Translated by Eve
Edited by Kara
101 Fancy Ways to Kill Yourself
Xie He’s eyes were red.
My Dad would not treat me like this, my Dad would not be so merciless…my Dad would not do such things to me!
Deng Jingwen closed his eyes, covering up the suffering inside, and said, “I know that you still blame me. After all, I went overboard with the things I did. It’s normal for you to be angry with me. Only, Dad really knows that he was wrong. I promise that I won’t do it again.”
Xie He’s face was completely white. His gaze was empty, and he muttered to himself, “You’re not….”
Deng Jingwen looked at him, tone soft, “You must be tired today. Go to bed early, ba. I’ve already had people help you tidy up your room.”
After he said this, he paused for a second and then left.
He knew that so long as he stayed, the boy would never feel at ease. He needed to give him time alone.
Xie He stayed in the empty living room all by himself.
After a long time—so long that his legs had become paralyzed, he walked up to the second floor with stiff limbs.
His old room was on the second floor…that place had already been cleared out and given to someone else. He had already been mercilessly expelled from there….
At this moment, he stood at the familiar door. He reached out and was about to push the door open when he suddenly revealed a timid expression. After a period of time…he lightly pushed the door open.
The room’s interior was exactly as he remembered it. Everything had been put back in their original place. Even the little objects he had randomly displayed on his desk had not changed. It was as if…this place had never changed, and everything had been nothing but a nightmare.
Xie He finally lost all strength and gradually slid onto the floor. He buried his head into his arms, shoulders slightly shaking, looking like he was crying silently.
【Xie He：Are there surveillance cameras?】
【444：Yes….】
【Xie He：It’s truly hard for Dad to change his nature. :)】
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Deng Jingwen had always been a man who did what he said. From that day on, he earnestly played a concerned, loving, well-qualified father.
Not only did he not do anything over the top, but the occasional everyday actions were also very restrained. It was as if he was afraid that Xie He would overthink things. Although he would pamper the boy, he would never do anything that would make someone misunderstand.
However, Xie He remained indifferent. He never called him “Dad.”
Deng Jingwen felt defeated and unwell. He watched the boy cry in his room every night, but he acted like he didn’t know, enduring the depression in his chest while smiling at the boy.
After some time, Deng Jingwen suddenly told Xie He one day, “Xiao Zhuo, I have a present for you.”
Xie He did not make a sound.
Deng Jingwen led him by the hand and brought him over to the front yard. In the yard was a dazzling and extremely cool racing motorbike. Deng Jingwen said, “I had this custom-made for you. Do you like it?”
Xie He’s expression did not change at all. It was like what he was looking at wasn’t the motorbike he loved the most but a pile of scrap metal. He said, “Thank you, Sir.”
Deng Jingwen was already used to the boy’s reactions. He still smiled at him dotingly, “If you aren’t satisfied with it, it’s fine. I’ll invite the designer over. Whatever you like, he’ll make the changes, OK?”
The corner of Xie He’s mouth raised, and he couldn’t help but smile satirically. This man would never change.
Deng Jingwen acted like he didn’t see it. He brought Xie He back into the house and had him sit on the sofa. He then personally brought out something from the kitchen and placed it on the table.
Xie He looked at it. It was a cake. It didn’t look like much. It was obvious that it had been made by an amateur. On the top, there were words written in cream: “Happy Birthday.”
Xie He’s expression finally changed.
Deng Jingwen smiled, “Xiao Zhuo, today is your birthday, so I made you a cake. Only, it’s my first time, so it’s a bit of a failure.”
Xie He fixed his eyes on him as if he didn’t recognize him.
Deng Jingwen stuck some candles in the cake. 19 candles in total. He then beckoned Xie He over, “Come make a wish, ba.”
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
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He used a fierce, hopeless gaze to glare at Deng Jingwen, “Enough! You’re not my Dad!”
Deng Jingwen paled. He wanted to say something, but his throat felt painful. He couldn’t say anything. He could only reach out, wanting to placate the boy.
However, the boy dodged him. He emphasized, “My dad has already died.”
His dad had already died. The first time he had expelled him from the family, the first time he had pressed him down underneath his body, the first time he had chased him out of his own room…he had already died, died, died!
Deng Jingwen’s eyes were full of remorse, but he forced himself to smile and said, “Xiao Zhuo, what nonsense are you saying…?”
Xie He finally fell apart. He screeched, both arms wrapping around his head, “Why do you have to pretend to be my dad, why do you have to pretend to be my dad!? You’re not!”
He then ran out. He could not take this anymore!
He didn’t have a father like this!
This kind of life, that was beautiful to the point of being unreal, was not real!
He didn’t want to deceive himself anymore. He’d had enough!
Deng Jingwen watched the boy run away. He felt like his heart was leaking blood.
How could he not know that it was already too late? But…aside from doing his best to play the role of a good father, he didn’t know what else he could do. He didn’t know how else he could stay by the boy’s side….
Deng Jingwen stood in place for a moment and then chased after the boy. He didn’t dare pursue him too closely. He kept a distance from the boy as he followed him.
The boy finally stood in front of a bridge, unmoving. He held the rails as he gazed far into the distance.
Probably because he had vented, but he looked much calmer. He was no longer hysterical, nor did he go crazy with rage. He only stood there peacefully. The wind rustled his clothes. He looked like he would soon float away.
After a while, he turned. He pursed his lips, voice light, “You’ve come.”
Deng Jingwen nodded. He hesitated for a while, then carefully walked over and whispered, “Go home with Dad, OK?”
Xie He didn’t nod, but he didn’t shake his head either. He tilted his head, black pupils seeming to have an extremely complicated emotion brewing within. He looked like he was yearning for something but also afraid of it at the same time. He suddenly asked, “Are you really my father?”
Deng Jingwen did not hesitate. He said, “Yes.”
Xie He blinked. His eyes were glossy. He asked again, “Then, why did you treat me like that?”
Deng Jingwen could not control the grief in his voice. He said, “Because, I love you.”
“You love me?” Xie He questioned.
“Yes,” Deng Jingwen gently cupped his face and slowly said, “I love you more than anything else.”
Xie He smiled, “Then, why do you want to go back to being my father? Do you not love me anymore?”
Deng Jingwen shook his head, “No, it’s because I love you even more.”
Xie He gazed at him, tears streaming down. He laughed, “So, it turns out…that you love me, ah….”
Deng Jingwen reached out to gently wipe the boy’s tears and whispered, “I’m sorry….”
Xie He didn’t get angry or lose control. He didn’t scream frenetically. He only peacefully allowed Deng Jingwen’s fingertips to lightly wipe at the corner of his eyes. There was a dense fondness and reluctance to part in his eyes. He said, “Dad…actually, I’ve always really loved you.”
Deng Jingwen looked at the boy. He finally heard him call him “Dad.” He had waited for so long, for so long…so long that being called “Dad” now felt like an extravagant hope.
However, he also finally got to hear the boy say: “Dad, I love you.”
At this moment, it didn’t matter what kind of love it was. What was important was that the person he loved also loved him back.
【Ding, the target, Deng Jingwen’s Favourability Value +1. The current Favourability Value is 100.】
The sound of a distant train could be heard. Its rumbling seemed to dampen everything around them, dampening all of the sorrow, love, pain, and reluctance to part at that moment.
Xie He suddenly stood on his tiptoes and wrapped his arms around Deng Jingwen’s neck. His soft lips brushed against Deng Jingwen’s ears, and he used a clear and bright voice to say, “Dad, I hate you.”
However much I love you, I also hate you.
After saying this, under Deng Jingwen’s pained and shocked gaze, he gave the man a gorgeous, bright smile like those from the distant past.
He then suddenly pushed Deng Jingwen away, leaned backwards, and directly fell from the bridge.
Deng Jingwen wanted to reach out and grab him, but their fingertips only brushed past each other. Deng Jingwen’s hands clenched around thin air. He could only watch the boy fall incessantly, getting further and further away from him. That beautiful boy fell onto the rails, limbs twisted at grotesque angles, blood seeping out from underneath his body. He was like a beautiful, bewitching flower slowly blooming.
Deng Jingwen’s eyes were about to burst! “No—!”
His boy, his child…he had to bring him back, he had to bring him back!
【Ding, the target of this world, Deng Jingwen was successfully captured. You have obtained 10,000 experience points. The important character of this world, Ning Qi was successfully captured. You have obtained 8000 experience points. The total number of experience points gained in this world is 18,000.】
【Ding, you are currently leaving this world. Transfer in progress….】
Liu Yan, who had driven a car and followed from behind, rushed over in time to tightly hold onto Deng Jingwen, pulling him backwards. He and the chauffeur finally managed to stop Deng Jingwen together!
At this time, the speeding train came barrelling over, crushing the boy….
The last scene witnessed by Deng Jingwen was that of flesh splattering, dying his vision and world red.
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When Deng Jingwen finally woke up, he found himself in the hospital.
For a moment, his mind was blank as if he didn’t know what had happened or why he was here.
Very soon, a doctor came by, “Mr. Deng, how do you feel?”
Deng Jingwen didn’t speak. He got off the bed and left. However, as soon as he reached the corridor, he was blocked by Liu Yan, who was guarding outside. Liu Yan looked at him with a complicated and nervous gaze, “W-where do you want to go?”
Deng Jingwen said, “I have to get Xiao Zhuo. Yesterday, he didn’t even eat his cake and ran away. That child doesn’t know how to take care of himself. I don’t feel assured.”
Liu Yan felt like something was stuck in his throat. However, he still said, “Mr. Deng, you fainted yesterday. It’s still better for you to not rush out of the hospital.”
Deng Jingwen’s eyes suddenly turned cold. He shouted, “Make way!”
Liu Yan had never disobeyed Deng Jingwen’s orders before. This was the first time he didn’t listen. He said, “Don’t worry, I’ve already brought Zhuo Shao back.”
Deng Jingwen pulled Liu Yan up by the collar, his eyes red, “You’re lying to me!”
Liu Yan said, “What am I lying about?”
Deng Jingwen’s hands were trembling. Right…what was he lying about…he wasn’t lying to him…the one who was deceiving him was himself.
He was tricking himself into believing that the boy was still alive.
He was trying to forget his memories of that time.
However, this didn’t work. He couldn’t forget. He remembered everything. He remembered how the boy had run out in despair. He remembered what the boy had said to him: I’ve always loved you….He also remembered the final words the boy had said to him and even that very last smile.
He said, Dad, I hate you.
However much I love you, I also hate you.
Deng Jingwen suddenly felt like he had a splitting headache. That bitter scene kept replaying over and over in his head. That twisted body, the splatter of flesh, the decapitated head….
Xiao Zhuo….
I know how much you hate me.
I finally understand just how much you hate me….
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No one could truly stop Deng Jingwen from leaving though. He still returned home. There was a deathly stillness surrounding his home.
Deng Jingwen seemed to have already calmed down. He acted very normal.
He went to Deng Zhuo’s room. The room was empty: everything was still the same. It was as if the owner would return at any time…as if that horrifying scene had been an illusion….Deng Zhuo suddenly felt wetness on his face. He reached up and felt his cheek. It was wet.
The boy’s desk was messy. It could be seen that he had never cleaned it before. Deng Jingwen meticulously helped him tidy it up and then sat in the room for a long, long time. Only after that did he get up and leave.
Walking down the hall, he noticed that the main door was locked. Deng Jingwen was suddenly enraged. He walked over, opened the door again, and shouted sternly, “Who let you close the door!?”
The servant, who was unjustly attacked, trembled. Faced with the angry Deng Jingwen, he didn’t dare say a single word.
Deng Jingwen fiercely glared at him, “From now on, this door is not allowed to be closed!”
After all, if the door was closed, how would his boy come back…? How would he be able to come back…?
From that day on, the Deng Family’s door was never closed.
Deng Jingwen would keep the door to his room open every night and sit in the empty bed. He would wait for his boy to come back. He was afraid that if he closed the door and left this place, the boy would not be able to find his way home.
A month passed by like this. When Liu Yan came to see Deng Jingwen again, he discovered that the once mighty and indifferent man already had white hair.
Deng Jingwen sat on the sofa and turned to look at him woodenly.
Liu Yan suppressed the emotions in his voice, “Mr. Deng, you haven’t come to the company for a very long time.”
Deng Jingwen spoke insipidly, “It’s fine for you to deal with company matters.”
Liu Yan still tried to persuade him, “But….”
Deng Jingwen suddenly asked him, “Xiao Zhuo hates me so much. He certainly wouldn’t be willing to come back, ba…do you think he’s gone elsewhere?”
Liu Yan’s eyes turned red. He lowered his head to rub at his eyes.
Deng Jingwen said, “He’s so silly, and he can’t take care of himself. Without me, he’ll be bullied wherever he goes. I really can’t be at ease.”
Liu Yan choked, “Don’t think about him anymore.”
Deng Jingwen shook his head, “How could I be so heartless? He has only left for a few months. If he knew that I stopped thinking about him, he would definitely get mad. I don’t dare make him angry again.”
Liu Yan couldn’t hold back from crying.
After speaking, Deng Jingwen looked at Liu Yan and said, “Go, ba. You don’t have to come see me again.”
Liu Yan could only leave. He was prepared to come back in a couple of days to try and persuade Mr. Deng again. In the end, a person could not come back to life after dying. Eventually, Deng Jingwen would have to step out of his house.
However, shortly afterwards, he left.
No one knew where he had gone.
It was like he had vanished into thin air.
Deng Jingwen’s disappearance caused big waves. Liu Yan and a few others of Deng Jingwen’s loyal subordinates worked together to keep the overall situation steady. They protected a portion of his assets and even took Bai Xiaorui back.
Two years later, Bai Xiaorui took over the Deng Family with the help of Liu Yan and co. One time, he went to clean Deng Zhuo’s grave, and from afar, he could make out a man standing before Deng Zhuo’s grave. The man stood there alone, the heavy aura around him dispiriting. He looked a lot like Deng Jingwen. However, when they went to chase after him, the man had already disappeared.
From then on, no one ever saw Deng Jingwen again.
The author has something to say:
Lalala, this world has ended, la. \(≧▽≦)/
The next world will be: Your Majesty, this Servant Obeys! Alternate name, “Gossip: That Scoundrel that Imprisoned Zhen”, “Incapable Ruler! Where are you going?!”
Thank you my dears for the nutrient fluid~~ Love you all, muah muah. (づ￣3￣)づ╭
Eve: I actually teared up for this ending too. I feel like each arc is getting sadder. I didn’t expect to get sadder. I thought I would just become numb. 🙁
Kara: Wow…I had so many conflicting emotions about this ending. First of all, yikes, that gory suicide scene? Bruh….there was so much blood this arc, too much. Lastly, another message from Ning Qi’s #1 fan: WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM AFTER THAT?? EXCUSE ME??? HE LOST THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE TOO?!?! ｡゜(｀Д´)゜｡
Thank you
send help. i cant stop crying but i cant stop reading either. its a vicious cycle
I was so excited for this chapter I waited until 4 AM and now I’m ugly crying while trying to not wake my sister up… God damn it, I’m so sad even though I know Xie He that sly fox was acting ಥ_ಥ Also I really wanted to know Ning Qi’s reaction, what the hell author?! Wuwuwu I’ll just cry until morning… (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)
I know right! I NEED to know what happened to Ning Qi….he wouldn’t have left it like that when hearing Xiao Zhou dead….
Good for you, at least you managed to let it out.
Me on the other, was closed to tears but very single friggin time I’m almost touched, like a devil himself, I’d remember our poor boy is a freakin actor and the feels gets scrambled….
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LMAO SAME HERE (￣┰￣*) ε=ε=ε=(~￣▽￣)~
This is my third/ fourth time reading this particular arc (father/son is hot) and I ugly cried everytime
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(╥╯﹏╰╥)(╥╯﹏╰╥)(╥╯﹏╰╥)
I tend to steer clear of angst because I drown into the characters emotional states while reading. But I can’t stop reading this one. I might be a closet M for the repeated heart-abuse I’ve inflicted on myself by continuing to read this story. 😅
I know XH masterminded all this abusive plots but from the POV of the other characters, I feel so sad for everyone 😭 can’t stop my tears though I know it’s all XH plans. Ugh…. The feels….
I need more fluff before continuing on this journey.
Argh… It meant to be a separate post. 🤦🏻♀️ Sorry for this…
T-T this arc was a rollercoaster of emotion
Hu hu hu ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω
ﾟ)ﾟ｡｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ωﾟ)ﾟ｡ this ride is fantastic! beautiful! It’ll be even more heart wrenching if I could see interaction between DJW and NQ… Looking forward for the next arc~ 🤩🤩🤩I know this is a futile wish but PLEASE NO MORE TRAGEDY, my eyes cant take so many onions 😥😥
raises banner to the air I demand my Ning Qi to have h is own arc!!!
I agree with Kara, I want to hear about Ning Qi too!
Thank you for the chapter!💕
Thank you for the chapter! There were ninjas cutting onions when I read this chapter 😭
Ughh.. that suicide scene make my heart hurt so much 😣
Anyway, Thank you for the chapter! 💕
I also want to know what happened to Ning Qi and what was his reaction upon learning that Deng zhuo.😭💔
Ning Qi fanatic present.👊❤
(；′⌒`) (╥╯^╰╥) ( ＿ ＿)ノ｜ each arc ends so painfully… QAQ
I’ve already hurt myself this much… I’m gonna reread everything again…
Thank you for your hardwork! This arc end with tears too :”)
This is the most emotional arc for me T^T
What happened to Ning Qi?? I’m curiouss~
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No words, only cry
I’m wondering how can this novel have a happy ending… (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)
as sad as it is, I’m completely addicted to this kind of heartache now qwq. xie he’s pot!
Ahhhhh when I saw the arc was done I binged the heck out of this today and now tears are running across my face ah QAQ
Also, was totally expecting Bai Xiaorui would get captured, a little bummed he had less presence than expected. Really wanted the dog blooded father v son fight for MC lol
And Ning Qi!! Omg I wish we can see that poor boy’s reaction hahaha(burst into tears again)
Oooh ancient Chinese arc! Is president Xie now Emperor Xie?! (╯✧∇✧)╯Heck yeah!
This ending made me think of ‘A wave of exes came looking for me. What to do?!’ the way he just disappeared one day and was only seen one other time.
I’ve already thought out how the basic storyline would play out.
Crosses fingers and hopes I’m right.
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The title Your Majesty, this Servant Obeys! And the alternate name, “Gossip: That Scoundrel that Imprisoned Zhen”, “Incapable Ruler! Where are you going?!” Is it just me or do these seem contradictory 😀 Can’t wait for the next arc, it sounds fun.
Thank you for the chapter! I really need to stop self abusing myself lol i cried way too hard each time the arc finished T.T
I know… every single arc makes me cry😭
Ah!! Ow!! What a gory ending!! :_;
Thank you for translating!!
I too want to know what happened to Ning Qi?!
Thank you for the chapter!!😍☺️
crying into my cheerios…
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I delayed reading the chapter directly after I saw the update to prepare myself,
I thought I was now prepared for the rollercoaster of emotions.. I wasn’t (QAQ )Thanks for the chapter~
Had been waiting to binge read this and now I’m in tears
Dear translators/editors, thank you for giving us this wonderful novel. I know it’s unrelated but this novel, especially the sad endings, have helped me bring out my emotions through tears. I’d thought that I couldn’t genuinely cry anymore, but I cried like a baby after reading the novel. Maybe this is a bit of exaggerated but this novel has been almost therapeutic for me. So, could you guys do me a favour though? Please send my heartfelt thanks to the author. This is an earnest request. Love for your whole team! <3 <3 <3
I’ve only ever contacted the author once, when I was asking for permission to translate this novel…and I’m actually quite shy so I’m not very comfortable sending them messages. But I can send some them some items on jjwxc (without a message) which is one way of showing some love.
If you want to send them love, the best way would be to buy the novel. I’ve linked a guide to buying raws for english speakers in the novel page and under my little translator blurb. The novel itself isnt very expensive. I think the whole novel is less than $10 USD.
Thank you for replying. I’ll try to do that ^_^
I actually started tearing up so bad at the end
Lord this was a rideeeee.
tbh xh is so dedicated, he’s willing to feel extreme pain for the sake of the mission and it’s like so ??? is he that bored??? coz tbh he’s not a good person no matter how I look at it
HOWEVER, I wonder if there’s an arc that’s really a challenge to him. despite him making himself go through pain/fever and all, it still feels like it’s too easy on him. I want him to squeeze up ideas and be frustrated! That was be so much fun
Thank you so much for translating and editing! This was good. In the end DJW got it coming
Ahhhh I can’t breath.. Soooo sad!!!.. *breaths in heavily * blows nose…. Uwaaaaaahhhhhh
Kara you have no idea how much I relate to you even after this arc ended ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thank you for the chapters 💕
The oceans have no more water because I cried every drop.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR ALL YOUR HARD WORK!!!
Tão Trágico e Realmente triste cada vez que Xie He Morre em cada arco
Obrigado pelo Capítulo
I can now finally confirm that I am a masochist. I love this really painful arc. I love crying for this wretched father-son duo.
Wth???? Tragedy? What about romance?
JFC, how… beautiful, how magnificently beautiful! Each stab of the heart, each choking pain, each tear that dropped! Every single one, I was viscerally aware of! With the way the author plotted it out, it ended as naturally as it should. 10 stars, my favorite arc. Deng Jingwen, go die you magnificent bastard~
I nearly cried this time, but it’s hard for me to get emotionally invested into a novel where the MC completely acts out the characters and doesn’t get that interested in anyone… Feels so detached QAQ
XH definitely will get attached…but like really, really late into the game. For now, his detachment is my only saving grace. Without XH’s shameless remarks here and there I might break down from angst overload (I am weak).
pats head you will preserve : ) And XH is really a good character, I also like his remarks… lol
This isn’t fair. Xie He is obviously acting, but I still cried. I’m always so sad after each arc, yet I can’t stop reading…Author-san, what have you done to me?😢
I did not expect the gory suicide. And holy macaroni this arc also managed to break me! Why do I suddenly feel sad towards every scum gong ML ahhhhhhh. I’m weak to this type of stimulation ToT XH good job acting your part I don’t know if i should pat you or slap u ne
Wow, that ending was really reflective of how i felt for this arc. How much I love it is how much i hate it 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧
my pillow is a mess.
Thank you for the translation! My insides are mess right now.
ugh this hit me hard and i love it
It’s so sad ! Whyy i don’t think i can bear so much tragedy (ಥ﹏ಥ)
Ning Qi….ahhhhh my heart
I don’t reread much but here I am again hahaha. Instead of scum gong abuse, isn’t this more like emotionally invested reader abuse instead? Guess my eyes would be puffy when the morning comes ( ◜﹏◝ )
I hope Deng Zhuo had grown up happily and lives well with love together with Ning Qi in an alternate universe…This is quite an unforgettable arc. Thanks for translating!
AHHHHHHHHHHH WHYYYY Ahhh this was ewch arc gets more and MORE heartbreaking oh my gosh
Ah, one of these stories finally made me teary eyed
My throat hurt now
I cried so hard that my eyes became puffy
Wait…. I just realised something.. ML always “mysteriously disappears” after each arc. Remember how the system told MC that he’d disappear randomly if he didn’t die? Is is possible the ML is a system transmigrator too???????????
This novel are not just novel.They are art.
But I should sue the author because right now I’m gonna die from crying till my face red.
Who’s crying I’m not crying.. My eyes are just sweating… D*mn this is just so sad.. I dunno what to say anymore, I read this novel for 3 times already but I still can’t stop my self from crying..
The gong abuse for this arc was so beautiful! The pitiful gong at the was so fantastic! I almost got high on the beautiful angst😍😍
Anyway I really wanted to know what happened to Ning Qi. He was the truly pitiful character for me…and I just want to pamper him, dote on him and be his mom. 😙😘
This arc was hellish in all sense… I badly need rest before proceeding to the next arc 😭😭 in just one night this novel left me battered and bruised 🖤🖤🖤
Sankyuu sankyu very very very very very very very very much for the chapter~~~~💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 this novel is just well written and it’s amazing how you’ve conveyed so much through your translation😍😍😍😍😍 I love you so so so so so so so so so much 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
Even just one, I want them to have an happy ending…Xie He why you gotta make me cry like this ToT
+1 yeah what about baby Qi!
Ne, this is the only arc where I’ve shed tears so much.
My nose is stuffy, my eyes are puffy, and my cheeks are wet from tears. I could not hold back the cries and sobbing from reading DZ(XH)’s end, and the brutal scene DJW had to witness. This arc is did not make me feel satisfied or angry. It just made me feel empty and lonesome. When my mom comes home, I will be sure to give her a hug and a kiss.
Same same 😩😩😭😭😭
This ending is sad….ಥ‿ಥ I don’t care if no like ML, but I feel sad for him….😭 Tear wouldn’t stop falling…..
XH know how to abuse people heart…
Author… why isn’t there anything from Ning Qi, QAQ?
Every time I steel myself to read an arc of this, telling myself “it couldn’t have been THAT sad” I end up digging my own grave QAQ
How is every arc so sad?!? It’s so good but so sad, it’s so tiring to cry 😭😭😭 to continue or leave the next arc for another day? 😩😵
Such a gruesome way to die. XH is truly without mercy. Lol
Thank you for the chapter!
Hmm…. it’s a bit strange that the ml always disappear afterward….
This is probably the saddest arc in both the author’s novels. Maybe because it has a connection to family that it broke my heart so much. Sometimes I have to really treasure things that I already have in my life.
Many thanks for the new chapter.
I’ve finished the whole pack of tissue. 😫😫😫Authoorrrrr. Stop torturing meeeee. 😭😭😭😭😭
Ning Qi babeeee! akin ka nalanggg!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 goddamn this chapter. I didnt even cry in the last and last last arc
I know that damn Xie He was only acting but it so sad that i can’t stop my tears😭😭😭😭…why why this is so heartbreaking…
But i cant help myself from wanting to read more😢❤️❤️
This Shou is bursting my brain. 101 ways to die?? How about 3 very awful heart numbing ways so far. That system better be numbing his pain 1000000%
Thank you for the chapter!
Gosh!!! It getting sadder and sadder each arc!! My eyes are swollen now. Gosh thank you for the chapter.
XH DO U RLLY HAVE TO KILL URSELF EVERYTIME ಠ╭╮ಠ AHHH also targets keep on disappearing after he dies,,, except li hongxuan maybe,, i forgot im too much in pain
thanks~
Damn I know that a**hole deserved every piece of pain he is getting, but I still cried uwu
Honestly, I don’t think I can handle Ning Qi’s heart-break as well… One person’s was enough wu wu wu…(╥﹏╥)
This emotion😱😭 Zabrakło mi powietrza, zabrakło mi chusteczek, a córka przez 5 min. stała i tuliła mnie, bym przestała płakać….
I want to ask a question. Is this novel going to make me regret shedding tears like The Perfect Destiny? Please answer as quicly as possible.
I’m not siure what you’re referring to by “regret shedding tears”. But to the end, this novel is angsty. Although it is a very sweet happy ending. I think this is darker than PD though.
I read PD as well, but I definitely would say that I like the MC here way more than the one in PD
Also this novel is HE, same as PD
okay now I have myself competition translator sama even though I am late thanks for translating this masterpiece and i didn’t lose myself waiting for more cruel gong abuse ,
pissed me off, author reallyy have to choke me like this…anyway, go on
Even if I have commented about the kind of twisted “loved” of the characters, I can say this author knows how to convey feelings. This arc was particularly heartbreaking. Let’s change the title of the story, 100 ways to kills ourselves once we have captured the scum gong.
-Cry
-Hate the ML
-Cry-Laugh at ML’s suffering -Cry-Pity the ML-Cry for everything that happened-Bow down to President Xie’s acting skills (and colourful ways to leave the world)-Repeat
I was wondering if I’d have any tears left after this book? 🙂
That was satisfying.
Sad but Deng Jingwen got what he deserved 🤚😭
I crying tf 😭😭😭 fav arc
This one has such a gory end (HOW DID THE MC HANDLE HIS OWN SUICIDE LIKE THAT WITH SUCH LITTLE ANESTHESIA OR PAIN METER) … Felt sad for the dad, he became broken in the end :(( HOW WERE THE SUBORDINATES UNABLE TO DETECT HIM THO AND HOW WAS HE ABLE TO LIVE AFTER VANISHING … More importantly, WHAT HAPPENED TO THE 2ND ML, I WANTED TO SEE HIS ANGST SCENE TOO QWQ
The happy note of the author in the end made my sadness fwoosh away 😂😅 the title for this chap was a good one tho uwu
Just, when the dad finally tried to redeem himself (i choked on that homemade cake of his qwq) (ngh on still needing to control tho and his vinigar pot is still big ah)… Everything goes downhill 😅 (the mc also goes away immediately… Doesnt he feel interested on the ending of his own play?)
Also, instead of going away normally by ze system, we get an mc who dies every time just to exit ah 😅 such dedication ne 👏👏
ಥ╭╮ಥ this is so sad..
Thanks for the chapter💜
THIS ARC IS TOO HARD FOR MY POOR HEART TOO HANDLE
DAMN ONIONS MAKING ME CRY-
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crycrycry why abuse my heart like that
wuwuuwuwu
QAQ this is too much for my stomach 😖😭😢
wuwuwuwuuts so sad i am crazily enjoying this story but so sad i must be sadistic i am so on love with this pain T.T writer dada must be king of angsty stories T.T
I just can’t stop crying. 😩
phew Glad to see my baby Bai again…….I thought everyone had already forgotten about him
I feel like I’m a weirdo for enjoying my aching heart 😬
Time to turn my pillow over. Hopefully the other side has dried up😭😭
Woah that was intense. I signed up just to comment on this haha.
Great story, i love MC (and even tho the gong is scam, pseudo-father-son r3lationship was kind hot>///< )
thank you~~~
I was trying so hard not to cry this whole arc? And then while Prince ali song was playing and reading that part. I cried so hard and rock my head to the song to calm myself. Sigh… Let’s light a thousands candle for the people surrounding MC. Aside that I hate how they didn’t mention NQ after his death. Thanks for translating
F*ck those ninjas
I hate crying! This arc made me cry twice
So Annoying!!😭😭😭
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Omg I cried so much this is so sad!!!
This arc need a need name..let me name it “the craying arc”..and at the beginning of arc must tell reader to prepare tissue and don’t read at public 😭😭😭😭
I’m sad but not to the point of crying, I’m shielded my loves hehehe~
Author is so cruel to me I already cried a lot I can’t stop crying anymore😭😭😭😭
Honestly I felt really complicated right now I’m stock between reading the next arc or not? I’m hopeless! The author is such a bully my eyes and my heart is already hurting so much I can’t stop crying even tho I want to stop aarrgghh author can you stop being a bully?! I haven’t even move on from the last arc and now I have to face the future arc?😭😭😭
For the first time I cried 😢 it is so sad 😞 I am sad for ML this is the third time he lost his lover 😭😭 and there is more 💔💔
OMG every end I just cry and cry and cry.
Also horrifying to see someone kill themselves and be not able to stop it. Omg terrible. Horrifying.
My god that was way too tragic and cruel. I cant imagine the trauma… He not only died a terrible death, but his corpse had been destroyed……
I shouldn’t be sad, so why am I sad? What is this? How come I’ve been crying? Have I not numbed myself enough yet? Xie is abusing our hearts so wretchedly even though he is just pretending. 🙂
The mc ended this arc with his red fleshy fireworks on the ground then leaving me with this arc to cry and cause flood 👏🏻🙂😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
I am licking these Scum gongs tears, very delicious hehe. Also thank god again this isn’t real other wise my heart would break.
This chapter also make me bawled my eyes out 😭😭😭
That death is too cruel QAQ
Why do I feel like Deng Jingwen is/has binding/bound himself to a system so he can chase Xia He through the worlds. (Although I also wonder if one of his tormented gongs didn’t somehow manage to become the system and that’s why the system is being a little cruel to him.) 😁
Sometimes I wonder…..when will we have a happy ending, a happy and bright arc with no angst that can be seen ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ would that time even come? ༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽
Seriously I keep on crying while reading this arc😭😭 their love is too toxic yet beautiful😭😭 gosh. I even post my first comment on this website for the first time, because of this😭🤧. I gonna give the author applause for this masterpiece arc🤧💕💕. She knows how to make the reader off interest in her story.
This arc… I swore I came with dirty mind but what did I get?!?!? TEARS AND PAIN! I’ve been washed and educated thoroughly at the end of this. I need a nap. A long one.
This is so sad. Every arc has a bad ending 😩😭😭
Author is so cruel. Even if I don’t cry much my heart is actually very fragile ok😭
My gosh!! I am already having colds but with this arc, my tears would not stop and so is my snot!!! I already used up a box of tissue lol…
And thank you author-san and translator-san for this gem! I am not yet done reading but I am happy I found this. My heart, my eyes and my nose hurts but so what! I love it!!!
dont tell melania but i cried at the end of this
My tears won’t stop streaming T^T. I don’t know what/how are my emotions now… I’m just confused, hurt, or emotional (?) after reading this chapter. It’s just… (╥╯﹏╰╥)…(╥╯﹏╰╥)…
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I definitely took on some trauma in this chapter. This author is so good at the angst and storyline, gets me every arc…
Just throwing this out there before we leave this arc, but I assume everyone who likes the father son trope does not like it when it goes like THAT. everything was so painful and nothing felt good or was cheerful about literally that whole relationaship…
Wtf… I skipped so much chapter so I won’t cry, but what happened??!
I’m all tears and snot for real 🙁
Stop making me cry. Now, I look so messy. T^T Wait, I need to wash my face before going to the next chapter.
I also want to know about Ning Qi, if he got the news, how is he holding up? Well…..at the end daddy went crazy ba~ I didn’t want him to go crazy, that would mean he’s escaping reality. I want him to be sober, fully sober and to suffer while being so sober. This time Xie he died brutally. It was really brutal but I loved the fact that it all happened in front of daddy hehe~ he personally witnessed everything from the beginning to the end hehe~
Am I the only one hoping that the capture targets end up being the same person and they reunite at the end for real? An overused plot but it gives me comfort…
Hehehehe so beautiful~