After I Flopped on My CrushCh34 - Unable to Free Myself

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Bai Xi and Qi Xun went back to the villa with the new photo and the two red envelopes. 2TCD9g

Bai Xi had been staying with his parents during the New Year. When he stepped onto the porch and saw the familiar living room, he realized that he missed the place.

After they went upstairs, took a bath and lay down in bed, he was still admiring the picture of kid Qi Xun dressed in a skirt.

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Qi Xun was puzzled. “Why do you like this so much?”

He did not mind about this skeleton in his closet. He had been good-looking since he was a child anyway. sUgrBZ

But he really could not find anything special about this picture, which was worthy of Bai Xi’s loving attention.

Bai Xi explained, “Because you were so cute, and it is the only one in existence with you in a skirt, understand? Limited edition, the only one in the world.”

Qi Xun understood.

This was like Bai Xi playing games and purchasing limited edition cosmetics, things that could be rare and expensive.

But he ignored Bai Xi’s protest and snatched the photo.

“What good is there to look at,” He said. “When the man himself is right here in front of you, what is the point of looking at the photo?”

Bai Xi looked at him quietly.

Now that he was used to the adorable loli, looking at the one hundred and eighty-eight centimeter handsome man beside him, why was it still kind of hard to accept? OpuZ50

Unaware of what was being processed inside of the other man’s head, Qi Xun pulled Bai Xi closer and moved him to lay on top of his body.

He exercised all year round. His figure appeared thin when he was in his clothes, but without them, his powerful and sturdy body was on display. Although Bai Xi was an adult man, it did not bother him a single bit to have his boyfriend lying on him like this.

He asked, “What do you think of today? Seeing my parents and all.”

Bai Xi did not expect this sudden question. bIiwY

He touched his heart with a little fear, “I was nervous at first, and almost forgot what to call me when I went in, but fortunately, my uncle and aunt treated me the same as before,” he thought for a while, then changed his words, “It seems more enthusiastic than before.”

Feeling the slight lingering fear in his heart, he answered, “I was nervous at the beginning. I almost forgot how to address them at first, but fortunately, your parents treated me the same as before.” After pondering for a while, he added, “No, maybe more friendly than before.”

Qi Xun patted Bai Xi’s hair. “I told you before that you are very likable.”

If his parents really had a problem with Bai Xi, he would not have taken his lover to see his parents at all. xOHAKm

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He teased Bai Xi again, “You said you almost forgot to use the right address. What did you plan to use?”

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Qi Xun remembered another thing.

He asked, “Before we left my parent’s house, what did Qi Yuan that kid say to you?”

Bai Xi thought about it and smiled. NnFc7

He actually quite likes Qi Xun, his cousin. People are always tolerant of people who are several years younger than him, not to mention that Qi Yuan looks a bit like Qi Xun.

He actually liked Qi Xun’s cousin very much. He was generally more tolerant towards someone of younger age, not to mention that Qi Yuan slightly resembled Qi Xun.

“He asked me why I like you. He talked about your bad temperament and how you never look like someone who is looking for a relationship. Also questioned what kind of trick you did to win me over.”

Qi Xun snorted. “I think this boy is itching for a beating, I should teach him a lesson next time I see him.” UZd1KP

Yet, Bai Xi smiled and pinched Qi Xun’s face.

Just by looking at the aloof man’s appearance, no third party could guess that Qi Xun could date or coax someone.

But those facts were his true color.

There was no one who was more gentle than Qi Xun. MlVzdX

He babbled, “I told him I was the one who liked you for a long time, but I do not think he believes me.”

Bringing this topic up, Qi Xun remembered a certain question he had long forgotten.

Four months ago, after that drunken night of theirs, Bai Xi once said that he had liked him since the last year of senior high school.

But Qi Xun had no impression of any role he played during Bai Xi’s senior high school. He asked but received no answer. sYR4Pt

As they became accustomed to each other, he unconsciously forgot it.

But now he remembered it again.

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He repeated the question, “Why did you fall for me? Why don’t I remember hanging out with you during your last year of senior high school?”

It was too long for him to remember the details from six years ago. BM6Wx7

Bai Xi did not expect Qi Xun to bring this back up again.

But he had nothing to hide. He did not reveal it before because it was too embarrassing last time. It would just add to the already distressing situation if he said it then.

He revealed, “It is very cliché. I fought with my family during that year and ran out alone without my wallet or phone. Then I ended up meeting you. You bought me a can of hot cocoa, sat with me for a long time, and sent me home in the end.”

He looked gently at Qi Xun. “That is when I hopelessly fell in love with you.” 5YlKCi

Or maybe it was the first time where his heart got stirred.

However, after finishing his senior high school exams, he took advantage of Qi Xun still in classes and drove to the other man’s university repeatedly in order to watch the debate and sport competition Qi Xun participated in.

He did not participate in any part of Qi Xun’s life, but he felt that summer was extremely beautiful, and the love Qi Xun brought him was wonderful.

He could not resist lowering his head and cuddling into Qi Xun’s arms like a spoiled child. EbJMvW

Later, when he applied and attended the same university, he became friends with Qi Xun. It did not shatter his illusional filter, but he fell for Qi Xun harder.

Qi Xun hugged him subconsciously, but there was a complicated expression on his face.

He did not think that Bai Xi liked him for such a simple reason.

Not because it was for a bad reason. ryjhVu

But this kind of love that blossomed due to an unexpected turn of events was not something special that a protagonist would come up with. But the atmosphere and time have given birth to this.

Perhaps that if he was replaced by another person, it would yield the same result.

If it wasn’t him that Percy met that day, but another person who comforted him and sent him home, maybe Percy would have fallen in love at first sight and would have gone to another university for this person.

If Bai Xi did not meet him that day, but another person comforted him and sent him home, perhaps the young man would have his love at first sight and went to another university with that person. 7R0iWl

Then their lives would pass like two parallel lines, and Bai Xi would not lie in his arms like now.

This made him feel subtly unpleasant.

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There seemed to be a real hostility between two love rivals with one nonexistent.

But he caressed Bai Xi’s hair and felt a little distress. AaMl3v

Because such trivial things that he could not remember caused Bai Xi to fall for him and became a six years secret admirer of his.

It was such a silly reason.

But this distress was not enough to verbally say that, because it was too hypocritical.

He was the beneficiary of Bai Xi’s secret love after all. cVwHik

He gently pecked Bai Xi’s ear. “You are too silly. What is the difference between this and accepting candy from a stranger?”

Bai Xi raised his head from Qi Xun’s arms and was not about to take that.

How could this be compared to a piece of candy?

Qi Xun continued, “If I were you, I would probably weaponize my good look. I would relentlessly pursue my target. Maybe once I won my target, I will not yearn as much. You were so hung up on it because you could not obtain it, that is why you could not free yourself.” IaQx63

He was just telling the truth.

In his utilitarian thinking, the sunk cost of secret love is too high. The more he invests, the harder it is to get out. In the end, he may not be able to tell whether it is the person he is reluctant to part with or the time he has devoted.

In his utilitarian thinking, the cost of secret love was too high. The more one invested in it, the less one could get out. In the end, it would be harder to tell whether the feeling was from not wanting to give that person up or because of how much time was spent on it.

So there was no way for him to do such a stupid thing. 9hiWZ2

Pursuit first, talk later.

Bai Xi had to admit that what Qi Xun said was very logical.

During his period as Qi Xun’s secret admirer, he felt like a rabbit being baited by a carrot. No matter how hard he tried to run to the finish line, the goal just seemed to get further and further away, and it was a race that he could not seem to give up on either.

He put his arms around Qi Xun’s neck and whispered, “But I have finally caught you. Why should I be yearning for you or have the desire to free myself?” wo7amR

This caught Qi Xun off guard.

He gazed into Bai Xi’s eyes, the eyes that had always been beautiful and clear.

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When Bai Xi looked at him with this pair of eyes, he could always undoubtedly feel the love behind it, like a firefly in the dark, where the glowing bug could not hide.

He held Bai Xi slightly tighter. Ndy41n

The duo looked at each other and kissed again, which was much more intense and hot than before.

Under Qi Xun’s might, Bai Xi endured the feeling of shame and uttered a bunch of lovers’ prattles.

Qi Xun thought that it was for the best that Bai Xi did not meet just anyone at the age of eighteen.

He was enough. fBx8nJ

He was not a good enough lover, but Bai Xi was.

So even if he arrived too late, he still did not want another person to take his place.