17.
This time it wasn’t just me being paranoid, Xue Yaozu really was getting people to follow me. Right now they’re just parked outside my place, but afterwards they’ll be taking advantage of the fact that I’m not home to go break in and install security cameras and listening devices everywhere.
I thought long and hard but I still couldn’t remember Xue Yaozu being my classmate, and how exactly I had gotten on his bad side.
To tell the truth, kid me was pretty wild and arrogant. I wasn’t afraid of anything and when I got fired up I even had the guts to talk back to and swear at the principle. But I really don’t remember bullying a stutterer.
18.
Although I was afraid that they’d install surveillance cameras, I still bravely went out to go to work.
As soon as I went down, a henchling ran out of the car and asked me, “Ren-Ge, are you going to work? So early? Let us send you there.”
I really don’t have any money! The money in my bank account is saved up money for my little brother and sister! They’re still in elementary school! If someday I suddenly die then they would only have this money to live on!
Now I didn’t know what expression I had on, but the henchling backed away a little and said, “Ren-Ge, we mean no harm, Yao-Ge just wanted us to help out a bit. He’s busy today and will come later.”
This really isn’t me being paranoid, they truly have a scheme this time.
19.
I really wanted to continue on and stubbornly take the metro to work but I was afraid that they would, in a fit of rage, drive at me and run me over. So, I had no choice but to swallow up my pride and get in their car.
Even if they kidnap me it’s futile. My older brother definitely won’t pay a ransom.
But I’m afraid of them not understanding this truth.
So I started putting together a script to follow later to cry for mercy.
20.
At work my emotional state stabilized a lot. If only it was this stable everyday, then that would be great.
Although I did stay silent the whole day and didn’t talk to anyone in order to avoid colleagues who want to frame and harm me.
21.
When I got off work I started getting terrified again.
When I walked out of the company doors, Xue Yaozu was there and smiling at me.
He wants to kill me, doesn’t he?
There are two possibilities. Either he received money from my big brother and was sent to kill me, or he hates my big brother and therefore wants to kill me.
22.
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Xue Yaozu followed me home.
V-rmjgs.
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Lf rjlv, “T-sbe. Gbc’a cffv ab. Df cfgnber.”
Dgb, lo sbe rajsfv jkjs ogbw wf atfc P kbeivc’a yf cfgnber!
Rfnfg wlcv, fnfc lo tf rajsfv jkjs ogbw wf P kbeiv ralii yf jyif ab olcv rbwfatlcu firf ab yf cfgnber jybea.
Lf rjlv, “Zs tfjga. Cmtfr obg sbe. T-sbe. Qfgfc’a. Olxf atlr yfobgf.”
People change!
He asked, “W-what happened? W-was. There. Someone bullying. Y-you?
I kept silent.
He walked over, then suddenly grabbed my hand.
His grip was really strong, yet didn’t hurt me.
He looked at me and said, “I w-will. Protect you. I like. Y-you.”
23.
I think Xue Yaozu wants to scam me out of one of my kidneys.
24.
Xue Yaozu gave me two choices: either he moves in with me, or I move in with him.
I think, more than me, he needs to go see a doctor.
Ah, I still haven’t gone to see a doctor yet.
What if some evil doctor uses my illness to trick me and scam me out of my money?
25.
I chose to call the police.
26.
I didn’t call the police, I’m afraid Xue Yaozu will get back at me if I do.
27.
Taking advantage of the opportunity Xue Yaozu the shameless gave me by going into the kitchen to make me some poisoned food, I secretly emergency contacted my friend.
I have friends too, but after my brain got sick we gradually lost touch. It’s not their fault, it’s mine. I’m afraid my insanity will trouble them, but also that they would harm me. Of course I’m mainly afraid of causing them trouble though.
Although I say that, I couldn’t resist telling one of my best friends. He’s against me going to the hospital and taking medication. He says that all this can be cured with some self help thinking and going outside, exercising and getting some sun. If I took medication and got side effects then that wouldn’t be worth it.
At first when I started showing symptoms I would go to him to help me. I understood all the reasonings and arguments he tells me, that no one wants to harm me, and what’s more no one has a reason to harm me, it’s just that I simply can’t control myself.
Afterwards, I could feel him starting to get impatient.
This is what I’m afraid of.
It’s only natural. I understand, if I were in his shoes I would feel the same. If a crazy person always went to me to rant and go crazy, then no matter how much I want to help this person I would definitely get impatient, and feel as if that person isn’t listening properly.
If this continues on, even if one day I get cured, they still won’t want to be friends with me.
I don’t want to lose them just because of this shitty illness.
Why can’t I just control my stupid delusions?
Sooner or later I’ll get better, and then I’ll change back into the past me, and continue being friends with them.
They’re all waiting for the real me to come back. I’m waiting for myself too.
The me right now isn’t the real me.
The one they all like is the real me, not the me right now that acts as if he’s possessed by a ghost.
Even I don’t like the me of right now.
I really want to quickly change back.
28.
When my friend picked up he was still so gentle, just like usual. When he heard me say Xue Yaozu’s name he thought awhile and replied, “I’m not that familiar with him either, but there really was this person. He wasn’t in the same class as us, he was in the last class I think. I think he was a stutterer and was bullied a lot. What made you suddenly interested in asking about him?”
“I just ran into him. He said he knew me, but I don’t know him. Do you think he wants to scam me out of my organs?”
My friend ignored my last sentence and said, “I think you should know him though, I remember one time during the break when we had the pairing up activity you were paired up with him, isn’t that right?”
I do remember the pairing up activity during the break. That school of mine did various school events, once of which was to pair up students one on one, and have them go to each other’s house and live there for awhile. In order to make use of the arrangements as much as possible, the school usually paired up households that had bigger differences socio-economically, or with students who were different.
But I don’t remember being paired up with Xue Yaozu. The guy I was paired up with had a very common name, so common that I can’t even remember it now.
My friend said, “No, it really is him. I remember real well. Because the person you were supposed to partner with suddenly fell into a hole and broke a bone. That’s why Xue Yaozu became your partner. Afterwards, only when I asked that person did I know that it was Xue Yaozu who had pushed him. But on the matter of why you don’t have any recollection of this, I’m not sure either.”
Oh my god, that’s even more terrifying.
29.
I watched Xue Yaozu eat a bite of each of the dishes. Only when he finished did I start touching the food, but then another thought occurred to me. What if he had a contagious illness and he was purposefully trying to give it to me?
I immediately took out my phone and started searching up all of the ways that infectious diseases could be transmitted. For example, could the disease be transmitted by eating together?
Why did he have to target me? Did I really offend him before?
I silently finished dinner in suffering.
It seemed like Xue Yaozu wasn’t planning on leaving. He even went and washed the dishes, then after the dishes were washed he started mopping the floor. As he was mopping the floor he said, “Even. If you live. By yourself. Y-you. Should still pay attention. To hygiene. And cleanliness.”
Everyday I’m busy lying in bed and telling myself to be more positive! It uses up all my energy!
After Xue Yaozu finished cleaning up he came and sat next to me. He stared at me and said, “I’ll take. Care. Of y-you.”
This is really truly terrifying, ok? What exactly does he want to do with me? If he wants money then I can just give it to him, can he just spare me?
He hurriedly said, “Don’t be. Scared!”
Do I look like I’m really scared?!
He looked as if he was really nervous, then said, “Don’t be. Afraid. I like y-you.”
That’s even scarier, okay?!
30.
Xue Yaozu had the good fortune of getting to watch me recap my cup lid ten times. After he finished watching he said, “Let’s. Go. See a doctor.”
I don’t want to go.
He patiently asked, “W-why?”
There’s no reason, just that there’s side effects.
He patiently said, “If there’s. Side effects. Then don’t take them. Take better. Medication. I have money. I like y-you.”
Was he trying to hint at something?
Actually I don’t care anyhow, at least he was pretty handsome, it’s just that I don’t know if he has any illnesses or problems.
31.
Just as I was pondering on how to convince him to get a full body check up, my little brother and little sister’s teacher called. They said that my little brother hit another kid.
My little brother is trying to drive me to death me too.
Thx for the chapter 💜
❤️
Hmm~ they both seem crazy. Slightly. I mean my bro did push someone into a well so he can partner up with Mc. I dunno~ seems a little sus to me
Also, friendly tip. I’ve had a classmate that had a stutter and my brother had a stutter too(although he still stutters sometimes, mostly when he’s angry)
Stutterers don’t only repeat letters, they repeat words too. Some repeat to the extent where they don’t even complete their sentence and just give up entirely
Thanks you for the chapter!
Still slightly afraid for the ending but also interested in the story. The struggle is real😔✊
Thanks for the stuttering tip! Though I actually know, as my little bro is a stutterbug too (though he mainly has a lisp, and mostly only stutters when he’s excitedly explaining stuff like his latest lego creation). I’m mainly sticking to how the original author (If you can, check them out! This story and others are free) portrayed XYZ’s stutter.
Hope you keep reading and enjoying it, and hope I bring it justice in translation!
The mc us too sweet. I love his delusions, to be honest. Just wondering if his friend is indeed, a real friend since we can’t trust him even if he’s the narrator. Ml is sweet as well.
Thanks for the chapter!
I love this!
thanks for the chapter <3
Xue Yaozu: I like you
MC: Oh my god he want’s to take one of my kidneys!
I can’t😭😭🤚
Thank you for the chapter!!💜💜
hhhhhhhhhhh
exactly
the misunderstanding is so 😂 but poor XYZ he just wants to show his ❤️
Thanks for your hard work!
I know I shouldn’t laugh at him, but I can’t help it. 🤦🏻♀️
It’s ok, I laugh too (even while crying for him)
😂
the misunderstanding keeps piling up~ hahahahahaha thank u for the chapter!!
It’s like i’m reading about myself. Funny but sad…
Glad that Xue Yaozu is looking out for Ren Yigu.
Thanks for the chapter 💕
He patiently said, “If there’s. S-side effects. Then don’t take them. Take better. Medication. I have m-money. I like y-you.”
Was he trying to hint at something?
Bro he just wants to be your sugar daddy lol and idk if I have the same illness as the MC but on some cases I can relate at him
💙💙💙
I know his illness is a real problem and nothing to laugh at but I can’t stop laughing especially when he thought (I think Xue Yaozu wants to scam me out of one of my kidneys)
“They’re all waiting for the real me to come back. I’m waiting for myself too.” ☹
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“They’re all waiting for the real me to come back. I’m waiting for myself too.”
That’s pretty painful… People should be aware of the gravity of mental problems. Most tend to brush off important matters like this by saying, “It’s all in your head,” “You’ll be fine if you sleep,” and “You’re just overreacting.” Our mind controls our body, our actions, our everything. If it slowly falls into chaos, what’s there for us to do? for us to be? It’s so sad..
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The ml’s appearance and confession came a lil out of the blue. owo
But I guess, the chance encounter was a good way to rekindle feelings and chase the mc. One of the only good things is that he has money to spend 😆 Take care most of mc’s problems. Might even rival ml’s company xP
Mc’s dialogues are both sad and funny 😅 Quite a mix bag of emotions and happenings. Even family matters.