101.
I dragged my sick and weak body to pick up my sister and brother and go eat junk food.
They both had a lot of restraint. My little brother ordered a coke, and then my little sister immediately told him, “If you want coca-cola then go and buy it at the supermarket, it’s much cheaper that way. Big bro, I’m on a diet and brought some floral tea, do you want some?”
Tell me, where would you go to find such a wonderful little sister?
But even so, it’s quite okay to eat some junk food to satisfy our desires every once in a while. “It’s okay, order some. I got a bonus at work.”
How heart-wrenching, what era is this? That we’d only be able to afford to eat this stuff if I got a bonus, even dramas or soap operas don’t have such plot points anymore. But even more pitiful was the fact that I hadn’t even actually gotten a bonus.
My little brother looked to my little sister. My little sister said, “If we go to the place next door to eat we’ll save more.”
The three of us turned around and went next door to eat fried dumplings.
102.
As I watched my little brother fork some of his fried dumplings into my little sister’s bowl, and my little sister pour floral tea for me, I felt very gratified. After much consideration, I said, “Grandpa’s come back. He wants to see you, so let’s go back to the main house this weekend.”
My little sister warily said, “I’m not leaving the country, if someone has to go then take Yisen.”
My little brother wasn’t happy at that. “How could you just suddenly sell me off like that?”
My little sister skillfully and with great familiarity smoothed his feathers. “I know that you won’t go by yourself, that’s why I said it like that. You just continue eating now.”
103.
I told my little sister, “Going overseas is pretty good too.”
My little sister replied, “Then you come too.”
Well, I’d sure like to go, if I go then my sickness might get better, or at the very least I could get farther away from my enemies. But it also doesn’t cancel out the possibility that I could make new enemies in foreign countries. Some other countries don’t have the death penalty, so won’t their criminals be even more wild?
And the thing was that my grandfather also doesn’t want to support me financially. He doesn’t even want to see me, he just wants to break the bond between me and my little sister and little brother. I don’t know what exactly he’s thinking either. Hopefully, he’ll take account of the fact that we have that bit of blood connecting us and won’t send people to assassinate me. I won’t hope for any more than that.
I patiently and sincerely persuaded them.
“I can often go see you. And you know that being with grandpa would be better than staying with me.”
My little sister said, “No, he doesn’t seem like a good person.”
I warily asked, “What’s wrong with him?”
“Well, nothing much, he just looks like he’s stingy.”
I breathed a sigh of relief.
Actually it was okay, my grandfather wasn’t stingy. He was very generous towards my little brother and sister, it’s just that he ignored those he didn’t like, for example, my older brother and me.
104.
The discussion ended with no result. Nowadays little kids all make up their own decisions, they don’t listen to me at all. And well, it’s not like I can force her. As for my little brother, he listens to me, but he listens to his sister more. They’re dragon phoenix twins after all so they can’t help it. I’m a bit envious.
105.
I brought them with me to the main house. Grandfather would arrive tomorrow. They went to their rooms to do homework, and I stayed in the living room awkwardly sitting with my older brother. Well, it was mostly me sitting in awkwardness, he was busy with replying to messages.
When he finished replying to his messages he raised his head to look at me. He furrowed his brows, as was his habit, and asked, “What is it?”
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“Rb, cbatlcu. Aera rlaalcu.”
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106.
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“Don’t let them get brought up badly by you.”
I thought so too.
“They’re just two little kids, if you don’t want them anymore then they can only go with grandpa. You’ve known this method from the start, but you just pretend you don’t.”
I know, but I’ll continue pretending that I don’t know.
Because I don’t want to become the type of adult that forces children to make this kind of decision.
My older brother said, hitting the bullseye, “Fake kindness. You know how to do right by them, but just don’t want to be the villain.”
He was right.
107.
But being right doesn’t mean that I would listen. I’ll sincerely reflect and won’t change or regret my decisions even if I die.
108.
I was opening all types of locks in my room.
Before I moved out I had already started showing symptoms of going crazy. Inside my bedroom I installed all types of locks, bought lots of boxes with locks, and locked up everything that I couldn’t bring with me and everything I was too lazy to take with me into those boxes.
I clearly knew that my big brother wasn’t the sort of person that would randomly come in here and rummage through my things. He wouldn’t come in here and rummage around even if he did have something to do here, and he wouldn’t want to harm me either, what’s more, this neighbourhood doesn’t even have any history of thieves breaking in.
But the voice in my head kept on brainwashing me: What if though? But what if? But what if? But what if everyone just suddenly all went mad?
109.
I went and found the photo album from my school days which had Xue Yaozu’s middle school photo. To tell the truth, no matter how I look at that photo, no matter how I turn the photo around in any direction, I still can’t see a lick of resemblance to how he looks now. That face in the photo was way too abstract, to the point that it looked as if it had been censored by being blurred and pixelated.
After flipping through my phone for forever and a day I finally found a number that seemed like it could be Xue Yaozu’s phone number. When I called it, the number was a null number.
Haaa, what am I thinking.
110.
At night, while I was preparing to sleep I started to feel panicked. I forgot to bring the security camera with me. What’s more, at this time of night there wouldn’t be a place open where I could buy one.
Although recently Xue Yaozu won’t let me use the security cameras and monitors no matter what, but that was because I was thinking whatever, if I die then I die, in a mindset where my brain was filled with H and rated R things. But right now he’s not here.
This is a very serious problem.
I started getting afraid that I would sleepwalk at night. There is a saying that what you think about during the day will come up in your dreams at night. What if I get up in the middle of the night and use my phone to message someone and admit that I committed some crime that I didn’t actually do or that I have some gigantic debt that I don’t actually owe?
These things can all be evidence!
That’s why I need the security camera to tell me that I stayed in bed like a log all night and didn’t get up.
Otherwise I’ll be super anxious and troubled.
111.
While I was under the covers, I started facetiming Xue Yaozu. Unexpectedly, he was wearing glasses while reading.
I asked him about that, because wasn’t his nearsightedness surgically corrected?
He replied, “It wasn’t entirely. Successfully. Corrected. But, it doesn’t. Affect my daily life.”
I think even if he was blind it wouldn’t affect his daily life
He laughed. “Pervert.”
Who the hell was being a pervert! What exactly runs through his head all day?!
Since he was a part of my subconscious, to some extent, perhaps unconsciously I truly was really perverted.
I then asked what books he read, and he said he just randomly read stuff.
I hemmed and hawed for a while, then finally said that I was afraid because I didn’t bring the security camera.
“Then. Put. Y-your phone with. Y-your. Sister. Tell her to. Hide it.”
He’s so smart! My subconscious is also so smart!
Just as I was going to do as he suggested, my little sister opened my door, came in and climbed onto the bed. In her arms was her pillow. She asked me, “Who are you facetimeing?”
I immediately ended the call and replied, “Nothing, I was just watching some funny videos. What is it?”
“I want to sleep here with you.”
I very seriously lectured her and told her that it was not okay.
“It’s okay, Yisen’s going to come down in a bit. He’s helping me move my blanket. You two will sleep together, and I’ll have my own blanket. And anyways, I’m only in elementary school.”
The problem was that she didn’t feel like an elementary schooler to me.
112.
Taking advantage of the time my little sister and little brother were getting their blankets ready, I hurriedly messaged Xue Yaozu. I wrote that I was going to keep my little brother and sister company, and sleep. He replied ‘okay’ and added a kissy emoji.
I’m such a bad guy. I don’t want to sleep with my little sister and little brother, I want to fall asleep with Xue Yaozu.
113.
I don’t know how to explain it to my little brother and little sister either, so I just said that I was afraid that I would play with my phone and be unable to sleep. Then I turned off my phone and gave it to them to hide it away.
My little sister ordered my little brother to go hide my phone, then asked me, “Recently, have you started seeing anyone?”
Me: “…….”
My little sister said, in a very mature way, “If you think they’re okay, then bring them over so we can see what they’re like.”
How old is she exactly?!
She continued, “If you aren’t dating anyone then go find someone to date. You’re already at this age, if you’re alone that’d be too boring right.”
Are the current elementary students all like my sister now?
114.
I think my little sister has something on her mind. She’s talking about this as a pretence, a decoy to cover up her own worries.
My little brother finished hiding my phone and came back. I first dispatched him to go and bring back two bottles of water then asked my little sister, “Do you have anything else you wanted to talk to me about?”
She solemnly nodded, took a deep breath then asked me a very serious question: who was the handsomest between this guy or that guy or another guy from a certain popular boy band?
Me: “…….”
I asked, “Are you sure that’s what you want to ask?”
She said, “Yeah.”
I don’t know if this question is easy or if it’s an easy to lose your life question.
Out of caution, I first asked who she liked.
She replied, “You answer first. Don’t try and copy my answer.”
Your big brother is trying hard to live, why do you have to ask these types of difficult questions?
“Your big brother and little brother are the most handsome.”
“No, you have to choose one of them.”
My little brother came back with water and unhappily said, “They’re all ugly.”
Truly, my little brother was the perfect definition of the saying that the talented are self-confident and the ignorant are fearless, as well as the saying that the young are fearless.
My little sister ignored him and urged me, “Hurry up.”
I firmly said, “They’re all pretty handsome.”
My little sister wasn’t happy with that.
I secretly looked at my little brother and he unwillingly held up a few fingers. So I chose that one.
My little sister was super satisfied and kissed me on the cheek with a loud smack. “I think so too!”
“I won’t let him into our house” was written all over my little brother’s face.
I never would have thought that these two would fight and have dissent among them because of a man.
115.
The both of them fell asleep really quickly.
I looked at them for a while.
They’re both still so young, I can’t abandon them, and I can’t hold them back either.
I have to get better.
116.
The next day when I woke up and got my phone, I sent a text message to Xue Yaozu explaining the situation.
He replied: I have a friend who can get tickets to the event, tell her to study hard so that we can take her to see it during the break.
117.
I don’t think my little brother would let Xue Yaozu inside our house either anymore.
118.
Good thing Xue Yaozu doesn’t exist.
Rinrin: The two little Ren twins❤️
The twins are so adorable ahhh >u<
Thanks for the chapter! 🙂
I am really drawn to this story.
the twins are so cute!
thanks for the chapter .<3
ML really doesn’t exist? 😢
Thanks for the chapter!
Awww the twins are so adorable🥺
Thank you for the chapter!!💜💜
aaahhh the twins are so adorable <3 ai thank u for the chapter~
I hope there is a moment where we finally know what’s real or not😅 I’m questioning everybody at this point which makes me even more sad for our MC if none of it is real.😢
Twins are so cute lol! Can’t wait till protag finally understands that his perfect boyfriend isnt fake 😊
The dragon phoenix twins are great!
Thanks for the chapter 💕
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Why do I feel like that that ML died and that is what make MC go “crazy”
“Good thing Xue Yaozu doesn’t exist.” ☹
I was laughing at 117….and lost my smile at 118.
This novel is sooo strange but also very beautifully written (and translated😊 ).
😊
The twins are so mature in their own kid ways 😭🥺 skimping money and taking care of the mc. Not leaving him. Their interactions are also funny sometimes.
Aiyo 😅 it’s because mc is scared of the possibility that ml isn’t real that the twins and other people doesn’t confirm that mc is indeed in ‘contact’ with the ml. Can’t mc also ask some strangers about ml’s company, search about the ml, and check the neighbors if they see ml’s bodyguards.
Damn, now I am doubting too that whether Xue Yaozu actually exists or not?
Is it just me …?