle of doctors and nurses repeatedly exclaiming: “it’s a miracle, it’s truly a miracle.”

He lowered his eyes slightly to look at his hands. U OqrM

Clearly, a second ago, his hands were still covered in blood, but now the backs of his hands were clean. Although a little too pale, his fingers were long and delicate and like jade, white and unblemished.

Although Xie Mu was used to seeing sentiments of pain, despair, and hate, emotions of this strength still made his head ache dully.

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The memories he had just accepted were those of the original body, similar to what he saw in the character space. Originally such a clean person, but how did it become that, at the moment of his death, he could not even maintain his final dignity.

At the age of 18, he, an orphan, left the orphanage to live alone. And although life was difficult, he managed to graduate successfully due to having outstanding grades and a scholarship as well as working in his spare time. yfiSdn

After graduation, he joined a large enterprise in the city and was fortunate enough to become the general manager’s secretary.

His boss, the general manager of the company, turned out to be the legendary idol of his old high school. He was also, coincidentally, the only person who reached out to Xie Mu when his classmates excluded and isolated him.

As a freshly graduated student with no experience, this was like a dream come true.

The original nervously began his new job, working hard to absorb all new kinds of knowledge. Initially, he believed his work would be difficult and grueling; however, he never expected that his boss would look after him so well. His boss practically held his hand through the whole process of teaching him to be an up to standard secretary. His boss could be considered as thoughtful in day to day life as well.

He was grateful to and protective of his boss, naively hoping and believing that he could stay a secretary here for a lifetime.

As they interacted more, the original slowly realized that he held a different kind of affection for his boss. Due to feelings of low self-esteem, he desperately suppressed his emotions; however, later, in a state of drunkenness, he somehow had another sort of relations with his boss.

His life after that day became like a beautiful dream. Not only did his boss not blame him, but instead, his boss confessed his adoration to him. The pair got together and, for a long time, lived a honey-like life as a couple.

In the end, a dream was just a dream, coming to an end once awoken. AMQInh

The initially thoughtful and gentle lover started coming home less and less. As his secretary, the original was clear that the reason was not because of work, and although his heart was upset and flustered, he didn’t dare to question it. He felt as if he were awaiting the guillotine, scared but expecting the inevitable.

One day, his lover got drunk and called him to over. Hangover stew on the stove at home, he brought a jacket and hurried to his lover’s location.

It was raining that day when he arrived at the bar.

Then, he was pushed into another person’s embrace. pCRaKJ

Although his lover was more than a little drunk, he was still clear-minded. He bantered a few lines with his friends and then pushed his hard-won lover into his friend’s arms.

After that night, his body was bruised, the scars numerous like scales on a fish. The man he had thought of as his lover had woken up, frowning at the mess on the ground. His eyes flashing with disgust as he regarded the raggedly dressed original body on the floor.

“Tao zi, next time you go out to play, don’t bring me along, alright? It’s disgusting.”

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While griping to his friend, he saw the red-eyed original body looking up him. With an expression of impatience, he signed a check, turning around and leaving right afterward. 98jhqf

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He asked, why?

His lover answered that he likes cleanliness. 51hB9J

What a joke; he likes cleanliness, but who was it that soiled him?

That late-night, he dragged his luggage as rain dripped onto his face. Clearly, it was just water, but he felt every drop painfully dripping onto his soul. When a car zoomed by, there was no time for him to even react, falling heavily onto the ground.

He became a vegetable, half dead, half alive, sometimes conscious, sometimes unconscious, lying on a sickbed with his body completely immobile.

Sometimes, he could hear the voices of the nurses who helped him conversating, saying that his general manager was such a good person ah. Clearly, it was only a superior-subordinate relationship, but he still dedicatedly paid for his medical fees so that he could receive quality medical treatment. etQJxH

In the eyes of others, that person was as kind and generous as could be, he was an outstanding benefactor. Like that, the person lying on the bed, wanting to die but unable to die, was forced to continue living. Like that, he laid on that bed for ten years.

Ten years ah. No respect, no light for ten years.

That moment of death, it could be called liberation.

Xie Mu entered the body when the body had already been unconscious for half a month, at a time when almost everyone thought that he would never wake up again. TgP7nR

“Blink your eyes for me.”

The female doctor used a tone akin to that for coaxing children. His face pale, Xie Mu weakly fluttered his long eyelashes.

“Doctor, I still can’t move my legs…”

The doctor looked at the youth before her with delicate and pretty features. Perhaps it was because the outlines of his eyes were round like a cat’s, but when he looked over, he resembled an innocent baby deer. qg240G

Xie Mu’s pale face, colorless lips, and hoarse and weak tone of voice successfully stabbed at the little amount of maternal love she had left.

“Your inability to control your body is only temporary due to being unconscious for too long. Once your assessment finishes, then you can try moving a little.”

The youth arduously nodded his head, “thank you, doctor.”

What a polite and well-mannered person, and to be so handsome. Being able to wake up is really a stroke of luck amongst a sea of misfortune. 7Zbmjs

After assessing his bodily vitals, it was time for routine questioning.

“Do you know your name?” She asked.

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“Xie Mu.”

The female doctor ticked off a check in her book and continued asking, “What about your age then?” cxOXg2

“19 years old.”

Her pen, which was about to land on the paper, paused.

The book clearly stated, Xie Mu’s age: 22

In a rare moment of shock, he felt unable to focus. Bq9t4C

Xie Mu’s car accident that night had been out of his expectations. Ultimately, he had followed him for some time. If not for Tan Tao touching him that night, their relationship could have at least maintained for a while longer.

Xie Mu was well-behaved, obedient even in bed. Furthermore, he usually took care of him to an extent where he needed for naught. It wasn’t in vain that he had had his heart set the moment he saw Xie Mu at that college, arranging a scheme to recruit him to the company.

After getting together, Bo Qin was indeed satisfied and had resigned his heart for a while, conscientiously no longer going out to play anymore.

However, after a while, even the most obedient and well-behaved lover would become boring and disinteresting. Bo Qin began disappearing, occasionally, to sample rare sumptuous delights. Enjoying fiery and spicy beauties outside while receiving the careful care of Xie Mu at home, he had the best of both worlds. EchpC2

Bo Qin still hadn’t thought through what he would do if Xie Mu discovered his wrongdoings, whether he would try to reconcile or directly break up with him, when Tan Tao called him out.

Tan Tao was a family friend of Bo Qin, the two playing together since childhood. Prior to taking over their family businesses, within the city walls, they were well known as mutually encouraging troublemakers.

Having drunk copious amounts of alcohol and wanting to play at something different, at Tan Tao’s suggestion, Bo Qin called over that person. At first, Tan Tao had only wanted to fool around a little while hugging Xie Mu; however, the joke ended up excessive once Tan Tao touched Xie Mu.

No matter how well the two played together, their relationship still was not to the point of sharing lovers. SFGuQc

Bo Qin liked to play; however, he also had a habit of cleanliness. At this point, Xie Mu, this obedient little lover, could no longer be wanted, and he immediately went home and took a good, long shower.

When Xie Mu, drenched in rain, went to find him, Bo Qin directly shed his mask and dismissed the other person. The appearance of that youth, pale-faced and red-eyed, stubbornly asking him why, even until now, Bo Qin was still unable to forget.

What Bo Qin usually liked the most was that pitiful, but enduring look of Xie Mu’s, pressed onto the bed, arms folded, and sobbing out his name. Now, however, just the thought of Tan Tao touching the person in front of him sent his heart shuddering with a wave of irritation.

Later on, someone told him, Xie Mu had a car accident. eR2dtB

The doctor said that the probability of him waking up was slight.

Although not once did Bo Qin visit him, he still paid his medical bills. After all, at one point, he had been his lover, and like this, his duty could be considered as fulfilled.

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Even he had not thought that Xie Mu would wake up.

Thinking to the appearance of that red-eyed youth, repeatedly mumbling, why, he closed his document and rubbed his brows. J4aHQz

When Bo Qin arrived at the hospital, Xie Mu was doing his rehabilitation exercises. Although not unconscious for long, his body was still extremely weak. Currently, he was holding onto the railing for support and carefully walking forward, step by step.

His strides and range of motion were narrow. With his head lowered, his pale face shone with a thin layer of sweat. His body, overly thin and delicate, made the patient uniform seemed especially oversized on that frame. That pair of white and slender hands, which Bo Qin had kissed numerous times, seemed particularly beautiful, tinged a faint blue hue from strain.

Bo Qin stood in the doorway, watching the youth grit his teeth, silently walking forward without so much as a peep. Step by step, he walked with the slow pace of an elderly towards the side of the door.

Although he could clearly tell that he was fatigued, he still continued to turn his body, slowly and with care, while short of breath. Oia8wg

In theory, as someone unconscious for so long, his looks should have more or less deteriorated to some extent. But, while Xie Mu’s face was stark white and his body much thinner and weaker, his face became a few degrees more seductive than even previously.

Beads of sweat ran past the side of his ear, flowing down the youth’s jaw. He paused momentarily to wipe away the sweat with slender fingers trembling from exertion, eyes full of perseverance.

This kind of Xie Mu, Bo Qin had never seen before.

He knocked against the bar and raised his voice, calling out with a hypnotic timbre, “Xie Mu.” 0OYeDn

The youth halted, slowly raising his head, a pair of doubtful round eyes giving the appearance of a baby deer.

He blinked his eyes, long eyelashes fluttering slowly, as he reacted sluggishly, “Bo zong?”

Bo Qin hadn’t even answered when he saw the youth lean his body on the rail, a brilliant smile spreading brightly on his pale face.

With his colorless lips and his bright black eyes full of gratefulness, he looked a little silly. Bo Qin had not seen Xie Mu smile like that, at least, not since they got together. PoyW7R

The sound of the doctor’s voice rang out near his ear.

“The patient believes he is once more 19 years of age and a sophomore in college, which means that the patient has no recollection of the past 3 years. We have questioned him extensively and have found, additionally, that his 16th year is also a blurry period.”

These 3 years, the year he was 16, these were all memories with Bo Qin.

The youth, completely ignorant of his thoughts, feebly walked closer, finally walking to Bo Qin’s side. QRCbGW

He gratefully pronounced, “Thank you, Bo zong, for helping me chip in for the medical fees. When I get discharged from the hospital, I will try quickly to return the money.”

Estranged, but polite.

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He lost all memories related to Bo Qin.