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Nurturing the Hero to Avoid DeathCh15.1 - The Hero’s Long Absence (Last Part)


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Translator: mii TW7eI6

Editor: sleepchaser

The second Sunday of spring break has arrived.

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Alfred should return soon.

Since he said that he’d come back two weeks, he should arrive at the church today or tomorrow.


But the Sunday passes and there’s still no sight of Alfred.

Maybe… he’ll be back tomorrow.

Monday soon rolls by.

It’s been raining since the morning. QzAYwX

The kids can’t go outside, so they play in the church’s large dining room. They make paper planes using the sheets of documents I no longer have a use for, trying their best to fly them around the room.

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Like how I taught them, the children made several types of paper airplanes.

Smiles on their faces, they seem to be having a lot of fun.

But Alfred still has yet to return. PzlXdI


There are only five days left on spring break.

Because it’s sunny outside, I take a trip to the southwestern part of the village to inspect and sketch the area.

I think I’ll quickly go home today. tV4i0z

According to Loendal, it may rain in the evening.

And as he predicts, clouds quickly stretch through the skies a few hours past noon. So I decide to call it a day.

On my way home, I make a detour to the church. Just to check on something.

I still see no sight of Alfred. SdjPeE

“I wondered what happened,” Marie says while tilting her head. “Maybe he’ll come back tomorrow. I’m sure he’s late because he’s helping out in the ranch.” She smiles.

Is that the case?


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I return to the carriage. Sitting in the driver’s seat, Shurio furrows his brow as he looks to my direction. “Young master, are you alright…? You look like you’re very tired…” lPntaX

“Really? I’m fine, though. I’m alright…”

When I step on the ramp to the carriage, my foot slips.

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I try to stand, but Shurio stops me.

“Shurio?” mQ Pkt

“…Young master. Let’s take a little rest at the church, okay? Young master will feel more relieved there…. right?”


“Yes. Young master is currently worrying about someone, right?”

Shurio beams at me, and judging from his face he understands my concerns.. 1wora7

What do you mean, worrying about someone? How do you expect me to respond to that? And why are you grinning!?

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“I don’t really… feel that way…”

“I will inform the guards, so just take a rest,” says Shurio. “I will also stay here. Please call me if you need anything.”

“Yeah. I think that’ll be the best course of action, Lian-sama,” said Marie, her face the picture of worry. She cups my cheek with her thin, small hand. Since when did she get here? rkiAaY

“Ahh, your face is so pale… Do you want to drink some warm tea? I’ll prepare delicious tea for you. That’s right, are you hungry?”

I shake my head.

I really don’t need anything, my appetite nonexistent.

In fact, I feel a bit nauseous. Yvmoq

Even after taking medicine, I don’t feel any better.

Some nights, I have trouble falling asleep. And even if I do, it’s a light kind of sleep, the kind where I’ll wake up soon after. Once awake, I can’t fall asleep for awhile.

The day after my run with insomnia, I’ll feel like something bad is going to happen.

I’ve no idea what causes this. y Fz6v

Usually, after enduring this unpleasant feeling for two to three days, it’ll pass.

This time, however, is different. The duration of the feeling stretches on.

Smiling, Marie pats my back. “…It’s okay. Alfred will surely come back tomorrow.”

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Really? KRbeya

Back then, the nurse also said that. ‘It’s okay. He’ll get better soon, and then both of you can go home.’ Then she smiled.

But in the end, my grandfather never returned home.

Spring, a season where many gentle lies roll by like a breeze.

Because people lie to me, I also lie to others to maintain that false reality. IUuoyd

That’s why I hate lying.

Too many lies spill from my mouth. Little by little, I lose track of the truth.

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I can’t help but to perceive what everyone tells me as a lie.

I’m sure words spoken without any grounds, words like Marie’s, form a lie too. a0WXhK

All to hide the truth.

For some reason, Marie and Shurio keep pushing me inside without waiting for my response, so I decide to give in. Take a short rest at the church.

I’m not in the mood to eat anything in particular, so I tell Marie I’ll be taking a nap. Marie offers me Alfred’s room. I thank her, quickly heading to his room.

I can’t help but laugh a little as I enter his room. pLbojh

It’s empty as usual.

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Can’t he store at least a few books here? If it’s just books, he should be able to afford some with his part-time job, right?

Ahh… But books are heavy.

He probably thinks that once he leaves this place, he’ll struggle with carrying them as luggage. yld3NQ

That’s why he refrains from buying any…

I’m in a lazy sort of mood, so I sit down on a chair facing the window. Stare outside. It’s pitch black beyond the windowpane.

I can hear the sound of the rain. Neither loud nor soft.

At last, it finally begins to rain just as Loendal predicts. dY6i1M

Now that I think about it, the day my grandfather died, it also rained.

It happened during the morning, his face peaceful as though he were still sleeping.

Why does bad news always arrive in the morning?

Both my grandfather and Sanda died during the morning. 9zAYvk

I’m sure that that bad news will also…

I quickly smother the ember of fear in my heart.

He promised he’d return.

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He promised it’d turn out fine.. BilY8F

I turn off the lamp on the desk and remove my jacket. After draping it over a chair, I lie down on the bed.

The bedsheet smells of sundust.

My head feels dizzy.

Maybe, everyone’s right. Maybe I really am tired. l3J4VG

Perhaps I’ve been working too hard these days. Still, I don’t think that’s it either. I’ve done things as usual.

But somehow I feel that my head is not working like it’s supposed to.

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When I try to think, there are a thick fog in my mind.

After a while, I feel drowsy. I shut my eyes. 4ZH8KO

Although I don’t feel sad, tears flow out of the corners of my eyes. I can’t get them to stop, rubbing at my eyes repeatedly.

“…Why are you crying?”

The familiar voice causes me to swiftly open my eyes.

Since when did he arrive? yR4PGm

Alfred stands in the middle of the room, staring straight at me.

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I can’t feel his presence.

I haven’t heard any footsteps either.

Or anything else. 0k2Rae

Neither my breathing nor the rain.

Ahh… I get it.

Maybe, I’m just seeing things. Maybe this is a… dream.

In the past, I had a similar sort of dream. 7Vgzoq

My grandfather stood before me, the red from his cheeks illustrating his good health. He smiled at me, telling me he had to go first. To not follow him but rather live a peaceful life. Then, he left the room.

Is Alfred like my grandfather… Did he also pass away?

Did he also leave me behind?

“…No…” d3ER6o


“No… Please, don’t leave me behind. I don’t want to be left behind anymore. I-I will also… go follow you, so…”

As I reach out toward him, he approaches me. I manage to lift my heavy body, and I grab on Alfred’s shirt desperately.

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“Bring me along. Please don’t… leave me alone…” jpaUzi

A strange expression slides across Alfred’s face. Even so, he sits down next to me and wraps my body in a tight embrace.

“I’ll go. I’ll go…together with Alfred. Bring me along. I don’t want to be left behind anymore… I… don’t want to be alone…”

I no longer care about my appearance.

Even though I’m already an adult, I cling to him desperately, crying like a child. f4Lms1

Because, if I release my hold on him now, he will definitely leave me.


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Lian… Let this onee-chan hug you too… TwT He bottled up his feelings too much already! Alfred will have to comfort him a lot now!! (´・с_・`) 28wFfY

Apparently, Yomogino-sensei (the author of NHAD) is going to start a new story! She said that the story will taste like royal milk tea, so I’m wondering what kind of story will it be~ //miiisprayingforittobeanotherfluff

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  1. Baby Lian, don’t cry.😢
    Aah, this is gonna mark Alfred never leaving Lian alone after this. It’s a historical moment!🤣😂
    Thank you for the update ❤️😉❤️😆

    • This is so sad my god. My urge to protecc little lian has increased, poor bby i wanna hug

      Thanks for the chapter!

      • We have to protecc our Lian at all cost!!! Alfred, I don’t want to see this kind of scene again in the future! If this happens again, you will feel my wrath!!! I will make all of your speech ends with “-nyan”!! (‘・ω・’) //staresatAlfredwithmylaserbeam

        Thank you for reading, Smol-san💕

    • I don’t think our Lian was being too dependent on Alfred actually, he just hates the idea of losing his important person again^^ Alfred went to a trip in spring (which Lian have trauma with) and no guarantee that he will come back, plus the whole thing with old Pierre might impacted him more than it showed, since Lian isn’t the best narrator after all…

      But of course it’s just my opinion ahaha, thank you for reading, Vannie-san~ (≧∇≦)b

  2. MY HEART!!! my nose is crying… (my nose cries before my eyes) my poor baby liANNNNN!!!! Gosh but now Alfred won’t leave him… please be happy together 😭😭💗 Thank you Mii-san!!

    • Alfred, go stick with our little Lian now!!! Embrace him!!! And yes, please be happy together! Alfred, if you dare hurt Lian, I swear I will- //stopmii

      You’re welcome, Yuki-san! And thank you for reading!! 🌟💕💕

    • This made me laugh for some reason! 🤣🤣 Our Lian had really sold himself just like that www

      I’m not complaining though? 😎👀💕

      Thank you for reading, XanXan-san~ (*^^)v

  3. Aw.. Lian was scared to lose someone again. I think Alfred would find it odd since the real Lian has a family.

    Thank you for the chapter!

    • Hmmm…if you think about it, Lian’s family are not very loving or close. Not that they are mean or anything, They just all have their things and never spend time with Lian except meals. The only one who seems to try and spend time is the creepy bro-con.

      As for his friends and admirers, they all seem to either like him for his looks or power. Only Marie and the orphans seem to like him for him. So even if this were the real Lian, I could see how he could be lonely even surrounded by people.

      • What’s important is not the quantity, but the quality after all! Even someone with a lot of friends around them might feel lonely, yet someone with only one best friend will feel blessed their whole life!💕

        I kind of pity the ‘original’ Lian now, maybe he bullies Alfred because he is jealous of Alfred who didn’t have any family anymore, yet still receive love from Marie and the kids from the church? (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥`)

    • Maybe now Alfred will start to suspect Lian… as not Lian? If that really happens I will forever become Yomogino-sensei’s devoter! (≧∇≦)b

      Thank you for reading, Jwel-san!!(•ө•)♡

    • Protect the little Angel-chan from this cold world!! They can make me sad, but they can’t hurt my Lian!! 😂💕💕

  4. My poor baby Liannnnn!!! That’s it, from this moment forward I shall adopt this smol child and watch as he grows up! Alfred better not hurt my precious boi any more than thissss!

    Thanks for the chapter, keep up the good work!

    • Feed Lian with cookies and hot milk everyday! Warp him up in a warm blanket! And lock him up with Alfred! //no

      If Alfred hurt my little Lian again… Hmph, see what I will do! (#・∀・)>

  5. I feel a tickle in my fudanshi self. The next chapter feels ampf~!!

    • So your radar already detected the incoming overwhelming fluff!! Make sure to brush your teeth after reading, secret-fudanshi-san!! (≧∇≦)b

    • Hahahahahahaha I can’t even…. How do you respond to that? X’D

  6. I’m sad for Lian but glad Alfred got to witness this. Now neither of them need to be alone.

    Thanks for the great translation ♥️

    • They don’t have to feel lonely anymore since they have each other now!! 👀💕💕

      Thank you for reading, Kleep-san!!!ʕ•̀ω•́ʔ✧

  7. Hopefully Lian can now OOC and be the sweet and caring person he is with Alfred~
    Thank you for translating mii and thank you for editing sleepchaser!

    • I want to see Lian’s dere side more!! Author-sama, I believe in your power, drown us with more fluff!! (/∇\)。o○♡

      You’re welcome, shwut-san! And thank you for reading too!💕🌟

  8. ;~; Lian is really very pitiful… He bottles things up too much!! I’m so sad….. Alfred, comfort him carefully, okay? I need some gentle fluff to heal this hurt!!

    • Surely his husband is going to comfort our Lian, JM-san!!! And the fluff won’t be gentle, it will overwhelm us and kill us in a K.O! (≧∇≦)b

  9. i feel bad.
    i have not yet experienced a loss so tragic like Lian with his grandfather but
    I could also not bear to be left alone.
    i wonder what delayed Alfred’s arrival?
    nonetheless, he should give Lian a nice big hug until his tears have gone.

    • Losing an important person in our life is surely a tragic experience for anyone^^ We have to cherish them when they are still here with us, milly-san!

      I wonder what…? Not spoiling~ ^3^ //actuallymiidoesn’tknowtoo

  10. Awww, Lian…. If you cling onto Alfred so strongly, then how is he supposed to leave you when the demons or whatever attack the village in the future?

    I wonder if part of the reason Lian’s acting so strangely is because he’s ill. It could be because he over-used his magic or has just been pushing himself too hard, but it’d be interesting if there were a more serious cause behind it all.

    • He doesn’t have to leave our Lian though? If something bad happens at the demon attack then Alfred better do something about it! (。>﹏<。)

      Maybe we will know the reason at the futute chapters? I hope Alfred will ask Lian about his strange behaviour… ( ;∀;)

  11. Aw man! The roller coaster of emotions. Thank goodness Alfred is back to hug him and chase away the darkness!

  12. Royal Milk Tea you say? I’m interested xD And omg Lian is just so precious! Alfred will surely treasure and pamper him huh? ❤❤❤

  13. Wuwuwu my poor baby Lian (π∆π)

    This made me cry, I could really feel Lian’s loneliness (。•́︿•̀。)

    The next part better be full of fluff, come on Alfred I know you won’t dissapoint us!!! (ง •̀ω•́)ง✧

    Time to pet and pamper our little cat~!

    Thanks for the chapter~ (¯ ³¯)♡

  14. 😭😭😭😭😭 LIAAAAAAAAAAN!!! ~(つˆДˆ)つ。☆ Have hugs, cuddles and head pats!! 📣Alfred! Get! To! Work!!📣 🧹 I can’t find a whip to crack so whack ass with broom instead! Alfred is good boi though so will be sticky to his side now. Thank you for the chapter ❤️ joins Mii-san praying for fluff ,🙏🙏🙏 … Although currently having more feels than fluff … Praying for soothing fluff in second half 🙏

    • Xass-san’s comments are always so funny to read! 😂🤣 We got to whip Alfred with that broom!!! Go stick with our cute Lian!!💕 The soothing fluff will last till the end of chapter!

  15. Thank you for translating this beautiful fluffy, heartbreaking amazing story!!!!

  16. Nuuuuu Lian don’t be sad~

    The angst has been delivered, now I summon the fluff!! °^°

    Commencing ritual

    (.づ◡﹏◡)づ. (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

    ლ(・﹏・ლ) ⊂(・▽・⊂)

    (✪‿✪)ノ (ノ^o^)ノ ح˚௰˚づ

    ☆=(ゝω・)/ (∩^o^)⊃━☆゚.*・。

    And voila!

    (I did not go crazy on the emoticons I have no idea what you’re talking about hahahaHahHahHahHahaHAHAHA)

    P.s. thx for the chapter (=ↀωↀ=)

    • //proceedtostealalloftheemojis //quietlydisappearstothedarkness (=ↀωↀ=)

      Thank you for reading and commencing the cute ritual too, Falling of this Cliff-san! Now I’ll sprinkle some of my black magic to make it come true!

      ✺(^▽^✺) ✺(^O^)✺ (✺^▽^)✺ Huwooooo!!!

      P.S: Press the ‘Next’ button to see the result!