At the end of that year, winter seemed to come very late. It wasn’t until mid-December that the first snow in winter fell, gently and finely.
“Feili, the moon tonight is beautiful. Do you want to see it? I know you always like to watch the moon. Although it’s snowing outside, it doesn’t matter. I won’t let it freeze you.”
Beitang Ao smiled, took a big fur coat, and carefully dressed it for Yan Feili. Then he gently picked him up, came to the courtyard, and sat down in the warm pavilion.
The scene was most beautiful at this time. The white and silver snow was bright and soft, exuding elegant charm.
Beitang Ao said softly, “The first time I saw you, it was also on such a night. The moon was round and bright that night, and the weather was equally cold. You rushed up from behind the mountainside on a horse with a long sword in your hand, a black uniform, heroic, tall, and handsome. At the time, I didn’t know where you came from and planned to chase down the idiot who got a share of Emperor Jian. But seeing you, I feel a little surprised. Then you got off the horse, walked in front of me, and looked straight at me…”
Beitang Ao helped Yan Feili wrap the thick and soft fur, leaning against the warm couch, and hugged him tighter.
“It was the first time I saw you. Others have never looked at me with such eyes. Very clean and clear. And so frank, so direct, as if there was a kind of flame jumping. At that time, I thought, a guy who would look at me with such eyes must stay by my side.”
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Beitang Ao chuckled a bit.
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“At that time, the sword in my hand, as long as I swipe it lightly, you will not leave any traces in this world. But it was quite strange. I didn’t even turn this thought. Then, you turned around and looked at me. The look in your eyes… I will never forget.”
Outside the warm pavilion, snow fell, moonlight shines, and silver sheen was everywhere.
Beitang Ao looked confused and plunged into distant memories.
“I asked if you would like to go with me, and you agreed without hesitation. You were the leader of Pan Jun, with so many brothers, it was better to find a foothold in the troubled times than to subdue others. But you agreed so happy that I had to doubt your intentions for a while… I made you swear that you will live to follow me, and you will never betray me. You do not hesitate to follow suit.”
“Then, I took you back to Tienmen and broke the rules. Many people refused to accept and tried to find you troubles. I knew of their schemes, but I turn a blind eye to see how you solve them… I did not expect that you weren’t troubled, and in half a year, you convinced them. You are mild-tempered, popular, and you can easily mingle with others. But to avoid suspicion, you have to slowly alienate your original brother… For many years, you have never been genuine with anyone, carefully keeping a distance from everyone and just following me wholeheartedly.
“In the beginning, I would wonder why you were willing to give up so much. However, I gradually got used to it and took you for granted. Thinking about it now, I was dull and stubborn.”
The cold wind blows snows that fluttered over. They hit the tent of the warm pavilion, causing a slight movement. But the warmth in the pavilion was not affected. The wind was floating, faint, like a human sigh.
Beitang Ao stretched out his hand to touch Yan Feili’s eyebrows. His eyes showed tenderness, and he lowered his head and kissed Yan Feili’s temple tenderly.
“Feili, why do you fall in love with me? You know, I am a person who is indifferent, cold and doesn’t care about anyone. I am not good-looking, don’t like women, and naturally don’t like men. There are many in this world, and I can’t care about anything.”
“But I fell in love with you like this. It is destined…”
“In the Demon Forest that day, I was not afraid of whatever poison I got, but they chose to use a love potion. I was unconscious and didn’t know how much it hurt you. I still remember the blood on the grass, which was shocking. But you didn’t complain at all… I know you were wronged. When this happened, I think you didn’t say it, but you must have minded it in your heart. I went to the Ming Kingdom and left you in Jianjing. I knew you didn’t want to go and I didn’t take you with me. I treated you with an indifferent attitude at the time. Did you blame me? Have you ever blamed me?”
The man in his arms was calm, his eyelashes trembling lightly. It seemed that his dream was deep, and he didn’t bother the troubled world.
Beitang Ao sighed and said softly, “Everything I did something, you didn’t blame me. I took Li’er away, and you didn’t complain. I married Lin Yanyan, and you didn’t show your dissatisfaction. How can you be so tolerant of me?”
“Oh! I don’t know when you have become so important. Before I found out, I had left the business behind and rushed to the battlefield against the Yue and Jian Kingdoms. At that time, I only vaguely understood my mind, but I always find it very impossible.”
Beitang Ao stroked Yan Feili’s thin lips, and the kiss could not help but fall in the above.
“I love you! I am in love with a man! And thank the gods, that man is you! I am really lucky, Feili. Feili…” Beitang Ao murmured with a light voice like a long sigh, “I will not let you go. We are together and will never be separated…”
A tear of joy like a long whisper fell from the pale face. It was melancholy.
Beitang Ao bowed his head with the tip of his tongue lightly pointed and rolled this precious tear between each other’s lips and teeth…
──End──
*Please give me until April 18th. I’m sorry that I went off the grid for a while. Stuff happened.
Shi Shi’s extras for this novel can be a whole other novel… After that, I will be releasing daily again. Thank you for sticking with yours truly
Also, I am allowing myself to reply, so comment away On a similar note, I plan to translate Locked in Love (about Yaohui and Yaori) so I will not be replying about them, but feel free to speculate.
So…it is okay? YF is okay? This feels so sad, like a farewell…just say he is okay! 😭
And thank you so much for your translation! I really enjoyed reading this novel!
I think Feili is in coma.. But he can listen everything, so tears rolled down his face..
So…he’s not dead right? Thank you for the updates thought. I really love this story. DO you have any other recommendations that are like this story?
Did u read ” praying fate” ?? It’s a modern version of this novel .. And “my wangfei is a man”… This is the next generation story of this novel.. Where we can find out more about Feili’s twin baby..
Is there an English translation of it?
Thank you very much for your hard work! I really like this novel, despite Beitang being an ass for most of the time!
Good luck on your midterms!
Good luck for your midterm🤞.. Fight hard 💪… Thanks a lot for your hard work..
Thank you so much for your very hard work!!!!!! Appreciated more than I can say!!
Thank you for translating this novel!
Even is sometimes difficult events happened and this ending is bitter-sweet, it was worth reading
I hope (and I think he will) Yan Feili will wake up and they will be happy together…
*if
Thank you for your translation! The end was very, very sad, my hope is to meet BA and YF again in your next translation. Good luck in you studies
Are you going to translate the other side stories about the other kids? 🥰
Staring at the Stars & Grassland
Bringing a husband home
Matchless Courtship
Good question. The short answer is I don’t know. But I hope to do so because I think Shi Shi is a really good writer. Her stories, styles, characters are good and complex.
I hope YF wakes up! This is soo sad of an ending. Best of wishes on exams!
This final is so uncertain, but is beautiful like BA describe their love’s story. Thank you missarmiston for your dedication to translate this novel, and congratulations because is a great work. I miss YF and BA! See you in april 4th!😊💖❤💖❤💖❤
I was waiting for the story of YaoRi (Great General) & YaoHui (Beautiful Emperor) for so long to be translated… Looking forward to it ♥️♥️♥️
Good luck on your midterm, and I’ll definitely wait for the extra, what happened to Feili 😥
Translator-sama: Thanks you so much for your hard work in translating the novel, and keeping with the updates! Such a good translation! Thank you so much!!!!
Ohhh~ there are other stories?! :0 imma wait for your translation then!
And the endindg was beautiful; only in the beginning i thought BA was a scum, but then if thinking clearly he wasn’t… he was human. SO I’M VERY HAPPY RN TuT
Thanks for your hard work! Good luck with your midterms!
This ending was a bit… rushed. I feel un-resigned to it. There are too many questions left to answer. I’m guessing they maybe answered in the side stories but … Anyway, I’m looking forward to it all!
Thanks for your hard work, best of luck with exams . All A’s to you. Will be happy for side stories.🤓😘
Thank you, translator! Good luck with your studies! Looking forward to reading the next chapter!
Finally, you come around, idiot! He’s given you himself and a beautiful family!
Tysm for translating the novel! And go on your midterms!!!
Thank you so much for the translation. Such a bittersweet ending. Do the extras continue Beitang and Yan Feili’s story line at all?
When will the extras start getting updated ?😞
April 18th. I’m sorry.
Ah its fynnnn !! i can wait a little longer !! you do your best !!😁
Thank you for the update!
But can some please reassure me that Feile’s not dead…..cause I’m getting worried
When is the next update??
April 18th. I’m sorry.
Ohh My gosh. You are literary the best translator I’ve ever come across. I’m just thankful that you update so please don’t apologize 🙂
Skipped from early 20s to here and was disappointed in the overall plot. It seems to be written by an amateur in the perspective of the one who falls in love first lose the game.
😭😭😭😭😭YF the amount of time my heartached for u
Truth is I don’t know how u did it but in the end u got what u needed 😊
Thank you for translating this novel! I’m excited to know Yaori and Yaohui will have their own story.
😭😭
Thank you so much for translating this novel. 🥰😭
HE’S NOT DEAD RIGHT
Bittersweet bulls***! I’m so annoyed, but a miracle should’ve happened like a divine intervention giving Feili everlasting health, youth, and a longer lifespan. I know there are extra’s but if there weren’t, It’s ending is still too heartbreaking. :_-(
TBH, I really hated the beginning of the novel but the ending is not bad. Thanks to the author and translator cause did what they could but I frankly wouldn’t recommend this novel, except you have a thing for angst and stuff.
Thank you for translating this novel~