translator: baumkuchen editors: serefina, glitterypanda
After he hung up, 061 asked him, “……Want to go take a look?”
Chi Xiaochi, “Of course.”
Regardless of his misgivings, this “uncle”’s identity had been personally verified by Dong Ge’s mother. There likely wouldn’t be anything wrong.
Half an hour later, Chi Xiaochi, bundled up in a pitch black down jacket, sat by the already frozen over decorative pond by the entrance to the sports school, waiting for this unknown uncle’s arrival.
It had been a long time since Dong Ge had received a haircut. It had grown to become shoulder-length and was tied into simple ponytail at the back of his head by a black hairband.
With nothing better to do, Chi Xiaochi undid his ponytail and tied his hair into a little bun.
This was the hairstyle Lou Sifan had usually put Dong Ge’s hair into in the past.
Dong Ge didn’t like cutting his hair. In order for it to not impact his performance during competitions, Lou Sifan would always come to his dorm room before competitions and help him put it into a bun.
From the age of 19 to 24, for a full five years, he had been in a secret relationship with Lou Sifan.
During this period, Dong Ge felt that he was blessed, but was occasionally a little dissatisfied.
Other than the He Changsheng who had all along been a faint presence standing between them, he still had another equally big load on his mind.
—— Dong Ge actually didn’t like being on the bottom.
But every time he brought it up to Lou Sifan, Lou Sifan would always smile and say, then next time, I’ll let you top next time.
His tone was completely as if he was coaxing a little kid, and as to when exactly the so-called “next time” would come, only the heavens knew.
Dong Ge brought it up a few times before dropping it.
He reasoned with himself: nevermind, it was really painful anyways, Lou Sifan might not be able to take it.
However, as time passed, Dong Ge’s way of thinking changed.
He always thought that it was just him being too sensitive, but Lou Sifan and He Changsheng’s “friendship” was truly eternal. Even after Lou Sifan and him got together in secret, most of the time, Lou Sifan would still go everywhere with He Changsheng.
Dong Ge would always follow behind Lou Sifan like a little lackey, staring at He Changsheng, lost in thought.
Why didn’t he know to not get in their way?
Didn’t he have any other friends? Why did he have to monopolise Lou-ge’s time?
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Nevertheless, their behaviour never went over the line. They were really and truly a pair of very proper good friends. Even if Dong Ge wanted to look for bones in the chicken egg, there wasn’t a single point to get angry about to be found.
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He Changsheng was like a needle wedged in Dong Ge’s flesh, making him feel a burst of piercing pain from time to time.
Later on, even without needing Lou Sifan to bring it up, Dong Ge would subconsciously make He Changsheng his target for comparison and competition.
Clearly, one was a pair skater, and the other was a single skater. Their professions didn’t conflict at all, but Dong Ge couldn’t help but compare himself to He Changsheng.
In this Petri dish Lou Sifan had personally prepared, those negative emotions continued to flourish.
Dong Ge’s hatred of He Changsheng grew and grew, until one day, those negative emotions reached their peak.
It was a weekend.
As usual, Lou Sifan went to the pair skater’s practice rink to find He Changsheng, to practice and chat together with him, and Dong Ge also followed him as usual.
Since yesterday, Lou Sifan had been in an inexplicably bad mood. That morning, he had even barely touched his breakfast.
Dong Ge was worried that he would catch a chill. After skating for a while, he got out and left the training area, slipping over to the vending machine and buying a can of hot coffee. Worried that the coffee would get cold, he held it in his hands and slipped back as quickly as possible.
Just as he walked over to the side of the rink, he unexpectedly saw Lou Sifan directing a rare ugly look towards He Changsheng. He adopted a manner like he was conducting an interrogation. “Who was that guy with you when I came to find you yesterday?”
Dong Ge stopped. He began to listen carefully.
He Changsheng’s attitude was very mild. “A friend introduced him to me. I was having a meal with him, that’s all.”
Lou Sifan was unwilling to stop pushing. “Just a meal?”
He Changsheng said calmly, “I haven’t been in a single relationship for so many years, I want to try dating. Just testing the waters, no one says we have to get together. ……What are you so anxious about?”
He then asked, “Since it’s a date, why did you go find a man?”
He Changsheng shot him a look. “You’re homophobic?”
Lou Sifan said, “……I’m not. I just never thought that you were also……”
He Changsheng, “……’Also’?”
Lou Sifan, “I know about two or three couples in the team. It’s not strange.”
He Changsheng, “Oh.”
Lou Sifan paused for a moment. He asked tentatively, “Would you rather be on the top or on the bottom?”
He Changsheng, “……We haven’t even compared our Eight Characters. You’re really thinking ahead for me.”
Having been friends for so many years, He Changsheng did not consider such a question offensive.
A hint of a smile appeared on He Changsheng’s eternally iceberg-like face. “I haven’t really thought about it, and I don’t plan on casually testing it out. I might prefer to be on top, but if I like it enough, being on the bottom wouldn’t be so bad either.”
Lou Sifan said, “If you’re going to get intimate with someone else, being on top is always better.”
He Changsheng said, “Why?”
Lou Sifan replied in a joking tone, “Being on the bottom is so humiliating ah, and it also hurts. Even if you want to be on the bottom, then you’ll have to find a caring person.”
The coffee in Dong Ge’s hand felt as if it had turned into a soldering iron, searing into his palm, the burning pain making his entire body tremble.
……“Being on the bottom is so humiliating ah.”
……“It also hurts.”
So it turned out, he knew.
Dong Ge suddenly felt like the him who had gladly endured that kind of pain and seen himself as blessed, was a fool.
Because of this, he got into an argument with Lou Sifan.
After finding out the reason behind his anger, Lou Sifan very patiently coaxed him and admitted his wrongs, saying that he was just saying it casually, he wasn’t serious, if it was really that bad he could let Dong Ge have a go at being on top, and to take that as his apology.
Even though they eventually still reconciled, a prickly sense of jealousy and crisis had already crawled into Dong Ge’s heart.
He had been constantly criticised by his parents growing up, to the extent that a deep-rooted concept that been branded onto his heart.
——Not being liked by others was because he wasn’t good enough.
Even if he had already won innumerable championships at Grand Prix Finals both within the country and abroad at a young age and set a domestic record, Dong Ge still felt like it wasn’t enough.
Shortly after that, Dong Ge was faced with an important international competition.
When he was preparing for the competition, something happened: Lou Sifan brought him out to play with He Changsheng.
Since their last conversation, Lou Sifan’s frequency of looking for He Changsheng had increased significantly, and his reason was also very reasonable.
Lou Sifan gently said to Dong Ge, “Changsheng is an expert choreographer, if you let him, your senior, give you some guidance, your results will improve significantly.”
During this practice session, He Changsheng had a momentary breakthrough, performing a jump sequence of 4T+3A.
Because it was just in practice, He Changsheng performed this difficult singles jump sequence quite easily.
Lou Sifan cheered him on, smiling and saying, “Changsheng, the points you would get for this sequence could break the Asian record.”
He Changsheng said, “Don’t talk nonsense. I’m just jumping around in private. If it was in a competition, I’m not sure I would be able to do this well.”
Lou Sifan smiled and turned to Dong Ge, saying, “See your He-qianbei? You need to practice well, you got that?”
Sitting by the side of the rink, Dong Ge lowered his head and tied up the shoelaces of his skates. “……En, got it.”
A few days later, when he and the coach were discussing tactics, Dong Ge didn’t hesitate at all. “4lz+3T.”
The coach advised him to not take risks. Although Dong Ge’s jumping level was first-class, these movements were too difficult. For Dong Ge, the number one thing he should be pursuing was stability, he had a good chance of earning points with his step sequence.
Dong Ge said stubbornly, “I can do it.”
Since that He Changsheng could do it, then he definitely could as well.
……That was a decision Dong Ge would regret for the rest of his life.
Like He Changsheng had said, one’s performance in competitions and one’s performance in private were two different things.
Under the pressure of an away battle and the competitive atmosphere, Dong Ge stubbornly stood up to the challenge, performing the most difficult 4lz movement perfectly.
The issue lay with his second jump.
Due to him failing to control his landing, he lost his centre of gravity. His skates slipped and he fell heavily on the ice.
Dong Ge’s coach wrung his wrists and sighed, thinking, it was a pity, but he might be missing the cup this time.
But soon, he realised something was wrong.
Dong Ge lay on the ice. As the accompanying music continued to play, no matter how he tried, he couldn’t get up.
With a cry of shock, he signalled to the referee team and rushed onto the rink.
Dong Ge’s entire body shivered with pain. He curled up into a ball. As his warm sweat dripped onto the ice, he murmured in a low voice, “……My leg, my leg.”
sere: what a terrible cliff but it only gets worse
baum: on another note, I’m kinda glad the author brought up the not switching issue? it’s always kinda rubbed me the wrong way when the person on the bottom wants to try being on top and the guy on top is always SUPER against it. I think I’ve even seen one where the guy on top kneed the guy trying to top for once in the crotch :v like, why? if you think it’s that bad, why would you make someone you love go through with that?
also, let me know if I’ve got the skating gifs wrong! I don’t really know much, my friend’s the fan not me lmao
Thanks for the chapter o(≧∇≦o)
There are only 2 BL that I’ve read that had the top try to be a bottom (the tittle was something like my wang fei is a man or something) and the other that however was on better health or won something was the top (though the mc was mainly on bottom…… and I forgot the tittle…… the story starts with mc and ML being kind of enemies, got drunk, the mc treated the ML as a little husband and bedded/topping him)…….. it’s really rare
I’m concerned at the changes to this world.
Really hope mc grates the fuxkers legs this time….into shreds
Considering our beloved MC CXC… he’ll do a thousand fold revenge for the original’s sake… see what he did to the previous old man that’s trash?
🤬🔪🔪🔪 Stab, Stab, Stabs Lou Sifan!! Such a slag man!! I HATE HIM!!TY for the chapter~ I will go throw up now coz he was utterly nauseating
+1
I also agree…. the whole “top and bottom is set in steel” kind of concept prevalent in so many BLs….. might as well be BG if the authors are so against switching.
My heart is aching just seeing the downward pathway Dong Ge is going down. I wonder if thr final breaking point would be discovering LSF and HCS getting together. aha…..
Thanks for the update.
It is based on preference so there is nothing wrong with a “Seme×Uke” concept in BL.
The concepts of “Versa” and “Jousoseme” are usually not tackled in most BLs, true, but it’s not the preference of the authors so you may as well respect that.
In a BG as well, the concept of “Boy×Girl” is prevalent as well. However, you don’t usually see the girl topping or rather pegging the boy, don’t you?
So don’t make it sound like the authors are against such. It’s their preference.
Yes there’s nothing wrong with a Seme x Uke concept (as being a “top” or a “bottom” /is/ reflected in real life), but the sheer prevalence of that semeXuke preference among female authors seems to point to an inherent homophobia within the BL community that does not allow for non-heteronormative representations of gay relationships (which, quite frankly, aren’t even heteronormative in the first place). So that’s why people are bothered by the overwhelming mountain-load of authors who have such a “preference.” Hope that made sense.
Then write one yourself. Besides, you guys are quick to assume that the authors have apparently an ‘inherent’ homophobia. If you want to address the issue then write a story that suits your preference, promote it, and encourage like minded people to do the same. Because the way I see it, you two are judging others for their preference…or rather you frown upon the seme×uke concept.
It’s harmful and really just feeds into the idea that LGBT relationships are a twisted version of “normal” straight couples because the top is bigger/more masculine and the bottom is smaller/more feminine. If I wrote a story on mental health but only stuck to the romantic, Hollywood version then I’d be harming people who have to live with these problems and other people’s perceptions of them. Art doesn’t exist in a vacuum.
Honestly, kudos to the author for actually talking about this problem. If you want to defend someone, go find those authors who have zero knowledge of gay sex and act like lube and prep isn’t necessary
The problem in BL/danmei/yaoi I see is that the author always assign gender roles to each person in the gay relationship. One is always the masculine one (handsome, tall, muscular, tanned, CEO) while the other the more feminine (pretty, short, scrawny, pale, a regular employee). I’m always uncomfortable when an author stresses that.
You sound straight lmao.
I love you @Red Like Roses.
You’ve said it all +1000000001!!?
This is a very huge +1001 from me. Like,maybe it’s just me, or NOT, but like, most of the time, the bottom is weaker, smaller, so soft and cute and blah-blah-blah. It actually has reached a point where I just get the frick frack OUT of there if I see something like this. Like, aren’t they “socially” men? So, according to beliefs, they both should be strong, because duuuuhhh, I do NOT think anyone in the LGBTQ+ community is weak because: HATERS?? HOMOPHOBES?? WEIRDOS??. So yeah.
Me, when saw the notification update: God, it’s here….
Me, after reading half chapter: ……Why Am I abusing myself like this?
Me, after finishing the whole chapter: *CRYING WHILE HUGGING MY PILLOW*
Lou Sifan, I hope in this life, you will lose your leg too 🔪🔪🔪🔪
GO XCX! MAKE THAT SCUM GONG GO TO HELL!
Thank you for updating this chapter :”’)
Literally your leg and your third leg!! 🔪🔪🔪🔪
But I wonder which path will CXC make for DG? 🤔
I wonder if he will make HCS get a lover soon, or ruin LSF or even get HCS to be with DG (HCS as 0 and DG as 1)?……. it actually doesn’t seen totally impossible since HCS did get attracted by the “wild DG” (the previous DG looked just like a lackey and had all his coolness score hit bottom)🤔
Thanks for the chapter!
I kinda hoping XCX make DG and HCS together! It will be a great show~~
Imagine LSF’s face when he know DG and HCS being together~~
Spoiler. The short answer is…yes.
WOAH! I want to laughing so hard right now 😂😂
Nice. I very happy because LSF will have miserable future now~~
I will waiting patiently for this scene~~
Thanks for the chapter! ^ ^
I am actuakky quite sensitive about things like losüng something you like doing it because of someone else( family,friends,lover etc.) in this life it is such a hard thing to find smth you love doing it and losing it like this… and in dong ge’s case this was the only thing he had. He must’ve been devastated. This is why i get so sad reading things like this. Hope Chi Xiaochi can get revenge for this. That jerk deserves to rot in hell. 🔥^🔥##
Lou Sifan always wants to top despite apparently sucking at sex. Go figure.
Lou Sifan, if you love your friend so much, then Go marry him and let this Child alone.
Thanks for the chapter!
About the Top and Bottom thing. I’m very glad the author is including Vers guys in their stories since you really don’t see that much in bl novels. Unfortunately the whole Tops refusing to bottom like it’s going to ruin their life thing is true. A lot of tops are really like that.
I really hope Chi Xiaochi beats them to pulp. Thank you for translating
if the top does it properly, it shouldn’t be painful, right?
more reasons why LSF is a massive asshat! ᶘ ᵒᴥᵒᶅ
It’s interesting that the author brought up the switching thing.
Thanks for translating!
how to survive a cliffy. ask a cultivator to make an ‘endure’ pill
but this world is emotionally abusive for a reader
A danmei novel that calls out the weird negative tropes in m/m stories all around the world… Ah, this novel owns my heart.
Thanks for translating!
Thanks for the hard work love the story ^_^
Like everyone else, I’m glad the author raising this issue. Well, if the story has characters are being depicted as totally agree with being bottom, it’s not a problem. But when the 1 is outrightly saying “it’s humiliating” or don’t want to bottom because “it hurts” I really want to slap him and scream: “then just get a girlfriend! Oh scratch that. Maybe your girlfriend will even prefer dildo than your dick since your technique sucks big time!”
Thanks for the translation.
Oh My God he is a BIG BIG BIG jerk!!😡 im feeling sorry for our poor DongGe (the ori one) hope our XiaoChi will get revenge for him.
Thanks for the chapter 😊
Being strung along just because LS thought the other guy was unavailable. Ouch. I feel for you DG.
I can relate. Always being the second best, and youre paranoia of your partner leaving you for that other person.
What a jerk.
When it comes to positions, I always assume they share and do what feels good to them unless told otherwise. Whatever they decided to do or even if they don’t like anal sex, whatever they want to do is their business. The only time it matters is in smut, and any smut written well can be good smut.
Remind of YOI…it’s has been a while since last watch it…
Love is blind. If I heard words like that behind my back, might as well kick him off….in the end is not worth it at all…..
Ah, but let’s see how our CXC will handle this…
Thanks for another chapter!
I am a little bit late but I love how you includes gif to show us the jumps ♡
I am a big fan of Hanyu Yuzuru and admire figure skating since it’s such a beautiful but yet dangerous sport.
This arc is so interesting and the author surprises me everytime with such simple but yet engaging well written plot!
Thanks for translating!!!!
He seems to be a good guy, the trash is Sifan… They should both ditch Sifan xD
This is totally unrelated but seeing Yuzuru Hanyu in the gif provided made me want to comment. Gosh. I love him and the way he skates
KYAAAA YUZURU! AH LICK LICK LICK! LOVE MUAH MUAH MUAH 3
Scum got jealous, so he ruined him? Anyways, it’s suspicious that he was “drunk” as well considering our little Dong Ge was blocking the drinks. A scheme, I suspect
U have got yuzuru hanyu… what more do i need!!!
This trash should be in the trash bin na
flashbacks to the angsty YOI fanfics where a character somehow injures themself and lose the ability to skate
Thank you for the chapter!
I actually kinda thrown off a pair skater can do 4T+3A because this is not just difficult but extremely difficult. The only person I know can pull this off is Yuzuru Hanyu 🙂 but again I shouldn’t have expect much
I’m sorry but I mostly skipped through the original’s past. I’m sick right now and I don’t think I cam handle any more pain.
I was reading this with a cramped face, the heat slowly raising and I boiled at “being the bottom is humiliating and painful”. Why would it be?? Are you saying all women are in a humiliating position, or that a man shouldn’t do it like a woman? It’s not humiliating!! And it only hurts because you suck!! You suck at sex and anything else!!
Will he leave him??
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The 4T+3A gif.. is it Yuzuru Hanyu? (・o・)
As a dancer and an artist, to me, my hands and legs are more important than my face. Once in a performance, one of the seniors landed heavier than expected on his knee, and it dislocated. He still insisted on dancing his way backstage, which later ended his preforming career. And it affected his daily life too, a man who we depended on to leap across a 3 meter stage, now can’t walk more than 30 minutes without a break.
I would love, LOVE a reversible couple BL.
I’m going through physical pain reading this
Puts down toilet brush. Picks up kitchen knife….
I love how this switching issue was brought up. The author is bringing up many things for me to think on and I love it. I’ve only read one book where the mc was the bottom and top and both parties were very willing and happy about it. I think it was called “Making my Naive Master Love Only Me.” And I’m the type of person where in most both I’m always on the MC side, no matter what because what they do can be considerably understable. I just think this whole thing is fascinating. Says the psychology major (‘: lmao.
Oh no
I have a love hate relationship with this novel (๑•́^ก̀๑) I love the way the author goes so deep into the plot and puts so much thought into it, but I hate it when I want to reread it because then I either have to skim through or suffer through another round of tears O(╥﹏╥)O
This is my favourite arc, simply because Lou Sifan is such a bastard that it angers me, but knowing CXC will obliterate him soothes my heart.
All the novels/ manhwas I’ve read, almost in 99.99% of them the couples never switch.. The tops are super insensitive too.. They keep on pounding into their partners even when the bottoms practically beg them to stop.. They just never stop.. In many scenes the shous faint and yet the gongs continue their thrusting..
I never understood how these type of things could be praised as romantic.. If only the shous did the same thing to their gongs, would they understand the pain.. Unfortunately it never happen in stories..
Was that yuzu my dear 😭
I knew that when Lou guy said to He guy that Dong Ge was reminding of him to him that’s why he was interested in him it’s the worst…Dong Ge was already a genius himself but just because of that stupid whore he now won’t be able to do the thing he most loved
dang i expected this as much. im upset. thanks for the chapter
I think that’s why I like versatile shit. Like it depends on the mood and energy right? Though I suppose not every couple is like that but I really want a genre that’s like that but until now I haven’t read one novel that has versatile characters. Jokes on me🥲
So LSF is pursuing HCS as a top or bottom? If LSF hates the idea of bottoming (cause he obviously has no sort of skill) why is he sorta encouraging HCS to be the one to top? Is he gonna be mindful because its HCS, and actually show consideration in bed; or is he willing to “suffer” for the sake of HCS and bottom?
Dong ge deserves a love filled beating ASAAAAAAAAAAA why is your brain offline you are obviously sooo good since he is scum wile him clean AAAHHHHHHHHHHHH fuck castrate that scum and see if he dares to top then 😭😭😭😭😭😭 fck those silent malicious guidance by scum 😭 dong ge you don’t understand your WORTHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHH WUUUUU WUUUUU 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Thinking that bottom is a humiliating position is just another instance of homophobia. I’m glad the author addresses this. I’ve seen so many BLs were the gong is so adverse to being the bottom even once, and I’m like “if you hate it so much, why do you constantly put the person you so deeply love in such position”