At the place illuminated by the light, there was a girl wearing a tight black skirt, permed hair, and wearing quite seductive makeup, in the corner with her back pressed tight against the wall. In front of her were a few little hooligans pestering her.
Under the light, Fang Yu saw her face clearly and practically didn’t dare to believe it.
Fang Yu stood up and walked over. He twisted a hooligan’s hand that was reaching to touch the girl. That hooligan started to scream.
“Yu Ge, this is your sweetheart? A misunderstanding! A misunderstanding!” The little hooligans saw Fang Yu, and none of them were angry. They all hurriedly put on a smile.
“Scram!”
Fang Yu shooed them away and looked Lin Shanshan up and down in disbelief.
Lin Shanshan had changed too much! She was wearing heavy makeup and pulling on her short skirt awkwardly, wanting to pull it down a little.
Fang Yu pulled Lin Shanshan out of Turbulent Times.
“…What are you doing here? You… what’s going on?”
Fang Yu looked at how Lin Shanshan was dressed. Did Lin Shanshan look even a little like her original young lady appearance?
Lin Shanshan looked at Fang Yu, holding all of her grievances.
“I’ve thought about it. You said last time that we’re not the same kinds of people, so you can’t accept me. Then I’ll learn to be the same kind of person as you. I’ve dyed my hair and pierced my ears, and I have tattoos.”
Lin Shanshan showed Fang Yu her snow-white shoulder. There was a butterfly on the shoulder. Under the light, it seemed so out of place.
“I’m learning to play billiards, play video games, and I come to dance at Turbulent Times. I can learn,” Lin Shanshan said.
“…”
Fang Yu looked at her, shocked and speechless.
“…You’re messing around!”
Fang Yu had never thought that Lin Shanshan would actually do things to this extent for him.
“Go back home. This isn’t a place for you to come. Don’t come back again!”
“Why? If you can come, then I can come!”
“Shanshan, I’ve told you before. It’s really impossible between us! Don’t do stupid things anymore, okay?”
Seeing this good girl become like this because of him, Fang Yu felt bad in his heart.
It was raining lightly outside. Rain fell on Lin Shanshan’s thin body, but she didn’t move.
“I’ll call a car to take you back.”
Fang Yu wanted to wave down a taxi for Lin Shanshan.
“Am I that annoying?”
Lin Shanshan was crying. She had already done everything that she could. What else could she do?
“You don’t understand who I am at all!”
In the rain, Fang Yu was upset.
“I understand! Do you know how I came to like you?” Lin Shanshan said as she cried. “When you and Yang Lei were fighting on Matai Street, I saw it. At that time, you grabbed Yang Lei and told him to stop fighting. At that time, I knew you were different from other gangsters!”
Li San had said before, that a big gangster like Fang Yu had a temperament that really attracted young ladies, because young ladies would yearn for real men and would be attracted by men in a completely different world from their social circles. Lin Shanshan was also like this. When she first saw Fang Yu at Matai Street, she fell in love with him. That may have just been an illusion of love in her imagination, but for this illusion, she was willing to give up her entire youth.
“Not the same?” Fang Yu pointed across the street. “See those people across the street?”
Across the street, several people who looked like hooligans were teasing a beggar.
The beggar had begged a whole day for money, and trembled as he clutched his money bag.
Fang Yu picked up an empty beer bottle next to him on the ground. With a “pa,” he shattered it on the steps.
Before Lin Shanshan could realize what he wanted to do, Fang Yu had already walked over, carrying half a sharp beer bottle. Once those hooligans raised their heads, before they could react, the beer bottle had already been smashed on someone’s head. Fragments flew in all directions, and his head and face were covered with blood. Fang Yu didn’t even blink as the passerby screamed and dodged.
The hooligans were all shocked. They all recognized Fang Yu. No one knew why they were beaten, but no one dared to utter a word.
Fang Yu casually threw away the shards, which were smashed until only the bottleneck remained, onto the ground.
“Did you see?”
Fang Yu turned around and asked Lin Shanshan. Lin Shanshan was already stunned and motionless.
“Do you still say that I’m different now?”
Someone else’s blood was still spattered on Fang Yu’s hand. He asked calmly, his face expressionless.
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Lin Shanshan left. She quietly sat in the taxi, crying as she left.
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Fang Yu returned to his own home. He hadn’t been back for many days. He cleaned up the house. After he finished cleaning up the house, it was already late at night. It was raining heavily outside. Fang Yu stood at the balcony on the eighth floor. Rain came in, wetting his face and wetting his muddled mood.
Fang Yu plugged in his tape recorder and pressed the button to play the tape. Inside, there was still the song that he was listening to when he left. Zhang Xueyou was using Cantonese to lovingly sing “Love You a Little More Each Day”…
When everything around me is like the wind, you let me find the roots
I’m not willing to leave, only willing to keep low. Feelings will never wither
And every day that passes, every day, this drunkard
Will love you more and even more, until it overflows
I’ve realized that I most love the late nights of composing tomorrow with you
And every day that passes, every day, this drunkard
Will love you more and even more, until it overflows
I most love you and I being together in this lifetime, even if tomorrow’s winds are strong and roads are inclined…
Not long after Fang Yu finished showering and had just laid down, there was an insistent and loud knock on the door.
The knocking was very impatient, very loud, very forceful. The entire corridor could hear it.
“Who is it?”
Fang Yu got up and asked.
“Me!”
An impatient voice with anger…
Fang Yu paused for a moment and went to open the door.
Yang Lei stood at the entrance and raised his head.
He didn’t move at all. His chest rose and fell…
Yang Lei only lightly touched Fang Mei’s lips for a moment and let her go.
He didn’t want to hurt Fang Mei, but he also didn’t want to leave her with fantasies.
Between Fang Mei and Yang Lei, it started with a kiss, and it would end with a kiss.
After seeing her back, Yang Lei returned to the small building, uneasily waiting for Fang Yu. His agitated mood gradually calmed down, but he again sank into the anxiety of waiting.
Yang Lei wanted to find Fang Yu. He thought that if Fang Yu wasn’t at Guangyang singing, then he had gone somewhere to drink, or it was very likely he went to Bright Billiards Room to play billiards.
Just as he was planning to go search at these places, Aunt Zhang came up from downstairs and told him that Fang Yu had called back and said that he wouldn’t come back to stay tonight. He asked her to tell him.
Yang Lei was shocked.
“Not coming back? Then where is he going?”
“He didn’t say.”
“He didn’t ask me to answer the phone?”
“He didn’t.”
Yang Lei picked up the phone and called Fang Yu’s house. No one answered.
Fang Yu had called Aunt Zhang from the public phone outside of Turbulent Times. He still hadn’t gotten home then.
Yang Lei put down the phone and wanted to leave the house, but just at that time, Chuan-zi called him. Yang Lei wasn’t in the mood to listen to Chuan-zi’s rambling. He kept calm and perfunctorily responded a few times, then said, “I’m looking for Fang Yu. Let’s talk later,” and prepared to hang up. However, Chuan-zi said: “Fang Yu? I saw him with Lao Liang at Turbulent Times. We even said hello.”
Chuan-zi was also hanging out at Turbulent Times that night and even went over to chat a bit with Fang Yu and Lao Liang before leaving.
“Turbulent Times?”
Yang Lei had the phone number to Turbulent Times and called over to ask. Fang Yu oversaw Turbulent Times, so there, they naturally knew when Fang Yu came and went. The Turbulent Times manager said that Yu Ge had already left, but Liang Ge was still there.
“Tell Lao Liang to pick up the phone!”
Yang Lei wanted to ask him where Fang Yu had gone.
“Hello?” Lao Liang’s voice was loud. He was still in Turbulent Times rocking and rolling.
“I’m Yang Lei! Where’s Fang Yu?” Yang Lei asked immediately.
“Da Ge left! He left pulling Lin Shanshan!” Lao Liang spoke honestly.
“…Lin Shanshan?”
Yang Lei was shocked.
“Where did they go?”
“How do I know? They left and didn’t come back!” Lao Liang’s tone was teasing. He laughed without good intentions, “Lei-zi, you don’t need to find my Da Ge. A short moment of a spring night is worth a thousand gold pieces! If you need something, find him tomorrow!”
Lao Liang hung up the phone.
Yang Lei held the phone and didn’t move for a long time.
Yang Lei called Fang Yu’s house again. It rang until the call was cut off, but no one answered.
Actually, at that time, Fang Yu still hadn’t arrived home, but Yang Lei didn’t think this way. Yang Lei thought that since Fang Yu had specifically told Aunt Zhang that he wouldn’t come back that night, and he also didn’t tell him to pick up the phone, then Fang Yu was intentionally avoiding him. He wouldn’t let him find him.
Naturally, Fang Yu also wouldn’t go back home.
Fang Yu didn’t return home and took Lin Shanshan with him. Where was Fang Yu going to go, and what was he going to do?
Yang Lei was a mess. Completely a mess.
He knew that Fang Yu didn’t feel that way about Lin Shanshan, but could the things in this world be said accurately?
He didn’t like Fang Mei, but when he was young and impulsive, he kissed Fang Mei. Fang Yu didn’t like Lin Shanshan, but Fang Yu was also a vigorous man. All men had impulses. That impulse could have nothing to do with feelings. He was alone with a beautiful girl late at night. Moreover, that was a girl who wholeheartedly adored him.
Yang Lei didn’t know how he got through the more than one hour. He sat in a taxi and went all over Jianghai City, like a headless fly, not knowing where he should go!
That was until Yang Lei returned to Fang Yu’s place. From a distance, he saw Fang Yu’s light on the eighth floor. He jumped out of the taxi and ran there, but that light went out again before his eyes.
Yang Lei rushed up to the eighth floor in one breath. He forcefully beat on Fang Yu’s door. The heavy and urgent sounds that the door let out were like the turbulent tide in his heart right now.
Fang Yu opened the door. Their eyes met.
“…Why are you here?”
Yang Lei didn’t answer anything. He pushed Fang Yu aside and entered the house.
Fang Yu closed the door. Without knowing why, Fang Yu wasn’t surprised about Yang Lei’s arrival. He seemed to have felt that Yang Lei would come find him. Fang Yu was also unable to explain this feeling.
The two of them stood in the middle of the room, looking at each other.
“Where did you go tonight?”
After a while, Yang Lei asked, his voice low, as he stared at Fang Yu.
“Didn’t go anywhere,” Fang Yu said.
“Where’s Lin Shanshan?”
Yang Lei’s tone was like ice.
“She left.”
Fang Yu didn’t know how Yang Lei knew that Lin Shanshan had seen him.
“Left from here?”
Yang Lei’s voice was still ice cold.
“…What do you mean?” Fang Yu had endured Yang Lei’s tone for a long time. “Could I bring her here??”
“Can you stop encouraging her?”
Yang Lei yelled these words.
The word “encourage” wasn’t a good word in Jianghai dialect. It meant that you clearly didn’t have feelings for someone else, but deliberately and actively encouraged people who had good feelings towards you, intentionally causing them to have hope and to chase you.
Hearing Yang Lei say this, how could Fang Yu feel good?
“How did I encourage her?”
Fang Yu was also angry.
“You didn’t encourage her? You didn’t encourage her, but you brought her to Turbulent Times? You just want to find a sweetheart, don’t you??”
Yang Lei exploded.
For this matter with Lin Shanshan, he had long been holding back his anger. His anger wasn’t only directed at Lin Shanshan, but more towards all of the women around Fang Yu, the women right now and the women in the future. There wasn’t only one Lin Shanshan by Fang Yu’s side. Were the girls revolving around Fang Yu few in number? Yang Lei could block one Lin Shanshan, but could he block all of the women? Could he block Fang Yu’s heart? Could he block Fang Yu’s future wife?
Hearing Lao Liang say that Fang Yu and Lin Shanshan went out, Yang Lei’s mood at that moment was as if his entire body had been immersed in acidic water. He was sour, swollen, and cold from head to toe. He couldn’t even speak the feeling in his heart aloud!
With Yang Lei’s burst of anger, Fang Yu’s heart was also a mess!
“So what if I’m looking for a sweetheart? Is it wrong? Can’t I??”
Fang Yu straightened his neck, staring at Yang Lei as he asked back. His mind was also in chaos. Why couldn’t he find a sweetheart? If he really wanted to find a sweetheart, did he have to wait until now??
“You can’t!!”
Yang Lei screamed these two words. These two words seemed to be smashed onto the ground!
Fang Yu was stunned. He was stunned for a second, and screamed back.
“I can’t? Can I stop you from dating Fang Mei?!”
“There’s nothing between Fang Mei and me!”
Yang Lei’s eyes were bright red. He didn’t know why Fang Yu had to bring up Fang Mei for no reason at this time! What did Fang Mei have to do with the two of them??
“Nothing at all? If there’s nothing at all, you would kiss her just now??”
Fang Yu blurted out!
“…”
Yang Lei suddenly stopped talking.
He looked at Fang Yu blankly.
He knew now Fang Yu had returned. Fang Yu had seen his and Fang Mei’s goodbye kiss. Fang Yu had misunderstood, so Fang Yu left. So Fang Yu wasn’t willing to come back at night. So Fang Yu didn’t want to see him.
“…”
Fang Yu also stopped talking.
He didn’t know why he had to blurt that sentence out. He also didn’t know why he had to avoid Yang Lei’s gaze that looked straight at him after Yang Lei heard this sentence.
“She’s going back to England,” Yang Lei said slowly.
“She asked me to give her a goodbye memory,” Yang Lei said, looking at Fang Yu.
“There was never anything between her and me. The one I like is not her. It’s someone else.”
Yang Lei walked towards Fang Yu. He walked up in front of Fang Yu. He fiercely grasped Fang Yu’s nape and pulled him towards himself.
“You care that I kissed her? …Why do you care?”
Yang Lei looked at Fang Yu’s eyes and asked.
Fang Yu didn’t answer.
…He also asked himself in his heart!!
“Why do we do that thing?” Yang Lei asked Fang Yu quietly, looking at Fang Yu’s eyes that were very close.
“That isn’t ‘playing.’ It never was,” Yang Lei said.
That wasn’t playing. That was his love, his heart, the source of all his troubles and happiness, his yearning, longing, and possession. If that were playing, he wouldn’t be so miserable, so dejected, and so hesitant right now. He once resolved not to ruin him. Even today, he was still telling himself, Don’t harm him! But right now, he couldn’t hold back. He couldn’t helplessly watch him become someone else’s some day. He was his. He could only belong to him, no matter if it was his person or his whole life!
“…You know, right? …I also know!”
They both knew that it wasn’t playing. That was making love. Because there was love, so they would do it!
“…”
Fang Yu turned his gaze away. He was struggling, conflicted, and upset!
“Fang Yu!”
Yang Lei couldn’t help but shout. His voice came out from the depths of his throat.
“Let’s both stop lying to ourselves!!”
He hugged Fang Yu hard and kissed him on the lips…
Yang Lei tightly hugged Fang Yu and kissed him. Those were lips that he had kissed so many times in his dreams, but it had never been so real and hot and made him tremble like this. They were so hot that they nearly made him melt! He forcefully squeezed his tongue in, tightly entangled Fang Yu, intertwining, licking, and pushing. That was the taste he had longed for in his dreams. He didn’t know how many nights in his dreams he had hugged Fang Yu and kissed him enthusiastically like this. Every time he woke up from his dreams, he tried hard to recall the taste in those dreams and recall the taste of Fang Yu’s lips, but it was all blank.
Now, it finally was no longer blank. He finally tasted that flavor. That was alive, hot, and crazy, making all of Yang Lei’s cells swell, tremble, and making every one of his nerves lose control. He tightly encircled Fang Yu’s body, greedily chasing Fang Yu’s tongue. He fiercely sucked him and entangled with him like he had gone crazy, until Fang Yu used force in his hand to push him away.
“…Yang Lei!”
Fang Yu let out a shout of pain and suppression!
“I like you!”
Pushed away, Yang Lei leaned against the wall and shouted the words buried deepest in his heart, looking at Fang Yu’s shocked expression.
“I fucking… am about to go crazy for you!”
He was crazy. He had long been crazy! Yang Lei grabbed his hair tightly. At that moment, he even thought that he would cry…
HOLY SHIT!!!
SCREAMING 😀
Both of them are so helpless, I can’t even imagine how they are feeling…
But at least Yang Lei confessed T^T
Thank you so so much for the chapter!!!
Thank you for the chapter
Ahh I am also about to go crazy…
Now to wait another week…
Oh but I just noticed we are not even half way yet so I assume Fang Yu will push him away next week again 😭
ohh crap dont make me lose future hope for life..
Oh gosh! These two are helpless but at the same time it makes sense since it was in the 80’s…
How much more angst before a HE?
Thanks for the chapter <3
Gosh, these two.
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AHHHHH This was so darn good! I felt all of this; the suffocation, the build up until he finally couldn’t take it any longer. Amazing