Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
10. Rebirth of Despair
Han Wenqian gripped the steering wheel so hard his fingers turned white. He would soon arrive…. He knew where Lin Xin was…he was at that hotel….
He would soon arrive.
However, the moment the hotel was in sight, he noticed that the road was unexpectedly blocked off because of a traffic accident. The ambulance’s red light flashed and there was a crowd of onlookers pointing and chatting.
It looked like there would be no way to get through for the time being. Han Wenqian could not wait until the path cleared so he exited his car to continue through the crowd on foot! He had to see his younger brother! Qin Ye was too dangerous. He had to protect him! He had to take him home!
However, when he passed the scene of the accident, Han Wenqian inadvertently caught a glimpse. This single glimpse made him unable to tear his eyes away.
On the ground was a glaring pool of blood. Officers surrounded the scene. Several paramedics jumped out of the ambulance and rushed over to the victim on the ground.
Through the cracks between the bodies of the people in the crowd, Han Wenqian could see the lower half of the person on the ground…. When Lin Xin had left his office today, he had been wearing that same pair of pants. Han Wenqian recognized it instantly.
Han Wenqian’s body faltered. He must have seen wrongly. It must have been a trick of the light. It couldn’t be….
He was about to take Lin Xin home and then properly protect him and take care of him. He wanted to take him home, safe and sound…he didn’t want to see such a scene….
He must have seen wrongly!
Han Wenqian’s face turned deathly white. He pushed through the crowd with no regard for his image and forced his way over!
Finally, the person on the ground was in full view.
Han Wenqian looked at the young man on the ground. His body was twisted from the impact of the crash and his blood stained the ground. His eyes were tightly shut and there was no movement coming from him. It was like he was dead….
At this moment, it was like something had exploded in his brain. He could not hear the words around him or see the surrounding people. I came to take you home, ah…why…couldn’t you wait for me just a little longer…?
Why couldn’t you wait for me a little longer?
Han Wenqian staggered over but abruptly realized he couldn’t get any closer. He turned his head, stupefied, only to realize that he was being restrained by two officers. They looked stern as their lips opened and closed, as if they were saying something to him.
Han Wenqian stared at them blankly. “What are you saying?”
The two officers exchanged glances. They thought, was he deaf? They had shouted at him for a long time, warned him countless times, but ended up having no choice but to come stop him when they saw him barging through the tape. Now, this man was asking them what they were saying. The problem was, they didn’t know sign language!
One of the officers pondered over it and then pulled out his own ID card to show Han Wenqian. “This. ID card. Can you let me see it?”
Han Wenqian stared at them. A moment later, some clarity returned to his unfocused eyes.
He shouldn’t be like this…he had to pull himself together. His brother needed him. Han Wenqian calmed down slowly. He spoke in an orderly, clear fashion. “I can hear you. My emotions were in too much of a mess just now. This is my ID card. The victim is my younger brother….
“I came to take him home. I didn’t think anything would happen to him. I…” Han Wenqian choked. He shut his eyes and said, “Let me go over there. I want to go to the hospital with him.”
The officers finally relaxed. They could understand Han Wenqian’s lapse of control. They checked Han Wenqian’s ID card and then handed it back to him. It was good that he was a family member. This way, they didn’t have to go looking.
“OK,” The officer said. After thinking it over, he advised, “He hasn’t died yet. Don’t be impulsive.”
We’re sorry for MTLers or people who like using reading mode, but our translations keep getting stolen by aggregators so we’re going to bring back the copy protection. If you need to MTL please retype the gibberish parts.
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Han Wenqian stood outside the operating room. Others persuaded him to sit but he wouldn’t.
When Qin Ye rushed over, the surgery had already been ongoing for several hours and had yet to end. When he thought about Xie He, who he didn’t know would live or die, regret emerged in his heart for the first time.
It was his fault Xie He had gotten into an accident. It was because he had not kept a proper eye on him…. What if Xie He died?
When Qin Ye heard this, his heart thumped. An inexplicable fear and panic enveloped him. He had only met with the other a few times but why couldn’t he let go of him? Did he really only want to use him?
【Ding, Qin Ye’s Favourability Value +5. The current Favourability Value is 75.】
Qin Ye collected his thoughts. He found Han Wenqian, who was standing outside the operating room and staring at it, with one glance. When he recalled all that this person had done, ice emerged in Qin Ye’s eyes. He couldn’t help but speak in a mocking tone, “Isn’t this President Han? You’ve already successfully kicked Lin Xin out of your family. Did you come to personally watch him kick the bucket?”
Han Wenqian slowly turned his head when he heard these words. His eyes became bloodshot as his gaze found Qin Ye.
It was this person. In his last life, he had stooped to using any and every tactic to take revenge on the Han Family. He had even dragged the innocent Lin Xin underwater. He had framed him, forced him, made Han Wenqian mistakenly accuse Lin Xin…. In the end, it was he who had gradually led Han Wenqian into making an irreversible mistake.
In this life too, this person had…tried to do the same.
He should have killed him at the start! He should have thrown all caution to the wind and just killed this man! If he had killed him, none of this would have happened!
There was an intense murderous intent in Han Wenqian’s eyes. He suddenly turned around and threw a punch at Qin Ye without warning!
Qin Ye didn’t think that Han Wenqian would suddenly attack him. His hatred towards the Han Family was also very real so he began to fight back! The two of them threw punch after punch at each other, holding nothing back. It was an extremely desperate fight!
After some time, Han Wenqian finally managed to press Qin Ye to the ground. His lips had been split open and his form-fitting suit was a mess. His hair fell over his forehead in disarray. His sharp black eyes were dark, full of both hatred and madness. He landed a punch against Qin Ye’s face, causing the other’s head to snap to the side!
He was going to kill him today! So that no one would ever come between him and his brother again! He was going to kill him!
Qin Ye’s fist landed heavily. Qin Ye’s vision went dark and he nearly fell unconscious. He stared into Han Wenqian’s eyes and suddenly realized that this person was really planning on killing him. He had gone mad, as if he were willing to risk it all to take Qin Ye down with him!
Han Wenqian’s fist was about to pummel down on him again. Qin Ye’s pupils constricted. Being this close to death made him feel fear for the first time!
Luckily, the hospital security guards had rushed over in time. One of them wrapped his arms around Han Wenqian’s waist and pulled him backwards. Another pulled Han Wenqian’s arm back! Han Wenqian’s fists cracked from how hard he was clenching it. A beastly snarl ripped out from his lips. “Let go of me!”
The security guards didn’t dare let go of Han Wenqian. They held him tighter!
Qin Ye took the chance to escape. He sucked in a deep breath and spat out a mouthful of blood…. He watched as Han Wenqian was subdued and took in the bone-deep hatred in Han Wenqian’s eyes. Confusion arose in his mind.
Why was Han Wenqian so angry?
Qin Ye had long since known that Han Wenqian had been the one attacking him. He thought that Han Wenqian had found out about his plans against the Han Family. This wasn’t out of the ordinary. Therefore, he had launched his counterattack shortly after.
Han Wenqian had followed after him closely. He acted calmly and steadily the whole time. He didn’t seem to plan on killing him outright.
The Han Family had been clean for many years. There were things that could not be easily done again…. However, Han Wenqian seemed really keen on killing him today. If he killed him in the hospital in public today, nothing good would come out of it. With Han Wenqian’s temperament, how could he do such an impulsive thing that didn’t benefit him?
What had made this callous man, who never showed his anger, to become so irrational?
Qin Ye suddenly thought of Xie He, who was inside the operating room.
But that was too preposterous…. Xie He had been hurt by Han Wenqian. Wasn’t it too ridiculous for Han Wenqian to act like a good big brother now?
Qin Ye’s expression changed, and his lips pulled into a strange, cold smile. He regarded Han Wenqian and said, “What are you so angry for? It’s not like I was the one to cause his accident.”
Han Wenqian was still struggling, trying to throw off the security guards’ hold. His eyes were thoroughly bloodshot.
Qin Ye fixed his eyes onto Han Wenqian, not missing a single change in the other’s expression. He continued, “It’s you who hurt him, ah…. It was because his withdrawal symptoms acted up that he ended up hit by a car. It’s you who caused his addiction. It’s you who expelled him from the Han Family. You’d be happy if he died, wouldn’t you?”
Every single one of Qin Ye’s words fell into Han Wenqian’s ears. They were like soul-sucking curses. Suddenly, Han Wenqian stopped moving.
Han Wenqian shook slightly. All of a sudden, all the strength in his body drained out of him.
Was that so…was that so…?
It was true. Qin Ye was right. It was he who had hurt him. If Xie He died, then that would mean that Han Wenqian caused the death of the person he loved the most.
In this life, he would have personally caused his death….
When the security guards saw that Han Wenqian had finally stopped struggling, they released him. Han Wenqian indeed didn’t do anything. He didn’t pounce on Qin Ye again. Instead, he slowly dragged his feet back towards the operating room.
Everything around him felt as if they existed in another world, apart from him. He didn’t pay any attention to anything else.
He caressed the door to the operating room, eyes vacant. It was as if he were a walking corpse.
Qin Ye didn’t continue to provoke Han Wenqian. He was led away by another doctor to treat his wounds.
Although Han Wenqian acted very abnormally, at least it was certain that he really cared about Xie He. Yet, if he really cared about him, why did he treat him like that in the past? Qin Ye couldn’t understand this no matter how he thought about it. It couldn’t be that he had guessed wrongly and it actually hadn’t been Han Wenqian who did it?
If that was the case, he could not use Xie He again. Moreover, the Han Family’s influence was enormous around these parts. He would likely be prohibited from seeing Xie He again.
Qin Ye’s eyes darkened.
………………………………
Han Wenqian stood in front of the operating room for several hours non-stop. Finally, the light of the operating sign turned off and Han Wenqian’s heart caught in his throat. In his nearly thirty years alive, he had never felt as afraid as he did now.
He was afraid that he was going to be told news he didn’t want to hear.
Very soon, the doctor came out. The doctor knew what had happened as soon as he caught sight of Han Wenqian. They had seen many deaths and understood very well how the family members who stood guard outside felt. He said at once, “We were able to save him. He hasn’t died. But he hasn’t woken up yet.”
Han Wenqian slowly said, “Thank you.”
The doctor nodded. “It’s my job. Go see him.”
Han Wenqian walked in with a stiff gait. His gaze fell on the young man lying on the bed. The young man had tubes inserted in him and was lying there with eyes tightly shut. There were bandages wrapped all around his body. He looked so weak….
Another doctor saw Han Wenqian walk in and said, “Are you family? Let me tell you his situation. His injuries are very severe. He broke three ribs and all the bones in his hands were shattered. He also suffers from internal bleeding as well as….”
The doctor talked for a while. In the end, he ended with, “Although we saved his life, we don’t know when he will wake up. Even if he wakes up, full recovery will take a long time. As for his hands…I’m afraid they will never recover fully.”
Han Wenqian’s tall frame felt weak at that moment. His lips trembled but he could not speak.
At this moment, Mother and Father Han were informed and they rushed over.
When Han Chengshan saw Xie He lying on the bed, his body grew weak. There was disbelief and grief in his eyes. However, he was still calmer than Han Wenqian. He talked with the doctors and then helped get Xie He the best hospital room and nurses.
He then said to Han Wenqian in a low voice, “Come with me.”
Han Wenqian looked like he had lost his soul. He followed Han Chengshan to the corridor outside.
Although Han Chengshan had stopped meddling many years ago, his influence was still there. After getting news of Xie He’s accident, he very quickly found out about everything that had happened before it. He had also found out what Han Wenqian had done. He looked at Han Wenqian with great disappointment. He said, “Why did you do it?”
Han Wenqian’s face was pale, all colour drained from it. There was anguish and panic in his eyes. He couldn’t speak.
Han Chengshan stared at him and said, “You knew of his identity and wanted to strike first and gain the advantage. You wanted to get rid of him and the threat he posed to you, didn’t you?”
Han Wenqian shook his head in a daze. That wasn’t it, that wasn’t it….
Han Chengshan didn’t believe him. His tone grew more stern. There was pain in his voice. “I had thought that you genuinely cared for him all this time. That’s why I didn’t stick my hand into your affairs. But you, ah! You actually hurt Xiao Xin! He always thought of you as a big brother he could trust! You—”
Han Chengshan suddenly raised his hand and slapped Han Wenqian. When he spoke, he sounded like he had aged many years in the span of a moment. “How can I face my friend when I die?”
Han Wenqian’s head had snapped to the side upon being hit. His gaze fell to the floor. He was in a daze. He couldn’t think.
At that moment, Mother Han suddenly cried out, “Chengshan, Chengshan! Don’t get angry! Doctor, where’s the doctor?!”
Han Wenqian lifted his head and saw that Han Chengshan had fallen onto the floor, a hand over his chest. He looked to be in pain. It was obvious that he was having a heart attack. This scene was the exact same as what he had witnessed in his last life. It was just that…this time, the person who caused his father to have a heart attack from anger was him.
Han Wenqian carried Han Chengshan to the emergency room. Because they were already in the hospital, he was saved. Han Chengshan’s life was not in danger.
Mother Han supported Han Chengshan to the hospital bed, eyes red from crying. She glanced at Han Wenqian, disappointment filling her eyes. She then turned her head away without uttering a word, not taking another glance at Han Wenqian.
Han Wenqian slowly walked out.
He lifted his hands and stared at them blankly. Suddenly, tears hit his palms…. These hands were filthy, stained by blood. He had just fought with Qin Ye and nearly killed him.
But…the person he most wanted to kill was actually himself. The person he hated the most was actually himself.
He was completely submerged in an endless coldness.
He thought that he could right his regrets after being reborn. But why…was he in more pain and in more despair?
The author has something to say:
I was going to take the day off today because I was feeling unwell but after thinking it over, I still crawled out of bed and rubbed my hands together. Don’t mind it for being a little short today…. _(:зゝ∠)_ The next chapter will continue with the abuse and will be very angsty….
sere: gaH angstyyy also plz plz just realize this is a story, don’t actually blame others for your own mistakes….
Thank you so much for the chapter!!
Finally payback- yay (ㆁωㆁ*)/ ~
Last arc I found the abuse lacking, I’m gland that already started so niceeee
Nothing can excuse the scum gong-
Hehe 🙃
Agreed. Lat arc they got off lightly. Was a nice reprieve tho th. Prepared us for this.
Aaaahh ….I know he deserved it but the roof won’t stop leaking..grrrrbites blanket in frustration
Oh god the angst is just as much as the abuse😟 but that’s actually the reason we’re reading this no? 😶
Thanks so much translator and editor🙏
Finally Gong Abuse already started…. I’m bit cry reading this chapter.. (crying for Lin Xin of course, not for scum gong) ..Can’t wait for more gong abuse in the next chapter.. Thank you for the chapter..
OMG!! Cry pa more!!!
Hurts so good!!
╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯ thank u so much for the update omggggg I love the gong abuse!!! Moreeeeeee!!!
I was enjoying the start of the scum abuse, then a single cell in my brain whispered to me: “Wow you now are just like Han Wenquian”
And I had to close my eyes and contemplate myself for a moment.
Hehehe despair more asshle. I’m so mad damnit. This made me miss than one story where the gong was reborn but even tho he knrw he’ll be betrayed, he was still clear headed and knew not to take it on the current person and investigate everything before acting. *Ughh forgot the title tho wuwuwu
Hmm~ The closest MC that has been reborn but didn’t look for revenge that I knew is from “Rebirth of Movie Star” , but if you remember the name of this good literature, please enlighten me.
Rebirth of a Movie Star is so good!! Easily my #1 top finished danmei
I predicted that ML’s father will have a heart attack.
Yes, finally that sweet sweet gong abuse! HWQ must suffer~ so~ much~ Thanks for the chapter^^
So angsty!!☺
Thanks for the chapter!!👍👍👍
Oooh, nice! Please suffer some more while you’re at it, Han Wenqian. On another note, what would our precious pianist Lin Xin do without his handsㅠㅅㅠ
Thanks for the chap!
thanks for the chapter
by the way this updates everyday right or am i wrong?
Yes, this novel updates daily 🙂
thank you for the chapter! I hope the han mom and dad don’t die, they were the most innocent (besides lin xi, but we all know he’ll die :’))
lol I just realized Im a sadist- I found myself enjoying the suffering of the TL and the comment section more than I do (currently) with the scum abuse. The scum abuse isn’t enough for me, need something more something stronger, something that would leave me in tears.
I want to curse at Han Wenqian but he’s kind of pitiful here…
Okay, am I the only one who finds the family finding out and being hella disappointed and heartbroken and furious literally the best part of the abuse ever? Really hoping that they’ll be part of the abuse and try protect our baby from the scum hurting him more hahaha ah, ah but even though it feels good why am I crying QVQ
I really don’t understand how this scum gong thinks, obviously the one doing the actual ruining of the family in last is Qin Ye, but I don’t see him torturing Qin Ye even a miniscule of what Lin Xin went through…and even if he regret it until he die, the damage has been done Lin Xin will never walk the path he should’ve went through
More abuse please 🍽️
There a cause and effect! Ah, what to do with life after you messed up? I should asked Pres. Xie for his advice. Wonder what kind of advice will he give me?
Thanks for the chapter!
*looks at author’s note
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*proceeds to scream on the pillow
for me, angst only sets in before dog abuse, afterwards, I can only revel in vengeance 😌 and the moment has finally arrived ahhhh, this arc feels especially long and torturous
Wow, the gong abuse is indeed very satisfying but it’s far from being enough. Wanna see some more angst, hopefully there’s going to be more in the next chapter! Hehehe~ (人´∀｀)｡ﾟ+
Xie He is so powerful, ne. 🙂
I should congratulate myself, I don’t feel anything at all. Is this character development? Jk
When I read that Han Weqian was in more pain and despair than in his previous life… I smiled 🙂
+1
I was hold on a sec Bitch ‘why didn’t you wait for me?’ WAIT FOR WHAT SO YOU CAN SCREW HIM OVER AGAIN? THE DAMN NERVE.🤬
kEEP ABUSING HIM NONE STOP, CHOKE HIM , MAKING HIM A DRUG ADDICT, LET HIM GET R*PED
🤬
Author be making ML win every fight, dear author please stop this favorite and let that Han bastard be beaten the crap into 😒. Ngl, Han name kinda remind me of hans from frozen, are all Hans generally evil? 🤔