After I Flopped on My CrushCh48 - I Love Him

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Bai Xi was baffled by what Zhao Qingtong said. rZoC4j

He could not understand why Zhao Qingtong would think this way.

During their university years, Zhao Qingtong and Qi Xun were famous for being model sweethearts. He also saw Qi Xun waiting for Zhao Qingtong to finish class, standing tall and handsome outside of the lecture room and blending into the scenery, with no trace of annoyance.

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He would pass by, and casually greet Qi Xun before leaving. During that time, he was overflowing with a sour feeling that he almost burst into tears when he got back to his room.

Zhao Qingtong saw his face and knew what Bai Xi was thinking. drlYzo

He had lost his face anyway, so he might as well not beat about the brush.

He began, “Everyone, including you, thinks he is super good to me, do you not? He would go along with everything that I asked, he does not flirt with others or argue with me. This kind of boyfriend is impossible to find even with a lantern.”

Bai Xi nodded.

He agreed as well.

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Zhao Qingtong smiled sarcastically, “I thought so at first. He is indeed very good, but he is as good as a robot. Do you understand? He won’t be jealous or angry. I will travel and camp with others. , he never asked about it, he just let me have fun. When my junior schoolmate confessed to me, he just calmly let me handle it by myself, without even looking at it. He would also make careful arrangements for me, if I plan to graduate and become a waste, and he will probably support me. But I don’t feel that I am so special to him. He is like a precision-operated machine, playing the role of boyfriend perfectly.”

Zhao Qingtong smiled sarcastically. “That is what I thought at the beginning. He was good to me, but it was like he was a robot, you know? He will not be jealous or get angry. When I traveled and camped with others, he never pried, just told me to have a good time. When the lowerclassmen confessed to me, he would just calmly let me deal with it myself without batting an eyelid. He would always make careful arrangements for me, it was as if he was fully prepared to take care of me even if my career path failed after graduation. But I do not feel like someone very special to him. He is like a machine operating flawlessly to be the perfect boyfriend.”

When Zhao Qingtong said that last part, his eyes were red, but he took a deep breath and suppressed that choked sob feeling.

He had been troubled by this failed relationship ever since. aQM3q1

But now, saying it out loud, he felt happier.

It was like a wound becoming nastier the longer it was covered. The only solution was to ruthlessly dig out the rotting flesh.

He resumed, “Afterward, I finally understood. I vigorously pursued Qi Xun for two years, and he probably felt touched by it, agreeing to be my boyfriend because he thought he had this responsibility. But what I want is not only his sense of responsibility, I want his connivance as well as his love. Is that wrong of me?”

When he said this, it was hard to distinguish if he was asking Bai Xi or himself from four years ago. udkoyE

But Bai Xi was not able to answer it.

In the beginning, he listened to Zhao Qingtong’s side of the story with a reproachful attitude, but the more he listened, the deeper his heart sank, as if something was pressing it down.

Fortunately, Zhao Qingtong was not seeking his answer.

Zhao Qingtong added, “I didn’t break up with him because I wanted to go abroad. I just deliberately quarreled with him to see how far he was willing to go for me. Later, I kissed someone else just to make him angry. I wanted to take a gamble. , as long as he has any intention of retaining me, I will not give up.” 6iLBEr

Zhao Qingtong added, “I did not break up with him because I decided to go overseas, I purposely started an argument with him to see how far he was willing to go for me. Then later, I kissed someone else to make him angry. This was my gamble. I would have gone back into his arms as long as he showed the slightest sight of wanting me.”

He stopped here.

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He blinked, and there was still a noisy infusion hall in front of him. Children were running and nurses were whispering to comfort patients. But time seemed to have stopped for a moment, and he was back to the summer more than four years ago, with cicadas chirping and green lawns. Ruhai, he deliberately kissed others downstairs in the apartment, turned around and saw Qi Xun’s livid face.

Zhao Qingtong blinked and looked around. He was still in the noisy IV lounge. The children were running and the nurses were comforting the patients in a whisper, but the time seemed to be static for a moment. He went back to the summer more than four years ago. Cicadas were buzzing in the sea of green. He deliberately kissed another right below the apartment before turning to see Qi Xun’s face. 9BJ14F

But even at that moment, Qi Xun did not lose his elegant demeanor, only said, “Excuse me.”

Then he turned, and left.

Zhao Qingtong closed his eyes and raised his head. He pulled himself out of that summer year and returned to the hospital.

His gaze fell on Bai Xi and he saw himself in Bai Xi’s eyes. xOCmiB

He whispered, “I lost my gamble. He did not choose me.”

After suffering a crushing defeat, he left without hesitation.

Since then, he has had different partners overseas. All of their passion for him was like fire, but he always felt something was missing. Four years had passed just like that, when he heard the news, he felt that he was mature enough to return home. He only wanted to see who Qi Xun wanted to marry.

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He was curious. Did the man who would be marrying Qi Xun, the person who had attained what he had failed to get? S2HCby

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But now he felt only a small disappointment. HNvaBn

He smiled at Bai Xi. “I have let go now. Qi Xun is not as good as I remember. At least he is not good for me. I have not congratulated you on your engagement yet. Although it is a bit awkward coming from an ex-boyfriend, it is truly from the bottom of my heart. To tell you the truth, I am surprised that Qi Xun can find true love and get married.”

Bai Xi did not know how to respond. But ‘true love’ these two words sounded so beautiful, but he did not dare to acknowledge them.

Because he once felt that what Qi Xun had for Zhao Qingtong back then, was the same thing he has now.

There was a time when he was very jealous of the man talking in front of him and secretly blamed him for dumping Qi Xun. IWyge6

But after learning the missing part from Zhao Qingtong’s point of view, he finally got the whole picture of the original relationship.

This made him feel complicated, and he even grieved as a comrade.

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He did not feel pleased with himself at all, because he knew too much about this struggle.

When he accepted Qi Xun’s proposal ring, he also thought about how much Qi Xun loved him. VvkQSc

Still, he blurted out, “You should not have done that to him.”

As he stared at Zhao Qingtong seriously, he protested, “Qi Xun may not be a good lover, but he has not done anything bad to you. You should not have ended things so painfully.”

It was also Qi Xun’s first love.

Qi Xun would not say a word because of pride. Even if the outcome was bitter and sad. VgMIob

Zhao Qingtong was stunned, but he quickly conceded, “You are right.”

He was in the prime of his youth and lacked experience. His current self would not have handled it so badly.

He smiled at Bai Xi and concluded, “So I will not pester him. I accepted that I had missed my chance. I tried hard to pursue him, and I had this sense of accomplishment when I won him over. But everything else all pointed to us, saying we are not suitable for each other.”

Bai Xi looked into Zhao Qingtong’s eyes. mZX50c

He knew the other person was telling the truth.

Maybe during their encounter on the island, Zhao Qingtong still had a lingering attachment towards Qi Xun, but now that he had calmly come clean, he could finally let go of his feelings.

Bai Xi nodded. “All right, I believe you.”

Zhao Qingtong had enough. He wiped his eyes with the tissue given by Bai Xi until there were no more tears left. EAQuOS

Before his flight, he would never in a million years have thought that he would be sitting with Qi Xun’s fiancé in a friendly way, and even tell Bai Xi of his past.

He felt much better after he shared it with someone.

But he still had to ask, “Are you not afraid to be bullied to death with your soft nature? You are so defenseless to everyone.” When he said this, it suddenly dawned on him. After a short pause, he wondered, “Does that mean this type is what Qi Xun digs?”

No wonder his relationship with Qi Xun did not work out. CbkJQs

Since his sadness over the passing of his first love was almost gone, the desire for gossip prevailed.

He curiously posed a question, “How did you two get together? Was it you who wooed him?”

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There was something not right about this image…Were they supposed to talk about this casually in light of their identities? But Bai Xi shook his head honestly.

Zhao Qingtong’s eyes widened. “Are you saying it was Qi Xun?” 2Wbm0l

“That is not the case either.”

Bai Xi gave the short version, “He discovered my feelings by accident. After he learned of my six years of a secret affection for him, he was moved and thought he could give us a try. We might even be suitable. During the trial run of our relationship, we got engaged.”

He did not know why he was telling Zhao Qingtong about this.

Bai Xi felt embarrassed to say it out loud. FMAmvp

But he also felt as though they were exchanging secrets.

He smiled back at Zhao Qingtong and confessed, “It was not as special as what you had in mind.”

The expression on Zhao Qingtong’s face turned more complicated.

He did not expect such an answer. That was no different from his own story. IhYSfe

He asked without realizing, “Then why did Qi Xun marry you?”

Bai Xi admitted, “I do not know either. Maybe it is because we are suitable, we get along and are happy together, or it is just about the time for him to settle down and start a family.”

Zhao Qingtong’s face became more twisted from the absurdity. After several moments of calming down, he held back the foul language he was about to spit on the other person.

He asked instead, “What about you? Why are you willing to marry Qi Xun?” CXWiH1

This time, Bai Xi answered almost at the next second, “Because I love him.”

At the mention of Qi Xun, he smiled unconsciously. It made his eyes especially gentle, and anyone could tell at first glance that he was immersed in love. When he smiled, his eyes followed and his dimples also showed themselves.

He praised, “He is very charming when he smiles at me, there is nothing that I will not do for him.”

Zhao Qingtong was dumbfounded. 1xVOF9

He examined Bai Xi from head to toe and sensed a seemingly glowing aura around the besotted man, the glow that indicates its time of salvation.

He collapsed in his seat and stared speechlessly at Bai Xi. After a long time, he muttered, “You are so stupid.”

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Bai Xi refused to take that. As he was about to argue, he heard Zhao Qingtong say the next part.

“But maybe that is the reason why it worked out between you and Qi Xun.” Zhao Qingtong admired him sincerely, “He is lucky to meet you.” emgUbl

He was extremely fortunate to be jealous.

Bai Xi’s anger immediately disappeared with a poof.

He could stand the sight of Zhao Qingtong now.

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Bai Xi stayed with Zhao Qingtong until the IV treatment was over. During that time, the atmosphere between them was less awkward after their heart-to-heart. Now they were able to reminisce about their college time.

When the bag was empty, Bai Xi thought he would be taking Zhao Qingtong back and letting the other’s friends or family care for him.

But Zhao Qingtong seemed to cling to him, complaining confidently as soon as the needle was pulled out, “I am hungry.”

Bai Xi: “?” oef3Wt

Now that Zhao Qingtong knew Bai Xi could be easily persuaded with soft words, he coughed weakly. “You’ve spent my entire hospital stay with me already. Having food with me is not much to ask. Not to mention, I am already going to have a hard time doing anything.”

Bai Xi huffed, “…Don’t push it.”

Despite that, he rented a wheelchair from the hospital half an hour later and took Zhao Qingtong to a Cantonese restaurant right outside of the hospital.

As Bai Xi ordered their food, he recited that all this was to build good karma. jxmyO6

Zhao Qingtong was smiling widely.

Unbeknownst to both, Qi Xun called amid the process of waiting for their food. As he had just finished working overtime, Qi Xun called to ask where Bai Xi was and whether he would like to have a midnight snack.

Bai Xi looked at the barbecued flaky pastries that the server had just brought to the table, then at Zhao Qingtong sitting opposite of him. Suddenly, he felt the phone he held was burning in his hand.

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He replied vaguely, “I am at Xindu No. 2 Hospital with a friend who had to see the doctor, and now we are having dinner, so don’t worry about me.”

Instead of doubting him, Qi Xun asked offhandedly, “Which friend? A colleague?”

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As Bai Xi was about to deal with the question, Zhao Qingtong coughed very loudly in the opposite direction, then whined, “Bai Xi, my leg is starting to hurt again.”

At first, Qi Xun could not tell it was Zhao Qingtong’s voice, he just found the voice very familiar. S83eKI

But he was not forgetful enough. After a few seconds, he guessed who the other person was.

“Zhao Qingtong?!” He asked skeptically, “Why are you with him? Is he looking for trouble?”

When hearing this accusation, Zhao Qingtong rolled his eyes.

Bai Xi almost threw his phone out of the window. huEcKe

He glared at Zhao Qingtong and quickly explained today’s events to Qi Xun.

Of course, Qi Xun knew Bai Xi would not lie to him, but he felt uneasy at the thought of Zhao Qingtong sitting opposite Bai Xi, not knowing what words were being whispered into his ears.

Qi Xun could only inform Bai Xi. “I will come right away. Ignore whatever comes out of his mouth.”

Zhao Qingtong’s ears were very sharp. There were not as many customers in the restaurant, plus sitting close to Bai Xi, he could tell Qi Xun spoke ill of him from the shattered words he heard. 97a1yu

He sneered and used a completely different attitude towards Bai Xi. “Bai Xi, I will be by myself tonight. Can you stay the night with me?”

He did not lower his voice, allowing Qi Xun to hear every single word.

Qi Xun asked Bai Xi to put him on speaker and warned, “Enough, Zhao Qingtong. Why are you bothering Bai Xi?”

Zhao Qingtong put down his chopsticks, folded his hands, and said with a smile, “It’s none of your business if I eat with Bai Xi, are you too lenient? Bai Xi took care of me all afternoon, he was very attentive, and he was afraid that I would be cold. I felt uncomfortable and even bought me a drink. You are not a very good person, but you have a pretty good eye for finding a partner.” 5IQfUo

Zhao Qingtong put down his chopsticks, crossed his arms, and showed a plastic smile. “Aren’t you micromanaging too much? It is none of your business if Bai Xi is having a meal with me or not. Bai Xi took care of me all afternoon. He was very sweet and attentive. He paid attention to all my discomfort. He even bought me a drink. I have to say, you have a good eye for finding such an amazing partner.”

Every word he said was correct, but when combined, it sounded like tea.

He was not wrong, but when combined, it was not as simple as it seemed.

Qi Xun was choked by rage. They have not met for years, and his tolerance towards Zhao Qingtong was even worse than before. Qz2Nwp

But it was not suitable to start an argument with Zhao Qingtong while he was driving, so he informed Bai Xi, “I will be there soon.”

Then he ended the call.

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Bai Xi gawked at his phone and did not understand how things had evolved to this.

In front of him, Zhao Qingtong was completely calm. He moved the freshly served dim sum closer to Bai Xi and warmly soothed, “Let’s eat while they are still hot.” 1ZAcId

Bai Xi: “…”


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Pine Nut Tea: Qi Xun will realize what his heart wanted

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Translator's Note

Where something or someone is extremely rare and precious. The modification is instead of hard to find, it is unfindable.

Translator's Note

According to my research, ‘biu’ can mean two things. First is the onomatopoeia for gunshot (Not Chinese letter, just biu). It means a kind of blink of an eye action. It could also give a layer of cutesy in a word because it resembles a pouting face. There are more but those two stood out to me the most.

Translator's Note

The male version of ‘like a bitch’ (婊裏婊氣) but instead of bitch, it is replaced with ‘tea’ (茶裡茶氣). It refers to those ‘green tea’ characteristics, very scheming.

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26 comments

  1. Ohhhh I love how relatable and realistic ZQT is! Not sure abut him being boyfriend material but he’s definitely potential good friend material muahaha~

  2. Now I get what the author when they said “do not panic” 🤣 why is Qi Xun the one jealous now wwwwwww this is so entertaining haha

    Thank you for the chapter!

  3. It’s important to know two sides of case, because mostly when break-up happened it’s a falut of both sides, not one~

    Thank You for the new chapter ( ˘ ³˘)❤

  4. »You’ve spent my entire hospital stay with me already.”« – ” at the end

    lololol Now QX knows to be jelly xD

    Thx for the ch ٩( >ヮ<)۶

  5. Who would have thought that Zhao Qingtong would be wingman to Bai Xi and get Qi Xun to open up about his feelings!! 😘

    Thanks for the chapter 💞

  6. HAHAHA even QX’s ex can’t help being drawn by BX’s charm! I feel like they could’ve been friends if QX is not ZQT’s ex xD

  7. I wonder if Zhao Qingtong giving Qi Xun more time, they will be like Qi Xun and Bai Xi now? But I think Qi Xun type is the clingy coquettish one. Zhao Qingtong definitely a clingy one but his demeanor didn’t seems coquettish, calling forth the protective instinct. Is that why they didn’t work out? Because honestly I can see Qi Xun committed to him, getting married and old. When Qi Xun coming out to his parents, I think he is very serious. It was just unlike Bai Xi, Zhao Qingtong wanted too much. Bai Xi since the beginning didn’t want too much, just the present. Maybe that is what moved Qi Xun earlier.
  8. BX: that cheating trick is bad! Don’t do that!

    ZQT: you’re right, buddy.

    ZQT: immediately does the thing even harder

    No for real tho good job little wingman lolol