Chen Dong Lan was born in the winter. His parents divorced in the spring of the following year.
He followed his mother. When he had just learned to say “Mama”, his mother remarried and had a child with her new husband without stopping to rest.
His mother and stepfather loved him very much, and each of them knew there was real affection behind it. But there were always some things in the world that couldn’t be changed——his mom just loved his younger brother a little more. She would scold him because he always made her angry and even cry. But towards Chen Dong Lan, she seemed to only have the topic of living expenses to talk about.
Whether Chen Dong Lan cried or didn’t care, it wouldn’t change anything.
So, Chen Dong Lan grew up to be an inarticulate child.
Using inarticulate to describe him could be considered generous. Chen Dong Lan always walked with his head bowed and ignored anyone talking to him for a long time. Even if he didn’t ignore them, he wouldn’t chat, making the situation become awkward for his male classmates, who would scold him in their hearts and then turn their backs on him.
Besides that, he was very tall but was always hunched. When he was called by the teacher to answer a question in class, he would always shrink. Even if it was a simple question that could be easily answered, he would stutter and blush, unable to answer, as if the young female teacher, who was only as tall as his shoulder, would eat him up.
During the second year of junior high, classmate Yuan Yuan moved beside him and sat at the same table.
At the time, Yuan Yuan was the boys’ most popular male student, as boys liked to befriend the cheerful and bold and those who could also carry them on the basketball court and in games.
Moreover, his grades were good, and they could borrow his homework to copy from time to time. He was also tall, powerful, sunny and handsome, so being with Yuan Yuan meant that they could approach girls.
Yuan Yuan didn’t change his seat because of Chen Dong Lan. It was for a good friend who was seated across the walkway.
Chen Dong Lan was silent so Yuan Yuan paid no attention to him. Since there were never any exceptional situations, Yuan Yuan also felt that Chen Dong Lan was very uninteresting, so he didn’t make any effort to understand his interests.
In this way, Yuan Yuan and his good friends made a racket beside Chen Dong Lan for a semester.
After that, Chen Dong Lan had to move.
“After a long discussion with your uncle, we’ve decided to stick with our decision to send Xiao De to a private foreign language junior high. This way, it’ll be easier to send him abroad in a few years. Dong Lan, it’ll be further from your school this way, but we need to trouble you for the sake of your younger brother. If you would like to rent a place near school, it’s not a problem. I’ll hire someone to look after you.”
Mom said this to Chen Dong Lan.
She and Uncle had already been worrying about his younger brother’s schooling for a long time. Since they had a lot of worries, Chen Dong Lan did not dare to add to them. So he got up for school two hours earlier. In the evening, he would do some homework on the metro. It would already be dark before he got home.
On the first day he took the metro, he met Yuan Yuan.
The station where Yuan Yuan boarded was a peak station. The crowd surged, and everyone was squashed into meat pies. It was a little late, and Yuan Yuan was so anxious that he was perspiring. He lifted his head and saw Chen Dong Lan. As if seeing a saviour, he shouted, “Hey, give me a pull!”
Chen Dong Lan hesitated for a few seconds, maybe more. The brief signal sounded, and Yuan Yuan was left outside the carriage.
He lifted his head in astonishment while Yuan Yuan looked at him with wide eyes. The metro train pulled away with a whoosh.
In the end, Yuan Yuan was late.
“I wasn’t wrong. You’re my classmate!” After the first lesson, Yuan Yuan rejected the invite to play basketball and sat in his seat to condemn Chen Dong Lan. “Why didn’t you give me a hand? In fact, if you had said earlier that you weren’t going to pull me, I would have put all my effort. But I was afraid you were going to pull me, so I waited.”
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Chen Dong Lan repeated what he had said.
“That wasn’t thoughtful of me…” Yuan Yuan scratched his head and laughed. “But your tone was so weak, I thought that you were crying. That wouldn’t be good. I haven’t made any of my classmates cry since I graduated from elementary school.”
Chen Dong Lan straightened his neck stiffly. “Next time, I will pull you.”
Yuan Yuan snapped his fingers, and his smile widened. “Then let me thank you first.” With that, he ran outside to play basketball. Although there wasn’t much time left, he probably felt that it was good even if he could just touch the basketball twice.
Having promised to give him a pull, that night, Chen Dong Lan practised the scenario of pulling him onto the train. However, for the rest of the semester, Chen Dong Lan never met Yuan Yuan on the metro again.
Maybe they boarded adjacent scheduled trains, or maybe they were in different carriages, or maybe they were just a few people apart, nevertheless, they never met.
In their third year, Yuan Yuan was the speaker at the opening ceremony of the first school sports meet. Among the thousands of similar students on the sports field, Chen Dong Lan was the most insignificant one. He bent his head and observed the grass beneath his shoes, counting them blade by blade.
“Hello, everyone. I’m Yuan Yuan, a third-year from Class Three. It’s a great honour to be able to address you here today.” Yuan Yuan stood upright, with a microphone in one hand and a manuscript in the other. There was a relaxed smile on his face, his voice natural and at ease.
In a glance, Chen Dong Lan had forgotten what he had counted.
“This spring, when the grass is tall and birds are in the air, we usher in the school’s sports meet on campus. In line with the ultimate goal of physical fitness, the school…”
Yuan Yuan spoke quite fast, but it was clear and his pauses were just right, making such a dull official speech particularly pleasing.
This was the reason Chen Dong Lan, who was fascinated by it, found for himself.
Chen Dong Lan had an event in the sports meet, and that was the high jump. Although his physical fitness was average and his achievements were not ideal, people with long legs could not avoid being registered for this event by the sports committee.
The venues for the field and running events were different, but sometimes they were held concurrently.
While Chen Dong Lan was lining up, the gunshot sounded and the four hundred metre race began.
Yuan Yuan, wearing dark blue sportswear, broke into a run in the leading position. His hair was very short, but because he ran too fast, it seemed like the short hair was being pulled by the wind.
That day, Yuan Yuan got second place in the four hundred metre preliminary race and broke the school record.
That day, although his results were dismal, Chen Dong Lan jumped the best that he ever had done in his life.
After his last jump, knowing that he couldn’t possibly place, Chen Dong Lan took off his number to leave, only to find that among the crowd watching the competition, Yuan Yuan was looking at him with a smile.
Their gazes met by chance, and so Yuan Yuan raised his hand in greeting.
Chen Dong Lan was nervous and didn’t know how to respond. It took a while before he nodded like a rusty robot. Immediately, thinking that Yuan Yuan’s good friend must have had also participated in the high jump competition, he turned to leave in another direction.
However, without even walking two steps away, Yuan Yuan jogged over to get closer. “Where are you going? I greeted you.”
Chen Dong Lan stopped and said in embarrassment, “I…I thought you came to see another student competing, so I wanted to leave first.”
Yuan Yuan was puzzled. “Can’t I also watch you when I come to watch other students? No, you’ve made me confused. Since we met, can’t we watch together?”
Chen Dong Lan bent his head and thought that what he said was reasonable. His ears heated up, feeling embarrassed. “No, I was afraid that I’ll disturb you and your friends.”
“What are you saying? We’re all classmates.”
As Yuan Yuan said in his speech, it was a good day, with tall grass and birds in the air. Yuan Yuan had just stepped off the running track, wearing a thin jacket with a hand in his pocket. It seemed like the power of his dash had not faded.
That day, they went from unfamiliar classmates to being friends. Although they were still unfamiliar, Chen Dong Lan had recollected this scene for a long time.
In the third year, the schoolwork load became heavy. Chen Dong Lan had been inarticulate for a long time and knew that he wasn’t very clever, so he spent more time on his studies. He would even study on the metro before and after school.
As a result, he fell asleep carelessly while studying.
The person who woke him was Yuan Yuan, whom he thought would never take the same metro train as him.
“We’re reaching the station.” Someone patted his shoulder.
Chen Dong Lan frowned and opened his eyes, meeting Yuan Yuan’s twinkling eyes.
Although he wasn’t good at looking at people in the eye, he didn’t know why but always felt that Yuan Yuan’s eyes were particularly bright. He tore away his gaze and checked the upcoming station. It was two stations away from school.
Observing Chen Dong Lan’s line of sight, Yuan Yuan laughed. “I was afraid you would be difficult to wake.”
Although his face didn’t change, Chen Dong Lan’s heart itched. He never was difficult to wake. Since he started elementary school, he had been waking up on time every day not to cause any trouble to his mother and uncle.
“I wouldn’t…Thank you.” Chen Dong Lan went to touch the book on his knee but came up empty.
“I helped you to pick it up.” Yuan Yuan raised his hand and handed him the Chinese book. “Memorizing poems so early in the morning? No wonder you’re sleepy.”
“I…” Chen Dong Lan didn’t know how to reply. After some thought, he said, “The problem is not with the poems.” Although it was partially due to the poems, the root cause was that he had gotten up too early.
“Basically, the problem is with studying.” Saying that, Yuan Yuan yawned.
Chen Dong Lan didn’t know how to reply again.
Fortunately, Yuan Yuan was good at chatting. “Isn’t it strange to bump into me? I’ve haven’t taken this line for some time.”
Chen Dong Lan felt that he should ask. “…why?”
Yuan Yuan yawned again. “Previously, my parents went on a business trip so I had to stay at my aunt’s house temporarily. My god, it was really far. Every day, my aunt wanted to beat me and my uncle up, urging us to eat like she was fighting a war, then urging my uncle to drive me to school. Not even a month had passed, and my uncle was so haggard that he became thinner than my aunt.”
Chen Dong Lan wanted to laugh, but he held it in.
Yuan Yuan was puzzled. “So was it funny or not?”
Chen Dong Lan shook his head. “Funny…no, it was your description that was funny.”
Yuan Yuan said helplessly, “If you want to laugh, then just laugh.”
Chen Dong Lan hesitated, then said, “…I was afraid you would think that I was mocking your family.”
“Pfff——” Yuan Yuan was amused. “Don’t be so serious! Why are you always so afraid? There’s nothing to be afraid of, Chen Dong Lan.”
Chen Dong Lan stared blankly.
He had hit the target.
In his heart, the itch that had existed since the beginning became so intense that he couldn’t help tightening his fists and hiding them behind him.
The third year went by very quickly. During this time, Yuan Yuan reduced his frequency of playing basketball between classes, which made Chen Dong Lan feel like they had gotten closer.
Although this was only the feeling of a single party.
The two of them met regularly on the metro on the way to school, but most of the time, they only had a short chat. Although Chen Dong Lang had the intention to speak to him, every time he would hesitate, thinking questions like “what should I say” and “what will he be interested in talking about”, then the opportunity would be lost.
In any case, even if Chen Dong Lan had the perfect topic to discuss with him, he wouldn’t dare to ask if Yuan Yuan wasn’t the first to speak.
For such matters, if he didn’t dare the first time, it would be increasingly difficult to do in the future.
Every “good topic” was repeatedly analysed in his mind until finally thrown aside like a crumpled paper ball.
Logically, the two of them should be taking the same scheduled metro train home. But every night, Yuan Yuan played an hour of basketball with friends, even longer when the weather was good.
As for Chen Dong Lan, who reached home two hours later than his brother, he didn’t want his family to wait for him for dinner, so he ate at the canteen before heading home. He would already be home late and couldn’t delay any longer, in case his mother and uncle got worried.
He imagined walking with Yuan Yuan out of the classroom, out of school, into the metro station and then waving goodbye in the metro train.
But it had always been just an imagination.
After graduating from junior high, they got into the same high school but were assigned to different classes.
When introducing himself, Chen Dong Lan spoke in public for the first time, but with his back straight and without blushing, a thundering heartbeat or stammering.
He remembered what Yuan Yuan told him——”Speak louder and raise your head a little.”
And, “There’s nothing to be afraid of, Chen Dong Lan.”
Aww~ it’s interesting, how you can be a life changer for someone and be totally unaware of it, like Yuan Yuan was for Chen Dong Lan. Thanks for the chapter 🙂
Reading that last part… Damn, I feel proud QwQ
Thanks for the chapter! 🙂
Bruh…. I can’t tell this will be a reaaaaaaaally long road for them! Chen Dong Lan is just too cute!!!!
(ノTДT)ノ ┫:･’.::･┻┻:･’.::･ CDL why are you like this, always putting others before yourself! I’m just glad YY made him feel a bit more confident in himself
Chen Dong Lan is so precious, I want to adopt him ლ(・﹏・ლ)
Thanks for the update ❤️
I’ve been opening and closing this story ToC from morning.
I’m glad it’s a sweet chapter.
Yuan Yuan’s Bubbly personality saved someone and he isn’t even aware. Chen Dong Lan wanting to change is so inspiring and beautiful. But I’m sad. His family didn’t treat him well.
Thanks for the chapter!
Dude, CDL’s family treats him terribly. I feel so bad for him. Providing and house and food isn’t “good enough” as a parent, that’s the absolute bare minimum and it’s still like a D grade. He needs someone to care about him for once please.
Thanks for the chapter! 😊
Oh my gosh, my pure-hearted CDL!! I want to hug you so much!
Why is a classmate that CDL barely talked with helped him to grow confidence than his family ever did? He wasn’t technically abused but being neglected like that is just so heartbreaking. I hope he will get all the love that he deserves from Yuan Yuan.
Thank you for the translation
💜
To think that, YY’s treatment of CDL wasn’t even special. CDL just happened to be grazed by YY’s attention just like any normal classmate, but for the lonely Chen Dong Lan, those moments were the most precious. Kinda…bittersweet.
now i feel proud for some reason!!! thank u for the chapter~
YY has always been CDL’s guiding light
Wait how did Yuan Yuan break the school record if he placed second????
That’s why I appreciate all those people who took the initiative to talk to me 😭 If not, I’d still be that silent girl.
This chapter has broken my heart. Chen Dong Lan was so neglected. Yuan Yuan was the only bright spot in his life. It’s no wonder he reacted the way he did when YY wanted him to move out. Ouch my heart and my feelings.
I have to comment on ” Every “good topic” was repeatedly analysed in his mind until finally thrown aside like a crumpled paper ball.” I totally know what that is – this the perfect description of it. I had to pause and re-read it. So perfectly said.
Thank you for the translation. It has been spot on, and so fluent. 😉
This is what called, “Something insignificant to you, maybe the most precious for others”
Awwwhh:(((( Thank you for the chapter!
this chapter wwas so heartbreaking, yet so sweet at the same time
They still loved him? Bullshit. Neglect is still abuse you bastards
As a socially inept person I really feel for him. I’m fortunate enough to have a good family and some friends but it still sucks to feel alone