Don't Pick Up Boyfriends From the Trash BinCh73 - I Hear I’m a Battle God (10)

translator: baumkuchen  editors: serefina, glitterypanda

Summer soon arrived. Rosie asked Chi Xiaochi, who was acting as Ji Zuoshan, if he wanted to participate in the summer training on “The Scar” together. VhrbK

Chi Xiaochi asked her, “You also want to go?”

All those wanting to participate in the summer training on “The Scar” were, practically without exception, of decent ability, wanting to test themselves out, or even perhaps take centre stage.

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Given Rosie’s strength, even if she didn’t partake in the ruckus, she was still a quasi-Alpha. She would be better off saving her strength for the tournament in half a year’s time.

Rosie, dressed in a pair of cargo pants and a black singlet, was currently repairing the rear thrusters of her mecha. As such, her hands were covered in machine oil. uy5PW3

She said, “I need some experimental data.”

Chi Xiaochi raised his eyebrows slightly.

Rosie said, “That place has live Zerg. I’ve seen an anatomical diagram before, but that’s still not enough. I need to personally dissect one.”

Chi Xiaochi really admired this kind of woman. He said, “That’s good then. If you need a bodyguard, I’ll go.”

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“I don’t need one.” Rosie’s blue eyes fluttered. “I just think that you probably need this opportunity. ……Hey.””

A lock of hair fell out from where it was tucked behind Rosie’s ear, blocking her line of sight.

Stretching out her hands, she leaned down from where she was sitting cross-legged on the A-shaped ladder and motioned to Chi Xiaochi standing below the ladder to help her tie her hair up.

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Before Chi Xiaochi could even lift his arms, Blue, standing next to him, was one step ahead of him, carefully helping Rosie put her hair up and fastening it with a hair clip. It seemed to have been completely prepared.

Done, it bowed and said politely, “Miss Rosie, it’s done.”

 

Rosie still had feelings for Ji Zuoshan, but these feelings weren’t to the point where she would want to confess them; it was slightly more than admiration.  6dUAW3

She was naturally one who just took advantage of opportunities when they came. Of course it was good if  she could close the distance between them, but when she was cut off midway by Blue, she wasn’t mad either. She shot Blue a look, saying, “Look at you butting in on my business, tomorrow I’m going to donate you to the academy.”

Blue let out a soft laugh, “Miss Rosie, even if Miss donates me, I’ll just sneak back.”

Chi Xiaochi looked up at Blue. Blue just so happened to be looking back.

A human and a machine each reached out their left and right hand respectively and high-fived. BAxNbI

Seeing this exhibition of the tacit understanding and closeness between master and servant, Rosie subconsciously stroked her own mecha. Her mecha, Red, then stiffly turned its head and asked, “Miss Rosie, do you have any orders?”

Rosie sighed slightly. Sure enough, an AI specialized for combat and an improved housekeeping AI weren’t the same.

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“Long hair is too troublesome.” Rosie quickly changed her focus. She shook her head around, then said, “I’ll get it shaved off tomorrow.”

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The next day, she really did shave it off.

As Rosie drank her milk for breakfast, she pedaled into school on her bicycle with her hands off the handles, followed by a silent Ji Zuoshan.

 

……Rosie and Ji Zuoshan were dating. badxpy

Everyone spread the news around in that way.

Even though this didn’t mention Zhan Yanchao in any way, everyone clearly reached the same consensus in their minds: It seemed that Zhan Yanchao had been kicked away by the very human sacrifice he had raised, otherwise he wouldn’t be acting like a rooster whose feathers had been grabbed by someone, challenging anyone he caught.

And since Zhan Yanchao did not feature in the rumours being spread, he naturally wasn’t able to find a reason to attack, which stifled him to the point that blisters formed on the corners of his mouth.

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That was the treatment he should be getting!

Since he was young, Zhan Yanchao had never known what regret was, always remaining ignorant. When he was angry at someone, he would grab that person and beat them, and when he was happy, he would give them one kiss after another. This was the first time in his life feeling like his heart was hanging in the air, with no place to land. Dyozlt

He finally found an opportunity one day, running into Ji Zuoshan in the bathroom.

Zhan Yanchao was obviously very happy, but he still tried to firmly press down the corners of his lips. He turned on the faucet, but his gaze followed Ji Zuoshan closely, never falling behind.

After two months, Ji Zuoshan had actually gotten taller, and paler. The lines of the exposed section of his forearms were incredibly beautiful. When he saw Zhan Yanchao, he acted as if he’d only seen a stranger, nodding slightly.

How could Zhan Yanchao stand that? He firmly suppressed the rush of anger before daring to open his mouth and speak, “You’re still doing well with Rosie?” ISpqnZ

Ji Zuoshan said, “En.”

Zhan Yanchao couldn’t help but sneer, “You should be more careful. She said that she wasn’t taking you as a human sacrifice, but when it’s time for the tournament she might go back on her words.”

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Ji Zuoshan looked at Zhan Yanchao, showing a surprised expression. “It’s not like she’s you.”

Zhan Yanchao was choked to the point of almost vomiting blood. “When did I——” TJdUK3

 

Halfway through his words, he suddenly remembered something.

One year, his cousin brought Ji Zuoshan out with him to serve him……

Although the memories were unpleasant, Zhan Yanchao vaguely remembered that in the car, he seemed to have made a promise to Ji Zuoshan in his rage. SpcGVJ

So…… it was because he heard that he wanted him to be his Omega that he’d been willing to go with Rosie?

While he was in his daze, Ji Zuoshan had already washed his hands and was turning to go out.

Zhan Yanchao chased after him for a few steps, then shouted loudly, “Ji Zuoshan!!”

Ji Zuoshan turned back and looked at him. SP35do

 

When he met those quiet eyes, however, Zhan Yanchao didn’t know what to say.

He had originally already made up his mind to let the boy die wherever he wanted to, but he actually found that the further the distance between them, the more intense the feelings in Zhan Yanchao’s heart, increasing rather than lessening.

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……No, it shouldn’t be like this. Ji Zuoshan shouldn’t be like this.

He clearly had had a very tolerant and gentle personality, he himself had clearly done even more outrageous things before…… 

Yes, outrageous.

Before, Zhan Yanchao didn’t know what outrageous was, but during these few days, he had always been mulling over everything that had happened that day. Comparing it to before, only then did he vaguely realise that his previous actions seemed to indeed be a tiny bit inappropriate. amuE5K

But very quickly, it turned back into anger. Ji Zuoshan clearly had been able to bear so many things, so why was he suddenly unable to bear it anymore? Why hadn’t he been willing to even give him some time to adjust?

Now, belatedly remembering that year’s promise, Zhan Yanchao finally understood the reason.

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……He had given Ji Zuoshan hope, then personally snatched it away once more. Was it because of this that Ji Zuoshan left?

This time, Zhan Yanchao could no longer find any excuses for himself. NaXn3h

 

Ji Zuoshan waited for a long time, but not hearing Zhan Yanchao continue, he simply turned and left. 

And in the exact moment that he turned, that regret value that had already maintained its calm for two months broke the ice, rising by 7 points.

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061 said to Chi Xiaochi, “It moved.”

Chi Xiaochi’s attitude was calm. “I saw.”

Over the past few days, 061 had constantly been watching. He found that Chi Xiaochi didn’t seem to be treating Zhan Yanchao like he’d treated his former targets. In the past, he’d purposely created traps for them to fall into, not to mention how he’d bought up cards. On the other hand, he was much more concerned about Ji Zuoshan himself, often going with him to the shopping centre to buy some snacks and chatting with him.

061 said, “This time it seems as if you’re not doing the task.” KvfDX5

Chi Xiaochi protested, “But the regret value went up just now, no?”

Thinking of the water that had appeared in Zhan Yanchao’s eyes just now, 061 couldn’t help but sigh out, “He just hasn’t grown up, and doesn’t know what love is.” By the time he understood, it would already be too late.

Chi Xiaochi laughed.

061, “What?” pdEJ4g

Chi Xiaochi, “Liu-laoshi, you didn’t tell your previous hosts that before, did you?”

061 thought for a moment. He didn’t have any detailed memories of what had happened before his reformatting anymore. Afterwards, he hadn’t said anything like that, but he’d heard his hosts say it more than once.

Upon thinking of this, 061 suddenly felt a little trepidation.

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Chi Xiaochi said, “If that’s what you taught them, it’s no wonder that those people threw up a fuss about wanting to stay.”

It was currently training time. Chi Xiaochi wasn’t in a hurry to find someone to fight. He returned to the preparation room and put Blue on standby while he leaned against the railing of the door to the preparation room and watched the latest fight in one of the sparring rooms.

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061 asked, “Why do you say that?”

Chi Xiaochi didn’t answer directly, instead saying, “That Lord God of yours is very interesting.” ExYq29

061 had a very good memory. He remembered that Chi Xiaochi had said this to 009 before, who had then told him about it.

He quietly waited for Chi Xiaochi’s analysis.

 

Chi Xiaochi said, “Why doesn’t it let the hosts grind up goodwill value, but rather the more complex regret value?” 8LWrwv

Chi Xiaochi said, “I don’t know what its ultimate goal is. But frankly, the first time I heard the name of this so-called ‘Slag Gong Reconditioning System’, I found it a little funny.

“When you hear it, it sounds like it’s about punishing those heartless people, like it’s about carrying out justice. But when a person holds the script to another person’s life, and knows about everything that’s going to happen in advance, Liu-laoshi, do you know what role they’re playing?”

Without waiting for 061 to answer, Chi Xiaochi calmly and unhurriedly gave him the answer, “……It’s God.”

061 nodded, expressing his agreement. ec1fmD

 

“But this privilege isn’t given freely. God can’t be played by just anyone. So these hosts don’t dare to deviate from the script, deathly afraid of losing this privilege, so they can only force themselves into the role of the original hosts,” Chi Xiaochis said, “And for people with this kind of mindset, they have the greatest enemy. ——Even if they are scum, they still always have some good points.

“Yang Baihua had good looks, was gentle to others, and was easy to please. As long as one had a strong tolerance and could wholeheartedly devote themselves to his parents, it would have been fine; Lou Sifan had talent. As long as one didn’t get in the way of his personal interests, he would be happy to show his kindness to them; even Zhou Kai wasn’t without any good points, at least he had enough money. For someone without anything against Stockholm syndrome, it could still be considered a bad pot paired with a shitty lid, a match made in heaven. As for Zhan Yanchao, he’s an even better potential partner, isn’t he? He’s from a rich family, and even though his personality is shitty it’s not completely rotten. There’s still space for correction, and once it is cured, he can just barely be considered a good partner.

“Faced with a Zhou Kai, hosts might still want to stay as far away as possible from him, but what if they’re faced with a Zhan Yanchao who can still be helped? dMgi2

“As ‘God’, compassion comes easiest for them. For someone completely beyond redemption, it’s of course true that the sooner you get rid of them the better. But for someone who can still be saved, can ‘God’ still ignore them?

“He looks at you pitifully, sheds a few tears, says a few words of repentance, and ‘God’ will of course sympathise. After all, ‘it is to one’s glory to overlook an offense’.”

 

061 was covered in a layer of cold sweat from his words, while Ji Zuoshan didn’t know what they were talking about, but felt like his words were very reasonable, so his chat bubble popped up, “Mister Chi is right.” 0WTofP

Chi Xiaochi leaned against the railing and said in an unhurried, yet not slow pace, “So that’s why I say that your Lord God is very interesting. It pushes ordinary people to be a God who has to earn regret value, but doesn’t care about how an ordinary person thinks. One world is still fine, two worlds are also still fine, but after ten worlds, going through all the different types of worlds out there, and maybe even bumping into one or two lovers for whom their teachings worked, and ‘know what love is’, who would still be willing to go back to being a vegetable with nothing and have been lying for two or three years?”

Being choked with his own words from just now by Chi Xiaochi, 061 felt a little embarrassed.

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But Chi Xiaochi didn’t seem to have any intentions of letting him off. He continued, asking, “Liu-laoshi, have you ever been in a relationship?”

Without waiting for 061 to respond, Chi Xiaochi then remembered, “Oh, right, you have someone you love.” ZhjuCM

 

The mention of that person made 061 fall silent.

To him, that person was an illusory phantom consisted of hundreds of thousands of broken fragments that he had no way of putting back together, but this phantom was what gave him his will to live.

——He knew that there was someone waiting for him. And this knowledge let him know that he still had consciousness, know that he wasn’t just a pile of data, that he was once a person. um9FJC

Chi Xiaochi said, “I’ve loved someone before.

“I loved going up and down the stairs with him, I loved it when he taught me how to play video games, where for every six of his wins he would never forget to let me win four, I loved when he cooked for me and Dog Meat, I loved when he taught me subjects, I loved when he would cover my ears whenever my parents fought—— I was never asleep, I was always listening.”

Ji Zuoshan’s preparation room was on the second floor. As Chi Xiaochi looked at that slight height below his feet, a tinge of sadness entered his careless gaze.

“……Love is when after he died I wanted nothing more than to go with him, but was afraid that other than me, no one else would remember him, so I could only use what bound him to the world to bind myself to it. I lived on for him, and even had to live well.” fj8Ctn

 

After saying this, Chi Xiaochi found it funny. He said, “Why am I even telling you this. ……Mm?”

Before his voice fell, without warning, he was  pulled into a hug. A hand stroked his head, bringing with it the warmth of a human.

Chi Xiaochi looked up. Finding out who it was, he couldn’t help but find it amusing. “Blue?” tXFnHQ

Blue said, “Master isn’t in a good mood.”

Chi Xiaochi had long since gotten used to Blue’s sharpness. As an improved housekeeping AI, it was of course able to better understand human emotions than other AIs.

Chi Xiaochi smiled and said, “Alright, don’t fuss, let’s go train.”

Blue hugged him, the force it was using neither too weak nor too strong, but leaving no room for doubt. “Master, don’t move. Let’s just sit for a while, okay?” M5Yb46

 

The author has something to say:

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Xiaochi: I’m not God, I’m just an actor.

Little seal: Mister Chi is right. 【Clap clap】 EUBvlQ

Blue: ……【Hugs 】


panda: 😭😭😭😭😭💔

sere: omg wow this author just bashed an entire genre i’m so down for this

baum: a heavy chapter, but on a lighter note JZS is so cute!! even though he doesn’t know what they’re talking about, he’s just like “Mister Chi is right” lmao qbLPXm

 

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specifically, she’s getting this kind of haircut: Image result for 板寸

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match between two shitty people – they deserve each other

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Proverbs 19:11

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    • ※As for Zhan Yanchao, he’s an even better potential partner, isn’t he? He’s from a rich family, and even though his personality is shitty it’s not completely rotten. There’s still space for correction, and once it is cured, he can just barely be considered a good partner.※

      ↑Exactly my thoughts.

      Haa.. This chapter is truly an eye-opener to insert some sense into people (´▽`) I almost cried to CXC’s words, it goes straight to the heart (◞‸◟)

      • Yeah, author had so thoroughly play our emotion and pierced where it soft :’)

        Also, that “love” definition of Chi is so..beautiful.

        I lived on for him, and even had to live well.

        😭 he need that hug

      • I’m a bad pot for I think zhan laozi is cute F!! He’s so cute …untill he start whipping u. I think I’ll be the first to die at pig brain’s hand😅😅only pig brain’s villainess can help me see the light .leave the pork for 009.

  1. هذا يعني أن السبب في أنني أحب روايات القفز عبر العالمين والفرصة الثانية ، الهجرة والتناسخ ، هو أن لديهم القدرة على التحكم في حياتهم ومعرفة ما يحدث ووضع خطط لذلك … ربما أحب القراءة ذلك لأنني أريد أن أفعل ذلك أيضا؟ أعني السيطرة على حياتي ، وأيضًا لمعرفة ما حدث يعطي نوعًا من الشعور بالأمان لأن كل شيء موجود في النص ولا يتغير ، والشعور باكتشاف أفكاري الداخلية التي لم ألاحظ وجودها بداخلي مرتاح جدًا ، وأنا حقًا أحب Xiaoqi ، لا أعرف عدد المرات التي اكتشفت فيها أشياء لم أفكر فيها من قبل بمفردي ، بسببه … علي الآن أن أفكر قليلاً في السبب وراء تشكيل هذه الفكرة بداخلي ، لماذا أخاف من خروج حياتي عن السيطرة؟ لم أسيطر عليه من البداية ،
    • This means, the reason I love the novels of jumping across the worlds and the second chance, migration and reincarnation, is because they have the ability to control their lives, know what is happening and make plans for that … Maybe I love reading it because I want to do it too? I mean controlling my life, also for knowing what happened gives a kind of feeling of security because everything is in the text and does not change, the feeling of discovering my inner thoughts that I did not notice being inside me is very comfortable, I really love Xiaoqi, I don’t know how many times I discovered things that I had not thought of before On my own, because of him … I now have to reflect a little on the reason why such an idea was formed inside me, why am I afraid of my life getting out of control? I didn’t control it from the beginning, I am confused..
      • I kind of want to give you a bunch of internet hugs. I empathize so strongly with that feeling of wanting to be in control, you know? It’s awful sometimes, knowing the only control you have over a shitty situation is how you react to it, or, in the worst cases, how you feel about it.

        • That’s right, only controlling your situation is what you can do …🚶🏻‍♀️

      • Yeah! Cause its like you know the goal, aka what your ganna do so you dont feel hopeless or dumb. You know the plot or what happens, and you control it. By deviating from it or following it. When you get a problem you have to complete it since theres a reward, you get back to your world or stay in another. In most world hopping stories with systems the mc often have a clear goal, the talent or willpower, and are in control, i mostly like when the mc is in control like ‘Cheating Men Must Die” and i really love the mc! I also sympathize with you since there are times where im like, im so useless i only watch yt and read manga, anime, and novels, and im not sure about my goal in life and am i really spending it well? Im like almost a teenager and like worried about my future since like i have soo few friends and really regret not trying to socialize (like 1 or 2 friends, the other 1 im very sure but shes moving to a new school and the other one we haven’t talk much but like were childhood friends and im not so sure if she regards me as her friend since im the quiet type and have trouble socializing)

        Anyway! i extremely sympathize with your problem and also wish i can give you hugs and comfort to someone who also feels the same ❤️❤️❤️

  2. Thank you for the chapter /o\

    Really just reveling in the angst in this story. There’s something really absorbing about how CXC talks about things here.

  3. Listening to Chi Xiaochi’s words truly opens my mind ah. I know that the previous slag gongs do have their own good points tho I can’t accurately pinpoint what it is. And in actuality, I do feel a lil bad about Zhan Yanchao and I thought that he still had a lil bit chance to be saved. I’ve made up my mind! Chi Xiaochi is the best shou AGGGHHHH!!!!

  4. I need the “like” button back to like this as many times as I’m allowed… even though it’s just one. Chi Xiaochi’s love is so real and painful 😞🖤

  5. Among all the slag gongs CXC met, I kinda like ZYC. ZYC really may have a shitty personality, but that was because it was instilled in his mind from the moment he was born. Added by being spoiled and treated as a god in his family, he became like that. The other slag gongs were already matured, but still doesn’t understand and realize their mistakes. They instead continue it, that is why the reincarnators had to step in. However, ZYC, his advantage to them is being young. He can still be taught. Also, he genuinely loves JZS, unlike the other slag gongs whose feelings were never true towards the original hosts. It’s just that, ZYC doesn’t realize it yet. The feelings had long been there, he only needeed to be enlightened. Age and feelings are the advantage of ZYC among the other slag gongs. He is a brat, but as i’ve said in the prev chaps his affection towards JZS is true. He pampers him very much if he is not in a bad mood.

    However, what has done been done. You cannot erase the past and your deeds. And so, even if ZYC would change in the end, JZS doesn’t necessarily have to choose him to be with in the end. You had your chance. Yes, you may have not realized it, but you could only watch it slip away.

    For this, i had a thought. Will there be a world where the original would end up with a reformed slag gong? Hmmm…

  6. Praying that someday Chi-ssi will attain happiness (´༎ຶ ͜ʖ ༎ຶ `)♡ this broke my heart (っ◞‸◟c)

  7. This still doesn’t change my mind about any of the gongs and especially Zhan yanhao. Let’s whip people and bury them in a coffin, but it’s ok because no one ever taught me better and I’m redeemable. I actually want to put this little sh!t in that same coffin and set on fire to listen to him scream. Then maybe he’s learn something

    • Ikr, I’m completely fine with reading those yandere, controlling, and borderline (ok straight up) abusive gongs in other novels but it’s only because I don’t take those books seriously. This novel however delves into human nature so thoughtfully and realistically that I’d never in a million years want JZS with ZYH. Idc how he doesn’t mean it/can’t express himself probably. Cool motive, still abuse 💆

    • Omg right i cant believe people are saying things like ‘he’s redeemable bc he was raised to be that way so it’s not his fault!!’ like how old os he exactly? 10 years old? To use his family circumstances to shield himself from the consequences of his actions is even more freaking disgusting like i cannot believe anyone would consider forgiving him after he routinely whipped, hit, bit, and locked a person in a COFFIN with no thoughts otherwise, while holding that person’s siblings as leverage. You can grow up spoilt but this is another level of inhumane. He literally treated the original host as his own possession with no second thoughts about it until cxc came along with his spine and forced him to think otherwise. He doesn’t deserve redemption, he needs to be beaten up a whole lot to settle the score
      • Unless people themselves go through such abuse or for that matter any absolutely horrifying tragedy /pain, they wouldn’t understand and can easily say the words redeemable oh he/she/they still have good characters etc etc it’s how humans are throw out few insignificant words since they don’t know how it feels its easy to say a person themselves or their actions are redeemable and the other person is selfish for not forgiving.

        when one really throws such words either they are truly forgiving in nature even after their life has been rained with abuse or they are so ignorant about the extend of how painful emotional and physical abuse are , they don’t understand the significance of the words they throw out as justification/excuse/reason for abusive murderous criminals. It does happen in real life have you seen Jeffery Dahmer (American serial killer )fans have you seen” how they go uwu so cute he doesn’t deserve this he is such an angel “.Netflix and other media instead of raising awareness regarding crimes and abuse give serial killers murderers and terrorist a celebrity status nowadays, serial killers like Ted Bundy and Jeffrey Dahmer (have movies and bionics made of them )they gain glorious celebrity status after being sold as a mysterious charming serial killer character hence desensitisation of their victims death and honestly absolutely disrespectful towards the life lost by these criminals hands. Yes the victims are dead buried and forgotten while the murderers are celebrated as glorious angels of humanity (so now that real life criminals are being loved and called redeemable by so called fans of theirs ) it’s not surprising that many are vouching for ZYS as redeemable atleast they are not disrespecting real life murdered raped abused victims and calling their abuse uwu such a cute angel I can change him .

        For me these real life criminals fans are the ones that need questioned regarding their obsession towards such criminals.

        For me abuse is abuse , torture is torture they do not equal to love or anything else and hence the romanticism of abusive or criminalstic characters (real life one’s) are the ones which I think is a more serious issue than these fictional characters who are being called redeemable.

  8. We understand some more the psychological issues with these worlds and their hosts. Chi Xiaochi is so smart.

    Ahh, I cried a little at the end. Blue, hug him tight!

    Thanks for the chapter!

  9. Oh god, Chi Xiaochi just broke my damn heart. But on another note, I’m glad he noticed that about the gongs. In my case, I’ve never had a lick of sympathy for them in the first place. And I’ve been thinking this for a while now…I don’t care if they had some redeeming qualities. You don’t harm the people you care or love about even if you’re in a bad mood. This is a fundamental principle, that I’ve seen so far, a worldwide accepted principle. Stockholm syndrome is still Stockholm syndrome just like manipulation and domestic abuse is still manipulation and domestic abuse. Hitting, beating, or any sort of abuse against a person you “love” is not and will never be love in my eyes.
  10. Xiaochi had someone to take revenge on after Lou Ying died, but what if you loved a person, wished only for their happiness and wellbeing, yet what you did was never enough and they killed themselves?

    There is no one to blame, no one guilty.

    The only thing you can do is live on in honor of the memories you have of that person, to treasure those deep feelings that will remain with you for the rest of your life.

    It really hurts.

  11. give me my own 061 who will talk to me, bicker, play with me, stay by my side and comfort me and I’ll be content (T*T) – sigh-

  12. MY LITTLE BABY SEAL WHO LISTENS OBEDIENTLY TO HIS MR CHI!!!!

    (i’ve already let out everything i could ever say about this noevl and this chapter hoenstly but i just… ty so much for the trnaslation,,…… I just love them so uch…..)

  13. This novel really disrupts the genre (y) Also – I love 061 and CXC’s reflections on what love means for them, what their love is <3

  14. “I’ll get it shaved off tomorrow.” <– erm.. in the note in this sentence, is there supposed to be a picture? Because just based on the note, I can’t imagine the hairstyle itself..

  15. Little seal reminds me of Wen Ning from MDZS. 🙈

  16. Chi XiaoChi’s character is so deep.. I love it <333

  17. Honestly, I get angry easily when I read the behavior of these slags, I want to punish them as much as possible, now I think about it, I don’t feel like fighting for justice but I want to save the victim, whether it’s right or wrong, fair or not I don’t know. After Xiaochi discussed it I wanted to reflect on it again

  18. This chapter was incredible. Especially since author does such a good job of writing slag gongs. Each target could easily be the male lead in another novel, but their abusive traits are carried to their logical conclusion instead of being romanticized. For example, a lot of male leads are sweet but possessive like Yang Baihua. But unlike other novels where the ML’s possessive behavior would be written of for laughs, Yang Baihua isolated the first host from everyone who cared about him.

  19. For a moment I didn’t recognize the slag gings namez. Yes, thankfully I was able to clean up the bad things they polluted my brain. Lol hahaha

    Thanjs for the chappp

  20. As one of my favorite books abt domestic abuse (“why does he do it”) says, the good times/good parts of an abusive partner are part of the abuse. Rarely are people every completely 100% horrible. Imo it’s important to realize that when they’re super sweet and kind after bad bouts of abusive or violence, it is literally part of the abuse cycle; it’s how you are drawn back and pushed deeper into the relationship. It’s good that the author acknowledged this, and it’s sad to think of past shou’s who settled for shitty partners bc the partners became a bit less shitty.

    Despite this slag gong genuinely loving the shou, and despite when other gongs liked their partners, they all heavily trend to blaming their partners for their own abuse and shitty outcomes, even though the shitty gongs were the ones who built up their partners for failure. Especially ZYC blames literally anything he possibly can on JZS. Their shitty love ain’t worth it

  21. Cxc is really so smart and broke the the core issues of quick transmigration… claps claps

    I clap like my cute baby seal

  22. I agree with sere, the author really laid out this genre bare and as someone liking this genre, I’m looking forward to it even more

  23. …if at the end of this novel Chichi and Lou Ying don’t get to be together and be happy I’m never gonna read another one of these Chinese BL novels again

  24. y do i feel warm watching three of them converse(┬┬﹏┬┬)

    little seal, july and luilui looks like a family<3

  25. Hats off Xiaochi.. These are the words I keep thinking whenever I read stories with such shitty yet “hopefully redeemable “ characters and see others advocating on pitying them, wanting them to get together with their preys once again, calling it hardcore romance..

    I totally regret not reading this novel earlier.. This chapter made me view the author in a whole new light.. Kudos to you..

  26. I was thinking this too

    Hosts are just like gods actually they know the future of themselves and according to that plot they are playing with the chars however as they want. Actually among all these scum gongs who is really infatuated (or maybe I say obsessed) with the MC is this Zhan guy and if the hosts think of him as a young, not mature yet but curable char they’d inevitably fall in love and wouldn’t care about past at all which would be very unfair for the char who’s been waiting for his revenge inside for a long long time.

  27. Chi Xiaochi’s description of what love means to him is one of the realest, truest love confessions (if you can even call it that) that I’ve ever read.

    It’s not the usual, “He’s the light of my life” or “I would kill/die for him”… It’s the love that grows, bit by tiny bit, like a light rain drizzling into the softest, innermost part of your heart, growing amidst the hustle and bustle of daily life, until I day you wake up and realise with a start that before you knew it, that person is in your heart, in your soul.

    It’s beautiful.

  28. I really love this in-depth analysis of the transmigration genre especially in the perspective of a transmigrator themself, it’s very fascinating that the author exposes the overshadowed and underlying concepts of the genre while the book itself is in the very same genre. Can’t wait to see how this goes for our smart bean CXC

  29. My god, this chapter had me sobbing 😭. Those words about the transmigrators acting as ‘god’ and not actual humans can be said to apply to us readers as well. When we read those stories with scum gongs we often pity them and think about their good qualities, how they’re redeemable……but isn’t that because we can afford to do it from a higher position? We never see these situations from the POV of an actual person who has to suffer. I’ve seen readers commenting, calling abused shous immature for not forgiving instantly when the slag gong starts doing the bare minimum. I absolutely love how CXC gives an example of what love truly means through the love he has experienced from and for his Lou-ge. Putting these two relationships in contrast, JZS and ZYC / CXC and Lou-ge even his relationship with 061 rn really gives you a perspective of how loving relationships truly work. ZYC may be redeemable, so what? Doesn’t change the fact that he still hurt JZS, I even thought at one point that it was a bit of JZS’s fault for not speaking up and I’m ashamed. ZYC’s immaturity and feelings are not JZS’s responsibility