59.
You might not believe me when I say this, but the first time I went to Xue Yaozu’s company, all his henchlings, whether I’d met them or not, all took me for Xue Yaozu’s lover. Actually, more than a lover, even.
A guy wearing a big gold chain slapped Xue Yaozu’s shoulder with a resounding smack!
“Not bad! You have to invite us to the ceremony! A Liu Shui banquet ! For a month!”
Xue Yaozu coolly, in a show-off manner, said, “No.”
The guy in the big gold chain asked,“Why not though?”
Xue Yaozu said, “Shut up.”
He introduced us, “He’s. My friend. His name is. Da Jin.”
Big Gold said, “Then you should introduce your Idol to me too.”
Xue Yaozu said, “I. Won’t.”
60.
Xue Yaozu brought me over to his office and shut out the crowd of busybodies outside.
He explained, “They’ve. Heard me. Speak about y-you.”
Oh, you don’t need to explain, I could tell (just by looking).
I noticed the pictures of me in frames on Xue Yaozu’s desk. They were secretly taken shots from our middle school era.
He’s getting more and more terrifying.
Xue Yaozu looked like he was a bit embarrassed. “S-sorry.”
“I don’t remember you.”
“W-wait a moment.”
He searched through his phone for a while, then showed me the screen and said, “Look, this. W-was me.”
The person in the photo had thick bangs which completely covered his eyes. What’s more, he wore a pair of black framed glasses, so that about half of his face looked almost abstract.
Now I remember. This was the classmate I had been partnered with, he basically spoke less than three words every time he opened his mouth and seemed very gloomy.
But I remember that his name wasn’t Xue Yaozu.
Xue Yaozu explained, “The teacher forgot to. Switch. The names. I. Didn’t explain.”
“I heard that you pushed the original person, why did you do that?”
Xue Yaozu fell silent for a moment, then said, “I. Don’t remember. Anymore.”
That doesn’t look like you don’t remember.
Whatever, asking is a waste of time.
“If you don’t remember then whatever.”
“I. W-won’t harm you. I like y-you.”
He’s already told me a million times that he likes me, I’m starting to suspect that that’s his catchphrase.
61.
I remember that if back then I hadn’t occasionally heard him reply, I would have thought that this classmate who I’d partnered up with was mute.
Xue Yaozu said, “I s-stutter, so my. Classmates. W-would often. Make fun of. Me. So I. W-wouldn’t speak.”
I nodded.
He continued, “Y-you. Told me. To talk. More.”
That I don’t quite remember. Ever since I was young I was a chatterbox.
“Y-you. Told. Me. To change my hairstyle and. Get rid of my. Glasses.”
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I asked, “So you wear contacts?”
“P vlv. Ojrlx. V-regufgs.”
“P kjcafv sbe. Kb ilxf wf.”
62.
Vb jkxkjgv.
Jjc tf cba rjs la rb yiecais?
63.
“Ccv. T-sbe. Uijsfv nlvfb ujwfr. Qlat wf, jcv. Kbbx wf. Kb rlcu xjgjbxf, jcv ub. Ujgjmtealcu.”
“Ktja ralii vbfrc’a wfjc atja sbe tjnf ab ilxf wf.”
He said, “I just do.”
Memx, vb ktjafnfg sbe kjca atfc.
64.
Younger me enjoyed parachuting, how unbelievable. I was actually not worried that someone would do something to sabotage the parachute in order to kill me.
65.
Xue Yaozu was drawn into nostalgic memories of childhood. I feel like if the me back then had sneezed then in his memories I would have sneezed pink fluffy hearts.
I’m not disputing the fact that the me back then was pretty great, but this is really awkward.
Even after turning the matter over and over again in my head, I still don’t know how to tell him that he should find a pink, cuddly little angel, instead of continuing to set his sights on a fallen angel with torn out wings like me.
66.
While Xue Yaozu was still stuck inside his memories of his first love, he was interrupted when his secretary came in to give him a report.
After listening in on the contents of the report I changed my mind.
He’s so rich. Should I just play along with his feelings? I’ll die sooner or later anyways, so then I can just trick him into taking care of my little brother and sister when I’m dead.
67.
Actually, let’s not.
Even though the whole world is basically filled with bad people who want to harm me, but just because they’re not right doesn’t mean I can be wrong. In any case, I’m a good person. This is my last remaining good point.
68.
In the future, when I die, my tombstone header will have the words: This is a (good) person.
69.
Actually, when I die just scatter my ashes. Anywhere is fine, then I’ll become the mud of spring and be more eco-friendly.
While living I couldn’t do anything for humans, so when I die if I can nourish the earth a tiny bit and help, well, that would be good.
God, I’m such a nice and compassionate person. Why aren’t you nicer to me?
70.
Xue Yaozu asked me, “Is. It boring? What are. Y-you. Thinking?”
“I’m praying to god to let me live another five hundred years.”
Xue Yaozu smiled and said, “Then let’s. Go to. The shrine and pray tomorrow.”
He’s so clingy! Why can he divert any topic and hijack it?! What the hell has he experienced (in order to get like this)?!
“It’s because. Of. Y-you. That I became this. Great.”
Shameless. Who uses ‘this great’ to describe themselves?
71.
I think that Xue Yaozu mainly wants to show off his wealth to me, just like animals do when they’re courting their potential mates.
He laughed and said, “Y-you’re. Right.”
72.
Mommy, I don’t think I can resist anymore.
73.
I solemnly told him, “My personality isn’t like it was anymore.”
“Y-you. Are still. Y-you.”
I don’t think so, when a person’s personality changes, then they aren’t the same person as they were before. For example, if there were two people called Ren Yigu, and one was very cheerful, positive and full of life, and the other was gloomy all day, then I would choose to be the first one’s friend.
But I didn’t say that out loud. It’s not as if I’m very familiar with Xue Yaozu, so I don’t want to talk about deep things with him.
74.
Xue Yaozu asked me, “Why are. Y-you. Suddenly unhappy?”
I secretly thought, in the future I won’t just suddenly be unhappy, I’ll also suddenly attack others.
“If. Y-you’re bored, then let’s. Go see a movie. After. We’re done. Watching the movie. Let’s. Go have. Something to eat.”
I feel like he wants to repay me.
Back then, without me noticing, I influenced him. And he changed from an introverted, antisocial youth to how he is now. And so he wants to repay me.
But he actually doesn’t need to do that. He just needs to promise me that someday when I die or go totally insane or I lose everything, then he will help me take care of my little brother and sister as if he were their biological father. That’s all.
75.
I told Xue Yaozu, “How about you adopt my little sister and little brother as god-daughter and god-son?”
Xue Yaozu went silent for a long time, then said, “That would. Mix up the family. Ties.”
I don’t even care about that anymore!
“Then, they would be. A. Y-younger. Generation in the family than. Y-you.”
Cursed stutterer, what are you fantasizing about all the time?
76.
I don’t want to go to the mall. What if someone stalks me and wants to beat me up? But Xue Yaozu dragged me to go shopping and said that he wants to buy some new clothes.
How gay.
77.
He really did go and buy new clothes for himself.
And was super happy while trying on new clothes.
I felt pretty bored, so I went to look at some clothes as well. I saw a piece with a super shiny zipper which looked really nice, so I touched it to have a better look. Suddenly it occurred to me that there was something wrong, if my fingerprints are left on the surface of the zipper, then what if someone uses it to frame me? For example, if someone went to kill someone wearing this, then the police would identify my fingerprints on it and accuse me of being the killer.
I hurriedly wiped at the zipper a few times, but felt as if I was getting more and more fingerprints onto it every time I wiped.
I started to panic.
78.
When Xue Yaozu finished buying clothes and pulled me out of the shop I was still panicking.
He asked me what was wrong and I said nothing.
I know that my thoughts and actions are really crazy, but I don’t want him to know that I’m actually this crazy. Even if he’s already experienced how insane I am.
Why did he have to drag me outside? If I didn’t come outside then none of this would have happened, if I stay at home then nothing will happen.
79.
I know what to do now. I have to date Xue Yaozu and get him to take care of me, that way I can stay at home and never leave the house. Then no one will be able to harm me.
80.
I called Xue Yaozu’s name and he stopped in his tracks and turned back to look at me.
I silently rehearsed what I should say inside my head, then went and grabbed onto his hand.
It looked like he was shocked silly for a second, then he looked at me in hesitation.
In a flash I abruptly felt that I shouldn’t do this! What if one day he has another partner, and wants to dump me, but was afraid that he couldn’t dump me? Or what if he wants to take back the money he spent on me but was afraid that he couldn’t get it back, so he decides to off me? In truth, I’m actually really easy to dump…but what if he didn’t think so?
Plus, using him like that is pretty rotten of me too.
81.
And you never know, what if one day Xue Yaozu gets on the bad side of someone and they decide to take me hostage in order to threaten him and they accidentally kill me?
82.
Xue Yaozu asked, “What’s. Wrong?”
“Oh, nothing. I just want to invite you out to drink some bubble tea, do you want to drink some?”
“I do.”
83.
Bubble tea is so expensive now. One cup is around twenty to thirty yuan.
I almost can’t afford to drink it anymore.
The moment I looked at the menu I wanted to just say whatever, I’ll just buy him a cup, I don’t want one anymore, but that way would make me seem too cheap. So I had no choice but to grit my teeth and continue going over the menu. I asked him, “What do you want?”
Xue Yaozu pointed to a line on the menu.
A single cup of green tea costs twenty-eight yuan! I could buy a whole pack of tea and it’d last me a month!
Holding back tears, I bought two cups. Fifty-six yuan were gone just like that. I could have bought a pack of socks.
84.
While drinking the bubble tea, Xue Yaozu asked me, “Do. Y-you. Like drinking tea? I have a lot. Of tea leaves. They’re all gifts. From. People.”
I don’t like drinking tea!
“Y-you. Shouldn’t drink too much. Bubble tea. It’s. Not good for. Y-you. They said. On the news. The. Amount of sugar is. Too high.”
Even if I wanted to drink it, it’s not like I can afford to drink it!
Poverty causes me to stay away from sugar.
85.
We first went to eat hotpot.
Xue Yaozu said, “Y-you. Eat. Very little.”
I said I was on a diet.
He laughed and said, “Y-you’re fine. As. Y-you. Are right now. Also. Dieting can’t. Rely on starving yourself. Let’s. Go together and. Jog every morning.”
86.
Inexplicably, I had to go with him to the shrine and pray with him after finishing our jog together in the morning.
Rinrin: (✿´ ꒳ ` ) they’re half married hehe. XYZ is so smooth~
I still don’t know how to tell him that he should find a pink, cuddly little angel, instead of continuing to set his sights on a fallen angel with torn out wings like me.
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Ren Yigu! You are an angel! A great one!
(Comment your fav lines too! Or the ones you feel are put badly/strangely. Just gimme feedback and talk ta me! I’m first and foremost a reader after all)
I find myself attached to these characters. I dont know what to expect, but I am looking forward to the updates.
thanks for the chapter! <3
Maybe because this is in RYG’s pov, but I feel nervous (but also lowkey) excited while reading this ><
Thanks for the chapter! 🙂
I’m like, not sure what to feel, however,
Good vibes☺️🌻🎊
But also
Bad vibes😱😬😖
So just
Vibes👾
Vibing~
Ren Yigu bby i hope you get better!! Go with Xue Yaozu! He’ll protect and take care of you~
Thank you for the chapter!!💜💜
❤️❤️❤️
Thanks for your hard work!
❤️
no i think everything is my fav lines QAQ what to do??? they are so adorable and i just want to protect Yigu~ thank u for the chapter!!
“Even after turning the matter over and over again in my head, I still don’t know how to tell him that he should find a pink, cuddly little angel, instead of continuing to set his sights on a fallen angel with torn out wings like me.”.. this was also my favourite line. Even before I saw your note on writing out favourite lines, I already made a screenshot of it on my phone 🤗
“I didn’t know that business for mental health was so good” 😅 Made me literally lol. Thanks for Translating btw.
Aww, Xue Yaozu has liked Ren Yigu for a long while 😍
Thanks for the chapter 💕
💙💙💙
“This is a person.”
This line hit me hard. I felt heartache for Ren Yigu for even thinking of this.
I wonder how his mother died though? I felt like she got scammed just from the sheer varieties of scamming methods he thought of. Like he is scarred by it.
“Even though the whole world is basically filled with bad people who want to harm me, but just because they’re not right doesn’t mean I can be wrong. In any case, I’m a good person. This is my last remaining good point.” How good is this man…
Even if our baby is like this, he still has some good in him 🥺😆
”Poverty causes me stay away from sugar”
This line describes me 🥺🤣