translator: baumkuchen editors: serefina, glitterypanda
……The final diagnosis was a severe tear of the Achilles tendon.
The coach comforted him, saying, it’s okay, take a year off, rebuild, practice, who hasn’t had an injury before.
But Dong Ge saw the deep sorrow in the coach’s eyes.
This sorrow shattered Dong Ge.
Over the next few days, no matter who it was that came, he wasn’t willing to talk. Even Lou Sifan received this treatment.
Faced with Dong Ge’s cold expression, Lou Sifan said especially gently, “I know you’re not feeling well. If you don’t want to see me, I’ll come back again in a few days.”
Maybe because of him being particularly sensitive due to his injury, in this interaction with Lou Sifan, Dong Ge realised many details he had never noticed before.
——Lou Sifan was too gentle.
He was gentle to the point of almost being false, as if he could accept all of Dong Ge’s nasty behaviour, his willfulness, his arrogance, his reticence.
In the past, Dong Ge thought that gentleness was an incredibly wonderful characteristic.
He had never gotten angry, never criticised Dong Ge for his faults, never bickered with him, never quarreled. He simply couldn’t be a more perfect lover.
But, when he thought about it carefully, a lover who never quarreled, never got jealous, never showed his temper, was that really a lover?
Even at this kind of time, Lou Ge still comforted him gently, even-temperedly, simply as if he was using gentleness to coldly push him away, and draw a line of “we aren’t familiar” between them.
The third day after Dong Ge entered the hospital, He Changsheng, who had just finished up with his own competition, came to visit him.
There was dissatisfaction in He Changsheng’s tone, “How did you get yourself like this.”
Dong Ge looked at him. In a hoarse voice, he asked, “What about Lou-ge, did he not come with you?”
He Changsheng turned cold. From the sound of his voice, he was truly angry now. “Can he keep walking this path with you forever? You should think about what you need to be be doing now.”
Upon hearing this, Dong Ge was suddenly overcome with a sense of grievance and sourness.
He said in a small voice, “He can.”
After saying those two words, he then spoke to himself, asking, “……Can he?”
He Changsheng furrowed those two beautiful, willow-like brows. “Hmm?”
That was the first time Dong Ge bared his soul to He Changsheng and spoke so much to him.
He spoke about the love between him and Lou Sifan and confessed his jealousy towards He Changsheng. By the end, he couldn’t suppress his emotions any longer, wringing the corner of the bedsheet between his hands as he began to sob quietly.
……I’m jealous, I’ve sinned, I’m impulsive, but do I truly deserve this kind of punishment?
After He Changsheng heard everything, he seemed a little abnormal. “Is that how it is? ……He’s never said anything to me before.”
For a moment, Dong Ge couldn’t quite understand. “……What?”
He Changsheng said, “I’ve always thought of him as a friend, and I also thought you were just a junior he was taking care of.”
He then asked, “When did you two get together? Lou-ge never mentioned it to me, that you and him……”
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After all, in the context of this society, homosexuals were still a minority, and couldn’t be discussed freely in public, under the rays of the sun.
And Dong Ge had a restrained personality, and wasn’t the type who liked to perform big gestures of love in front of others.
But he’d always thought that He Changsheng knew.
If Lou Sifan had never mentioned it, what did these five years even count as?
If he never mentioned it, why did he have to be so jealous and hateful of an utterly ignorant He Changsheng?
Seeing Dong Ge remain silent, He Changsheng breathed out a sigh, and said bluntly, “I understand. From now on, I’ll maintain an appropriate distance from Lou-ge, I hope you won’t mind.”
He Changsheng left, leaving behind a stunned Dong Ge on his own in the hospital ward.
About half an hour later, Lou Sifan called.
With great effort, Dong Ge picked up the phone.
The phone was still the one Dong Ge had flipped the wall to buy. It was of very good quality, and Dong Ge was the sentimental type, so he kept using it all the way until now.
Lou Sifan’s number, was the first one entered inside, and was the only number entered inside.
He answered the phone, “Hello.”
The person on the other end was frenzied with anger. “Why did you have to say those things to him? Didn’t I tell you not to? Are you trying to destroy me?”
Dong Ge paused. “……Who are you?”
For a time, Dong Ge actually couldn’t recognise whose voice this was.
After that, Lou Sifan said a lot of things, as if he was concentrating all the anger that he hadn’t let out in those five years into this one hour, turning it into invisible bullets and pelting Dong Ge with them.
In this call, Lou Sifan spoke truthfully and with a soul-piercing pain, “You should thank Changsheng. He was bullied when he was younger, so he has a shadow in his heart. I only protected you because of him. And you? When you were younger, I helped you so much, protected you, and you repay me like this?”
Dong Ge had always thought that Lou Sifan just didn’t like him enough.
But he had never thought that Lou Sifan didn’t even regard him as a person, but just as a useful tool.
——When he was younger, he was the pitiful child Lou Sifan used to curry favour with He Changsheng, to express his kindness and compassion.
——After he grew up, he was just a useful, free blow-up doll.
From Lou Sifan’s accusations, it seemed that Dong Ge had truly destroyed Lou Sifan, destroyed the “friendship” he had carefully maintained for so many years.
Lou Sifan liked He Changsheng so much that he came up with all kinds of plans to make him like him.
He Changsheng, who projected his emotions onto Dong Ge, noticed the bullied Dong Ge, so Lou Sifan also began to notice him in turn.
He originally just wanted to be a good big brother, and take good care of Dong Ge, this “little brother”. He’d never expected that one night of drunkenness would result in him riding a tiger in a daze.
It was Dong Ge who had harmed Lou Sifan, forcing him to make such a difficult choice. It was Dong Ge who forced him to make a choice between his morals and He Changsheng.
Because of his “responsibility”, he “made a sacrifice” and got together with Dong Ge, in order to “make up for his mistake”.
He also knew that this “wouldn’t give Dong Ge true happiness”, but he didn’t want to become a Chen Shimei, so while he wanted to break up but couldn’t, and could only constantly give him “kind reminders” to let him know just how good He Changsheng was to hint to Dong Ge to retreat in the face of difficulty.
And only a fool like Dong Ge would try to advance despite difficulty, unwilling to retreat even in the face of death.
After hearing one after another of his “reasonable”, “upright”, solemnly-worded and forceful complaints, Dong Ge didn’t even have the energy to get angry.
He lay on the bed, his voice so calm that he shocked even himself, “If you didn’t like me, then why didn’t you say so earlier.”
On the other end of the phone, Lou Sifan said, “Wasn’t I constantly reminding you?”
Following that, he then said in a voice full of bitterness, “I’ve already taken responsibility for you, could it be this still isn’t enough for you? You need to consider my feelings, too.”
Dong Ge said weakly, “But you were so good to me…… You were always praising me, telling me that this part of me was good and that part of me was good……”
Could it be that even those were all fake?
Lou Sifan said, “I did say those things, but those were just ordinary compliments, that’s all. You thought too much. Think about it, from beginning to end, did I ever say a single “I love you” to you?”
Dong Ge fell silent.
A moment later, he whispered, “Okay. I understand.”
He politely hung up the phone.
From the age of 11 to now, a full 12 years of expectation and worship had turned into an illusion in a mere hour.
12 years. To Dong Ge, that was already half his lifetime.
Now that everything had already been said, Dong Ge was not going to pester him over and over, begging to reconcile.
He wasn’t that lowly. Since the man had no feelings for him, he would give up.
As he comforted himself like this, he laid down on his pillow, turning the pillowcase dark with big drop after big drop of tears.
……Why did it hurt so much.
……Even tearing his Achilles tendon didn’t hurt as much as this.
Dong Ge hurt so much he couldn’t breathe. He clenched the chest area of his hospital gown in a death grip and murmured comforts to himself.
……It’s okay, it’s okay, without him, I still have ice-skating.
A year later, Dong Ge, already suffering from a severe case of anxiety disorder, returned to the ice rink.
But with the after effects of the severe tear of his Achilles tendon, as well as his restless state of mind, made it so that he could no longer find that state from the year before.
He tried six movements in a row, and all of them failed.
He knelt on the ice and bawled like a child.
Not a single one of those teammates who had mocked his arrogance could remain unmoved, but in this crowd of people, there wasn’t a Lou Sifan.
……He never even gave Dong Ge another look.
Half a year later, Dong Ge, who was staying in the psychiatric ward, found an ice rink that belonged to him in his daze. He broke the thin ice, and fell into the decorative lake.
Chi Xiaochi pulled himself out of Dong Ge’s last memories before his death. He turned back and looked at the decorative pond behind him.
The decorative lake that had become Dong Ge’s final resting place wasn’t like this pond. It hadn’t been very deep. If at that time, Dong Ge had still had the slightest desire to live, if he poured just a little bit of strength into his legs and stood up, he would have been fine.
He undid his bun. A head of thick black hair was blown up by the wind. This hair that was dark as night contrasted even better with his snow-white skin, making him look like a little girl.
Chi Xiaochi wiped his face. He said, seriously, “Fuck his uncle.”
061 was in utter agreement. “En.”
Just at that moment, a pair of leather shoes entered Chi Xiaochi’s vision.
Someone asked in a soft voice, “Dong Ge? Is that you?”
Chi Xiaochi entered his acting state in seconds.
He raised his head, his gaze like that of the young Dong Ge, melancholic yet alert.
The man before him was a handsome young man, with naturally good looks, possessing red lips and phoenix eyes, yet having a unique air of uprightness and elegance, making one feel good just by looking at him.
Noticing Dong Ge’s questioning gaze, the man extended his hand, and said in a refined and courteous manner, “I’m Dong Feihong. If you don’t mind, you can call me uncle.”
The author has something to say:
The kind of scum male Fake Lou is, is very good at confusing others.
He’s especially good with sweet speech and honeyed words, and can guess exactly what you want to hear. When in a relationship, he can always make his partner very happy.
When he has to admit his mistakes, his tongue becomes even more slippery, able to promptly reflect on himself, and having a good attitude.
Typical characteristics of this kind of selfish white lotus scum are:
One, when in a relationship, the only thing he can offer is his words.
Two, it’s especially easy for him to move himself.
When breaking up, he’ll also be like this, all the mistakes are yours, he’s nothing but a pure and innocent white lotus.
baum: just. fk you, lou sifan.
sere: what an ass. But also why is uncle so handsome seems like an important chara
panda: You know it’s an important character when he’s handsome XD
Why is everyone forgetting about the NPC?
I don’t think he’s the NPC tho. I think the uncle is. CXC would never be fooled by a fake white lotus. I think even pig brain knows that.
I’m betting the uncle might be the NPC.
What is pig brain’s plan here? For CXC to actually choose to stay in this shitty world with an even shittier faux Lou Ying?
This story just stabs you without any mercy. But is also very truthful, there are so many people, who are so bad at picking up human emotions and fail at human interations miserably, for whom a little bit of sunshine turns out their best dream but also the worst nightmare.
Poor baby Dong Ge.
You always know the right things to say. Always so interesting, intelligent and articulate. I think I might be falling in love with you…
Oh man oh man, I thought I was in love with this story up till now, but now? It’s so brutally written, so very clear what kind of person Lou Sifan is, all just from a handful of words, of behaviors. I just, I love everything about this chapter so much. I know I should be worried re the developments in this arc, but just seeing ally Sifan illustrated like this, revealed as this particular kind of slime, is almost satisfying enough.
Thanks for the chapter <3
That scum man never say anything back but he dare to think if he always praising He Changsheng, Dong Ge will retreat! In the end he didn’t want to be blamed but he blamed Dong Ge for everything. Seriously, dude, are you sane?
You’re the first one who start all of it and now you blaming him?! He even willing receive an ‘amateur’ like you, endure the pain and you still blaming him for everything?! If you don’t want to be a relationship with him, why you still sleep with him tho?!
Fck, I’m so mad and I really want punch his face. This fake white lotus make me so sick.
Thanks for the hard work love the story ^_^
I KNEW IT.
fuck everything.
dong ge should snatch han changsheng like han-ge is the tiara at a miss america pageant.
i mean. not like- lsf but like platonically.
and become his trusted pampered junior. who needs to be saved from a blackened lsf.
i bet cxc can act a better white lotus bitch than lousifuckhole.
thank you for the translation. i am BURNING FOR THE COUNTERATTACK.
also xcx needs to call out for 061 or his uncle and have the wrong one answer
Rather than a white lotus, I feel like CXC might make an ice (cool) emperor (dominering CEO) or wild cool guy that everyone looks up to.
absolutely true but right now, he isn’t our lovely cxc.
he is the haplessly ignorant and bullied dong ge who was led astray.
Thanks for the chapter! ^ ^
That scum doesn’t even deserve to have HCS as a friend, hmph. Steal him away, CXC!!!! Let that scum experience what it is like to have his white moonlight look at him like he’s the trash he is UvU.
Ohoho, handsome uncle time~. Thanks for the chapter!
LSF is pure s c u m ! Istg HCS doesn’t deserve such trash even as a friend! Hopefully, CXC can bring DG closer to HCS even if they don’t get together. I’m not sure after what LSF did, DG is really in a state to get into a relationship.
Anyway, got my eyes out for the suspiciously good looking uncle who may or may not end up important. High chance that the dude is part of pig brain’s plan since there wasn’t an uncle mentioned originally.
Thanks for the chapter! 🙂
Yo!
Did you forget that pig brain’s move was only related to LSF (being a Lou-ge, gentle and other things similar to CXC’s Lou-ge) and 061 said that since that 🐖 brain was going against the rules he would also do the same, that is the npc he said another chapter (puppet)
DHGDJJ I HAVE THE MEMORY OF A GOLDFISH! I read countless stuff at the same time so I have a habit of confusing or forgetting details sometimes oops ^^;
I kind of want Chi Xiaochi to become He Changsheng‘s close junior and match make him and the uncle. Let Lu Sifan suffer by watching them all live well without him, especially as he’s not willing to go further with He Changsheng just watching and using Dong Ge.
Make sifan think he is using dong ge first and then realized he was being played with but every thing he has is already ruined. No lover, no career, no friends, no money 😈
I need to read something happy (/_;)
and that was panda note, if he is handsome, he is an important character (≧∇≦)
Thank you for the chapter (/◕ヮ◕)/
Scum man Lou shite deserves to die 🔪🔪🔪🔪. He even tried to manipulate it all on baby Ge. 🤬🤬🤬🤬 I feel like that “Handsome Uncle” was sent by ugly pig brained to try and make baby Ge lose. Die stupid Lou shite. Hoping Lou shite gets a life worse than death or zuo to death.
Lou Sifan is the kind of man I hate the most! Even more than last arc’s scum gong! Men who take advantage of their juniors and then throw them away are worse than trash. It’s even worse when they blame the whole relationship on the younger one. Poor Dong Ge. 🙁 Yes, he was arrogant, but he was only a child! No one gave him the chance to know better.
I cried so much because of this chapter. I’m so sorry and sad for you, Dong Ge. You deserve better. Much better. And I very much look forward to Chi Xiaochi’s moves to make that bastard pay. Revenge is such a sweet and lovely thing, after all.
This author’s note just made me think of someone who I know that seems to be starting a relationship with such scum…….
Thanks for the chapter!
don’t worry folks, that scum gets what he deserves and Dong gets his redacted for spoilers…. 😄😘
This Scum is truly hateful. Yeah, you want to break with him, but then you keep string him along. Hypocrite.
Thanks for the chapter!
Ouch, I already have an inkling it’d be related to ice-skating injury, but…. Fuck. Chichi baby, please burn that fucking piece of scum hard.
The urging rage to just slide over this fake Lou Sifan’s body with a pair of ice skating blades is real.
+1
Fk u lou-jerk-fan. How dare he do that?!!! I cant believe this… Urrghh i wanna choke, no, drown him to death 😡
Aye! handsome uncle trigerred!
I’m binging this right now but can i say that this author is truly doing her part for society in letting us recognise what sort of scums should be thrown out the door once we see the symptoms? Boys and Girls, let’s listen to this big sister.
Now work your plan CXC! Make that trash labelled LSF know his place, he belongs in the garbage dump. Get close to HCS, have a relationship with him and let him experience sufferings greater than what the pitiful original get. Thanks for the translation.
i feel like i am gonna see a lot of lou ying’s shadows in this arc
This is one of the best CN novels Ive ever read tbh. Cant wait to read more.
LS is such a dick. I wish DG had friends to point that out for him. 🙁
I actually had this type of boyfriend! Thank goodness I broke up before becoming emotionally too involved!
i want to break Sifan’s legs 🙂
This is why I prefer people who have a “public vices, private virtues” way of life. At least that sort won’t stab you repeatedly at the back like asshole white lotuses like fake Lou or Yang Baihua.
This Sifan fellow is such a jerk. Ima tilt.
Also, thanks for the chapter.
Go and fuck your fucking shithole Lou sifan
CXC cried seeing DG’s memories…. it’s implied by the wiping his eyes mentioned after he takes out his bun
Painful.
When breaking up, he’ll also be like this, all the mistakes are yours, he’s nothing but a pure and innocent white lotus * f*ck what a trash thank god our family’s Lou-ge is more cute <3333
Ah ;-;
Pat and hugs Xiao ge
I wonder who this uncle is.
Seems mysterious, tho at least pig brain didn’t plaster his face with Lou ge’s :3
Thanks for the chapter! 🍀
Thank you for the chapter!
My heart is aching.. Last scum gong was a psycho but at least he wasn’t that fake. Trash family and trash boyfriend destroyed a beautiful kid.
I’m sad. And worried about that uncle. An unknown variable isn’t a good thing.😬
Oh my really like the original story 👀 poor Dong Ge but that’s a really good dog-blood story for me Ψ(≧ω≦)Ψ
ahhhh so sad!! I really dislike Lou Sifan now… using someone like that is terrible. Even He Changsheng was wronged here – his best friend turned out to be so two faced. Also, now I’m curious about this uncle!! Why did he get such a handsome description!! he must definitely be important lolol
I want to beat, burn, and also drown the target to death.
Thanks for the chap!
I can already see where the regret is going to come from. Make him regret so much he’ll want to die. Though I hope it’ll be more than just losing He Changfeng’s friendship. If it weren’t for the MC being Chi Xiaochi, I’d wish he becomes He Changfeng’s boyfriend.
Every arc’s original story is just too much. It’s not a story where you joyfully look forward to the scum getting his due, it’s the kind where you gnash your teeth and itch to rip the scum apart.
But these villains very well fleshed out. I begrudgingly like them.
When ever I hear the orignal’s backstory, I can’t help but shed tears…. such pitiful babies ㅠ^ㅠ
This fake white lotus 🔪 i hope he get what he deserve >:((
Man i hope Dong Ge had a happiness ;;;; he so sincere.
Thank you for the chapter ❤️
i got lou sifan’s name wrong in my last comment oops. URGHH FUVK YOU YIY SON OF A- IDVWOXNDODFJIEBDKDND
What the f*ck. I feel so sad for Dong Ge’s unrequited love 😭😭😭😭😭
So, like Lou Sifan felt threatened with Dong Ge since He Changsheng’s interested in him? I just wish He Changsheng and the original Dong Ge end up together omg 😭
I think this 3rd arc more bearable than the doggie killer story😬
Fake to the right of him, fake to the left of him… Keep your cool CXC and your knife ready! 061 protect mode!
However, he “conveniently” left out the part where this continued for five years into his late 20s and he never tried to reciprocate DG’s efforts. Plus, those emotions he talked about probably didn’t actually exist and he just wanted a cheap sex doll.
Before it was a controlling phoenix man, then a crazy and abusive pervert, and now the gaslighting king is here 🤩🤩🤩
Disgusting.
What an absolute scum 😢
Poor Dong Ge…. 😭
Fuck his uncle indeed 🤬
If I can go inside and slap that scum, I will (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻
fu Lou Sifan for trying to sully Lou-ge’s name 눈_눈
😂😂😂😂 Justice for us ordinary looking people 🥲🥲
Bawls lungs out
I from the very first time shipped Dong Ge and that He guy idk more about him tho anyway I hope it’d end up with Dong Ge being a perfect solo genius
hmm hmm. honestly, I still don’t understand why some people prefer to lie and push their partners the way Lou Sifan did. How hard is it to be honest when breaking up? but at the same time, I also know some people who can’t handle the pain of breaking up and prefer his way but still… I rather take the pain in one go than realize that I’ve been stupidly believing someone love me when they don’t. my ego can’t take that. Thank you for the chapter
Ugh this is my favorite arc so I keep coming back to reread it and every single time I end up crying at this part. ;-;
This novel is really giving me good relationship advices. What sort of men to avoid and what they do to manipulate and gaslight you. Thankyou to the author, editors and translator for this great piece of work.